I double checked & 'decade' is a 4th grade level vocabulary word so when I was trying to sound it out I mixed it up with smth more advanced which is cool retrospectively ig but at the time I was much more deeply devastated to get my paper back with any red ink on it telling me that I fucked up lmao

I'm pretty certain it was either 3rd or 4th grade that I did that. Out of curiosity I was looking up English Language Development or Early Developmental Language graded vocabulary lists & 'decay' is a 6th grade vocabulary word

One of the few rlly good things my bio parents did was encourage reading

What'm I supposed to do w any of this information? "u might have CREST syndrome" yeah it might also be lupus or early onset crohns disease or a small handful of other things. I like that they confirmed that there's definitely smth wrong w my body so it's not just in my head but theres no action plan

Mychart says that speckled ANA pattern is associated with mixed connective issue disease (MCTD), systemic lupus erythematosus (SLE), Sjogren's syndrome, dermatomyositis, &
systemic sclerosis/polymyositis overlap

My antismith antibodies, sjogrens extractables, scleroderma antibodies are all negative

I miss my old doctor but she had a baby and understandably left her practice so I have been in limbo primary care hell since she left

I got a Costco membership to get their cheap car insurance but now I can get $5 rotisserie chicken as a bonus

Even with the cost of membership factored in, I'm paying less for my car insurance than I was with State Farm (I've been with State Farm since I was 18, I'm 30 now)

Mystery autoimmune condition that they don't know what it is until I get worse. Maybe CREST, maybe HEDS + mild fibromyalgia, maybe who knows what all else. Maybe maybe maybe. Definitely smth but shrugs all around.

Other people have it worse for sure. I function enough to have a job, but that's *it*

Slight scoliosis so I'm slightly crooked. I'm definitely neurodivergent so I have social issues on top of walking like a fucking penguin

I can't do this

Easily dehydrated and my feet regularly threaten to Charley horse and I have to leap out of whatever position I'm in to walk it off when it happens, random numbness that doesn't usually last very long but super annoying to get pins and needles in my legs or TV static in my pinky finger, sciatica

joint stiffness w age in spite of being hyper mobile, easy dislocation+regularly snap crackle popping my joints, possible tmj/stiff jaw I can crack near my ears, unexplained facial flushing at random intervals but not butterfly so it's not lupus. I CONSTANTLY feel at least slightly under the weather