Rare photo of me in a suit. Documenting for myself

The start of a new year properly. Last year I lost so many and had been too busy to grief or talk like I wanted to. So this year I plan on working on building myself back up, reach stability and then traveling around for a while.

2:30am She passed.

A question I wish I could have other perspectives on was this. What is good? And What is evil? If all you have known is the rot of humanity does that make your version of good any different? What’s the criteria? I grew up with a very skewed reality and so it raises questions I have no answers for.

As the year comes to an end I think of the people I’ve lost, ones I’ve kept, all the moments this life has given me, and the hopes I have for building a better future with the remains of my old foundation.

Day 1278 of #IansDailyPhotoChallenge and only 2 more days until the robin quota counter resets for another year
Just time to sneak this one in then 🤗🤭 #inspiringnature #wildlife #naturephotography #MentalHealthMatters
#365DaysWild

Sadly I didn’t get to sleep till 4am for just 4 restless hours, I was being kept awake from pains, being unable to breathe, and a headache that felt like a hammer cracking my skull. The headache has stopped but I keep having my chest give me pain. But I’m doing what I can to handle it. Wish me luck.

Here's a shot I got in May of a Cliff Swallow colony on the central coast. There were so many nests I lost count and I can't wait to get back there in 2026!

#Birds #Photography #Nature

I’ve been getting deeply sick throughout the year, for the last 4 days I have now lost my voice, my ability to stay conscious. And my ability to move my limbs. Due to the situation I am in I can’t handle it the way I need to, so I’m biting my tongue trying to handle everything as much as I can.

Day 2 (and 3)
I had reconnected with my baby sister, someone I haven’t talked to in years due to how busy she had been. I spent some time in a cell which gave me the time to go through my thoughts as well as starting to establish what I needed to not keep my negative habits.

Day 1
I lost family, friends, in this year alone I’ve been too 43 funerals. 23 of which I was the one having to hold everything together. I had a messy breakup. With all this loss on one side of the scale it tipped weighing my mind, but as year has gone on so do my thoughts. And with time clarity.

So I am planning on posting each day summing up this year until it hits the new year. First one will be in a few hours.