A Broken Fox
@aobrokenfox.bsky.social
This is simply my emotional dumping ground so that I don't burden people with my emotions. My husband passed away too soon and I just want an outlet to cry out all of these bottled up feelings.
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A Broken Fox
@aobrokenfox.bsky.social
· Dec 25
This is Blue and This is Blue. This is the man I feel in love with back in 2014 when he came to visit my FC looking to meet the members of the Roegabros LS in FFXIV that he had just joined after transferring servers to start a new. We hit it off instantly and well the rest is history. ❤️
Thank you Crim for getting me out the house. I needed to get an oil change but I didn't want to mention that cause he probably would've really pushed for me to get out. I took Rein's advice and went to jiffy and it was the same price except this time I was informed that I had a leak. Lovely.
January 26, 2026 at 11:39 PM
Thank you Crim for getting me out the house. I needed to get an oil change but I didn't want to mention that cause he probably would've really pushed for me to get out. I took Rein's advice and went to jiffy and it was the same price except this time I was informed that I had a leak. Lovely.
Getting a bit frustrated with my dreams of late. I'm always gathering something of needing to find what I'm missing for something. That something being Blue's funeral. That's not what I meant when I said I wanted to see more of my husband just him being some lingering presence in the background
January 26, 2026 at 5:56 AM
Getting a bit frustrated with my dreams of late. I'm always gathering something of needing to find what I'm missing for something. That something being Blue's funeral. That's not what I meant when I said I wanted to see more of my husband just him being some lingering presence in the background
Hmm, no word from the two that made plans with me at all today. I guess I'm grateful for the free time but I'm gonna be upset if they try to attack tomorrow when it's so cold out. I've been marathoning The Fragrant Flower Blooms With Dignity. It was something I wanted to watch last year with Blue
January 25, 2026 at 1:58 AM
Hmm, no word from the two that made plans with me at all today. I guess I'm grateful for the free time but I'm gonna be upset if they try to attack tomorrow when it's so cold out. I've been marathoning The Fragrant Flower Blooms With Dignity. It was something I wanted to watch last year with Blue
Oh goodness I've been talking so much out loud and in my head that I forgot that I didn't say anything here. Yesterday or thursday rather was really busy at the start. I took off work but ended having to do more paperwork with insurance which lead to more calls and going to the funeral home and back
January 24, 2026 at 9:55 AM
Oh goodness I've been talking so much out loud and in my head that I forgot that I didn't say anything here. Yesterday or thursday rather was really busy at the start. I took off work but ended having to do more paperwork with insurance which lead to more calls and going to the funeral home and back
So I signed up for counseling this morning. I realized 2 things. One is that I sob every time I have to tell someone that you passed away. Two is that I don't like reaching out or starting casual convo with others. I had to explain that I have close ones that love and care for me but I function
January 22, 2026 at 2:51 AM
So I signed up for counseling this morning. I realized 2 things. One is that I sob every time I have to tell someone that you passed away. Two is that I don't like reaching out or starting casual convo with others. I had to explain that I have close ones that love and care for me but I function
Well Hun, I still haven't learned how to properly cook steak without smoking up the house. I found some discounted steaks for us! <3 I gave away the last ones to Nate cause I couldn't see myself ever cooking something nice for myself again. I cried when I got home. I'm happy to be home but today was
January 21, 2026 at 6:56 AM
Well Hun, I still haven't learned how to properly cook steak without smoking up the house. I found some discounted steaks for us! <3 I gave away the last ones to Nate cause I couldn't see myself ever cooking something nice for myself again. I cried when I got home. I'm happy to be home but today was
My heart hurts being at work. I feel like I have a non-stop anxiety attack going on that is mild and escalates depending on the situation. It's almost time for me to go and right now I'm watching Hunny Bear's MegaMan 2 stream. It's comforting but the regrets start kicking in. I've watched so much
January 21, 2026 at 3:34 AM
My heart hurts being at work. I feel like I have a non-stop anxiety attack going on that is mild and escalates depending on the situation. It's almost time for me to go and right now I'm watching Hunny Bear's MegaMan 2 stream. It's comforting but the regrets start kicking in. I've watched so much
So, a little strange. I texted your brother to confirm his address and um apparently he was just going to send you to your dad's. Your dad told me that he has a spot for you and your mom but... Does your brother no longer have your mother or like did he just feel like you should be with your dad
January 19, 2026 at 9:44 PM
So, a little strange. I texted your brother to confirm his address and um apparently he was just going to send you to your dad's. Your dad told me that he has a spot for you and your mom but... Does your brother no longer have your mother or like did he just feel like you should be with your dad
