mika
@bodiless.bsky.social
hi, i’m mika
28, they/them
non-binary & bi
former vent user
(username was bodiless)
28, they/them
non-binary & bi
former vent user
(username was bodiless)
i feel so tired and bored and empty and like everything is meaningless -_-
December 14, 2025 at 11:13 PM
i feel so tired and bored and empty and like everything is meaningless -_-
gift giving sucks so much specifically during christmas like i would love to randomly get people gifts all year but when there’s pressure to get gifts for each other for a specific date it just sucks >:( i gotta get my brother a christmas gift tomorrow >:( i’m probably just gonna get what mom is
December 14, 2025 at 10:55 PM
gift giving sucks so much specifically during christmas like i would love to randomly get people gifts all year but when there’s pressure to get gifts for each other for a specific date it just sucks >:( i gotta get my brother a christmas gift tomorrow >:( i’m probably just gonna get what mom is
i feel like i’ve been more depressed lately and i’ve also been taking birth control for like a month now so that might be why but for some reason it makes the depression feel? not valid??
and i remember when i got diagnosed with hypothyroidism at 19 and i was reading about how it causes depression
and i remember when i got diagnosed with hypothyroidism at 19 and i was reading about how it causes depression
December 11, 2025 at 8:10 PM
i feel like i’ve been more depressed lately and i’ve also been taking birth control for like a month now so that might be why but for some reason it makes the depression feel? not valid??
and i remember when i got diagnosed with hypothyroidism at 19 and i was reading about how it causes depression
and i remember when i got diagnosed with hypothyroidism at 19 and i was reading about how it causes depression
also i feel so shitty today i already felt really bad and then i had to go to the pharmacy and stuff and i brought mom to talk for me and even though she did most of the talking every tiny interaction i had still made me feel so bad i just felt like my entire existence is a nuisance to other people
December 9, 2025 at 8:22 PM
also i feel so shitty today i already felt really bad and then i had to go to the pharmacy and stuff and i brought mom to talk for me and even though she did most of the talking every tiny interaction i had still made me feel so bad i just felt like my entire existence is a nuisance to other people
ugh the bathroom in my apartment kinda sucks like the sink is so tiny and there’s a big cabinet above it and then the shower is right next to that and if you keep the shower curtain completely closed there’s no room to shower because the cabinet is so wide so i always keep the curtains kinda open
December 9, 2025 at 7:49 PM
ugh the bathroom in my apartment kinda sucks like the sink is so tiny and there’s a big cabinet above it and then the shower is right next to that and if you keep the shower curtain completely closed there’s no room to shower because the cabinet is so wide so i always keep the curtains kinda open
i only ever come here to talk about how bad i feel but i’m sad tonight <3 i kind of like being sad though <3 it’s like yay i do still have emotions <3 but i’m also feeling incredibly lonely and like getting the urge to share my sadness with someone and talk about it and express it and be understood
December 9, 2025 at 1:12 AM
i only ever come here to talk about how bad i feel but i’m sad tonight <3 i kind of like being sad though <3 it’s like yay i do still have emotions <3 but i’m also feeling incredibly lonely and like getting the urge to share my sadness with someone and talk about it and express it and be understood
i want to try individual therapy again but i feel like i just can’t. they’ll reject me or if i get assigned a new psychologist i’ll have such limited time with them i won’t get to feel safe or comfortable before they give up on me. and i’m just doubting that they can offer the type of years-long
December 6, 2025 at 1:00 AM
i want to try individual therapy again but i feel like i just can’t. they’ll reject me or if i get assigned a new psychologist i’ll have such limited time with them i won’t get to feel safe or comfortable before they give up on me. and i’m just doubting that they can offer the type of years-long
its only been a few days but i feel like during the 3 months of group therapy i actually felt a little better about interacting with people in general? but i feel like that immediately went away after it ended??? cause i keep thinking about yesterday when i met someone and feeling so awful about
December 5, 2025 at 2:41 PM
its only been a few days but i feel like during the 3 months of group therapy i actually felt a little better about interacting with people in general? but i feel like that immediately went away after it ended??? cause i keep thinking about yesterday when i met someone and feeling so awful about
ugh i kind of just want to cry in someone’s arms :I
December 2, 2025 at 10:29 PM
ugh i kind of just want to cry in someone’s arms :I
idk what i feel about group therapy ending im trying to figure it out but my head is just empty. i think i’ll genuinely miss everyone in the group. especially a couple of the more outgoing people who tried to include me by asking me questions during the breaks or saying hi.
& i feel like? regretful?
& i feel like? regretful?
December 1, 2025 at 6:31 PM
idk what i feel about group therapy ending im trying to figure it out but my head is just empty. i think i’ll genuinely miss everyone in the group. especially a couple of the more outgoing people who tried to include me by asking me questions during the breaks or saying hi.
& i feel like? regretful?
