..magicks more or less equate to her physically ripping out a piece of herself and gifting it to another. Needless to say, that makes healing a taxing, painful, and dangerous experience that she tries her best to avoid whenever at all possible.

..consume the corporeal aether of other Spoken to perpetuate the spell that allows her to maintain a functional form.

All of that is to say that those healing spells require Elle to part with aether that she cannot easily replace and which is as much a part of her body as flesh and blood. Healing..

..just an arcane construction resulting from highly complex and aether-intensive spellwork.

This false body isn't able to recover aether through food and rest like a normal, living-and-breathing person can. At least, not to the degree needed for subsistence. Instead, it requires her to regularly..

..incompatible. So when she casts, Elle has to draw upon her own personal reserves of aether to do so.

That in itself isn't all too unusual, as many types of magicks require their practitioners to do exactly that.

However, Elle's 'body' functions differently than normal as it's essentially..

i think it does a person good to just take a break and reset sometimes!

that said, i'm starting to get the muse back. slowly but surely. life's still life-ing the ever-loving shit out of me on a regular basis, but i'm managing. and i think getting the writing itch again is a good sign.

so no promises, buuuut... i think i'll slowly start getting back in the rp saddle.

she's a service do-gooder

Reed also doesn't care overmuch about his name, except for some bitterness over the fact that the Stoneshore children's musically-themed naming conventions were his father's idea. But he's content not to bring up the inspiration behind his name, so it rarely arises in conversation or in his mind.

look, someone's gotta be able to reach the top shelves and it sure as shit ain't gonna be us

Combine that with me picking up ARK for the first time and the related "Ooh, new game!" hyper-fixation, which has further pushed FFXIV to the back of my mind for now. I'm hoping that the new patch will re-light my FFXIV spark again, but we'll see!

anyhoo, thanks 4 comin 2 my ted talk, bye frens o/

.. doctor is wrong and I don't actually have ADHD after all and I'm just a lazy stupid piece of shit' impostor syndrome that still cropped up sometimes when I was feeling down. Silver lining!)

I've also just not been feeling burnt out and not any real urge to play FFXIV outside of RP lately, too.

..tired all the fkn time. Because apparently, the very low dosage of Adderall XR that I was started on makes me drowsy af and just overall kinda low energy, especially mentally/socially. (Talk about an unexpected side effect, but hey - at least it's made me shed any last feelings of 'maybe my..

..to the week of 7/14, so that's likely when you'll see me back in full chaotic little gay gremlin force. But until then, you'll still probably see the occasional like, reply, or repost from me.

So anyway, yeah. I'll be seeing you again soon, friendos! ♥

..also the potential that next week could be just as bad, if not worse. Either way - I've just got to make it to July 7th, at the absolute latest.

So, I'm taking just a short little break from FFXIV, RP, and bsky to give my mind and brain some rest. Fortunately, I also bumped up my vacation today..