& i feel like? regretful?
i just chipped my fucking tooth biting my nails -.- that’s so annoying. but i guess my other lower front tooth chipping slightly not too long ago should’ve been a warning that this could happen. i honestly have worse chips on other teeth but it’s just a really annoying spot because my tongue
November 26, 2025 at 10:57 PM
i just chipped my fucking tooth biting my nails -.- that’s so annoying. but i guess my other lower front tooth chipping slightly not too long ago should’ve been a warning that this could happen. i honestly have worse chips on other teeth but it’s just a really annoying spot because my tongue
im starting to really dislike winter ugh i used to love it but i don’t like the cold i don’t like the skin on my hands cracking and bleeding i don’t like the sun setting before 4 pm -_-
November 26, 2025 at 1:27 PM
im starting to really dislike winter ugh i used to love it but i don’t like the cold i don’t like the skin on my hands cracking and bleeding i don’t like the sun setting before 4 pm -_-
also i’m sad about the group therapy ending next week :////// ahhhh
November 24, 2025 at 10:51 PM
also i’m sad about the group therapy ending next week :////// ahhhh
i really wanna rewatch i saw the tv glow
November 24, 2025 at 10:43 PM
i really wanna rewatch i saw the tv glow
everything is so boring and uninteresting and i’m really cold and i need to clean my apartment but i don’t want to + don’t have the energy to i feel so bad ahhhhhhh
November 20, 2025 at 12:48 PM
everything is so boring and uninteresting and i’m really cold and i need to clean my apartment but i don’t want to + don’t have the energy to i feel so bad ahhhhhhh
i’ve upset myself now by finding old videos of my cats lmao
November 17, 2025 at 4:28 PM
i’ve upset myself now by finding old videos of my cats lmao
i’m probably gonna start taking birth control to stop my periods today/tomorrow if my period is actually starting which it most likely is this is the happiest i’ve ever been to see my period start. because it means i get to stop it from happening!!! >:D
November 15, 2025 at 1:27 AM
i’m probably gonna start taking birth control to stop my periods today/tomorrow if my period is actually starting which it most likely is this is the happiest i’ve ever been to see my period start. because it means i get to stop it from happening!!! >:D
i’m so tired today idk why…… i went outside to go for a walk before the sun set but i only walked like 3000 steps…… -_- but i guess that’s better than nothing
November 14, 2025 at 5:22 PM
i’m so tired today idk why…… i went outside to go for a walk before the sun set but i only walked like 3000 steps…… -_- but i guess that’s better than nothing
i’m playing stray my controller is purring and it’s making me miss my dead cats :( i miss when my cat used to sleep on my chest when i was lying on the couch :(( i miss him so much :(((
November 14, 2025 at 12:12 AM
i’m playing stray my controller is purring and it’s making me miss my dead cats :( i miss when my cat used to sleep on my chest when i was lying on the couch :(( i miss him so much :(((
god i have so many thoughts but idk what to do with them or where to put them i just have the urge to talk stuff out with someone but i don’t have anyone to do that with and i don’t see why anyone would care ugh >:(
November 13, 2025 at 9:34 AM
god i have so many thoughts but idk what to do with them or where to put them i just have the urge to talk stuff out with someone but i don’t have anyone to do that with and i don’t see why anyone would care ugh >:(
its 4 am i can’t sleep :( i wanted to join the group walk tomorrow since its actually gonna be sunny but i’d have to get up in 5-6 hours and sleeping is more important to me i think :/ the walk was actually kind of fun last time though…… i guess i’ll see how i feel….. i’m gonna try to sleep
November 13, 2025 at 2:59 AM
its 4 am i can’t sleep :( i wanted to join the group walk tomorrow since its actually gonna be sunny but i’d have to get up in 5-6 hours and sleeping is more important to me i think :/ the walk was actually kind of fun last time though…… i guess i’ll see how i feel….. i’m gonna try to sleep
i feel like the older i get the more i start to wonder if i have schizoid personality disorder. i don’t think i actually do. but even before the group therapy started when they gave me a long personality disorder questionnaire to fill out i was surprised by how much i related to the szpd statements
November 12, 2025 at 6:08 PM
i feel like the older i get the more i start to wonder if i have schizoid personality disorder. i don’t think i actually do. but even before the group therapy started when they gave me a long personality disorder questionnaire to fill out i was surprised by how much i related to the szpd statements
i hate thrips so much. and they confuse me because they’re attacking a succulent for some reason but not my favorite chinese evergreens. i’m happy my fav plants are ok but i don’t understand why they attack certain plants but not other ones?? and i just found one in my fucking bathroom????????
November 10, 2025 at 1:39 AM
i hate thrips so much. and they confuse me because they’re attacking a succulent for some reason but not my favorite chinese evergreens. i’m happy my fav plants are ok but i don’t understand why they attack certain plants but not other ones?? and i just found one in my fucking bathroom????????
i made the mistake of liking someone on a dating app and now they messaged me :/ i don’t want to respond :/
November 6, 2025 at 2:55 AM
i made the mistake of liking someone on a dating app and now they messaged me :/ i don’t want to respond :/
i felt very tired earlier and decided to just lie down on the couch but i ended up lying on one of the loose back cushions and it reminded me so much of a torso i started crying
November 6, 2025 at 1:10 AM
i felt very tired earlier and decided to just lie down on the couch but i ended up lying on one of the loose back cushions and it reminded me so much of a torso i started crying