I've been sitting here for 40 mins now. Not doing much of anything besides listening to the clock tick away in this silence. I remembered Gala's new pic and how breathe taking it was. So much style, such great line art, composition is perfect, character always on model. So much aspiration. I can
January 19, 2026 at 8:24 PM
I've been sitting here for 40 mins now. Not doing much of anything besides listening to the clock tick away in this silence. I remembered Gala's new pic and how breathe taking it was. So much style, such great line art, composition is perfect, character always on model. So much aspiration. I can
I decided to not go in today. The biggest deciding factor was the fact that your Urns were arriving today. I can't in good faith leave here and have those sitting out or not delivered because I wasn't around. I'd lose it if something were to happen to them. I might have to take off more days because
January 19, 2026 at 7:53 PM
I decided to not go in today. The biggest deciding factor was the fact that your Urns were arriving today. I can't in good faith leave here and have those sitting out or not delivered because I wasn't around. I'd lose it if something were to happen to them. I might have to take off more days because
My mother would take loosing me the hardest. The amount of stress and heart ache would just be too much but I hope she'd understand that I'd be so happy. I truly do hope everyone would understand how much happier I'd be. This isn't a suicide post or anything like that but Blue have some pretty big
January 19, 2026 at 10:00 AM
My mother would take loosing me the hardest. The amount of stress and heart ache would just be too much but I hope she'd understand that I'd be so happy. I truly do hope everyone would understand how much happier I'd be. This isn't a suicide post or anything like that but Blue have some pretty big
I don't know how I'm suppose to do this. I just watched your last stream. It was exactly a month from today. We played through the MSQ and finished in the am when you made your post about us liking it. Then after that you fell ill and took you to the emergency room. It all happened so fast. I still
January 19, 2026 at 9:25 AM
I don't know how I'm suppose to do this. I just watched your last stream. It was exactly a month from today. We played through the MSQ and finished in the am when you made your post about us liking it. Then after that you fell ill and took you to the emergency room. It all happened so fast. I still
Ugh, my head is throbbing and I am hot. The food Nate made was really good. Mother called to check up on me and asked if I was gonna watch football with my Dad. I don't know how many times I gotta tell her that I don't watch sports. It's so strange. Nate is really going through it. Handling it as
January 19, 2026 at 12:02 AM
Ugh, my head is throbbing and I am hot. The food Nate made was really good. Mother called to check up on me and asked if I was gonna watch football with my Dad. I don't know how many times I gotta tell her that I don't watch sports. It's so strange. Nate is really going through it. Handling it as
I do not know why I thought playing Close in the distance was a good idea before having company but It's just what I felt I should play after listening to Flow. Dreams have been weird and I haven't seen my lover bear again. I guess it was silly of me to think I'd have dreams of him everyday. I don't
January 18, 2026 at 8:13 PM
I do not know why I thought playing Close in the distance was a good idea before having company but It's just what I felt I should play after listening to Flow. Dreams have been weird and I haven't seen my lover bear again. I guess it was silly of me to think I'd have dreams of him everyday. I don't
See! I told you I wouldn't get emotional and you didn't either. Just little by little. It doesn't matter how. Let's not question it but enjoy it. Every little moment we get. Anything is better than nothing. Thank you self for giving me another chance. I know the first time put me into a panic but
January 17, 2026 at 8:31 PM
See! I told you I wouldn't get emotional and you didn't either. Just little by little. It doesn't matter how. Let's not question it but enjoy it. Every little moment we get. Anything is better than nothing. Thank you self for giving me another chance. I know the first time put me into a panic but
Sorry I didn't write earlier. Today's been a very emotional day. It's not getting any easier trying to cope with you not being here. This reality is so unreal. I break down whenever I think of our daily routines or when I'm in your area. I break down thinking that I have to accept that you're not
January 16, 2026 at 10:18 AM
Sorry I didn't write earlier. Today's been a very emotional day. It's not getting any easier trying to cope with you not being here. This reality is so unreal. I break down whenever I think of our daily routines or when I'm in your area. I break down thinking that I have to accept that you're not
Hiya Darling. Guess what? I was hanging out with Crim, Dev, Medo and Tonton yesterday. I don't think you've met Tonton. He hangs out with Jarrick's crew a lot but yeah, Crim stopped by to gimme some pets and love since I've been logged in sitting in the same spot since the memorial for you. I caught
January 14, 2026 at 11:09 PM
Hiya Darling. Guess what? I was hanging out with Crim, Dev, Medo and Tonton yesterday. I don't think you've met Tonton. He hangs out with Jarrick's crew a lot but yeah, Crim stopped by to gimme some pets and love since I've been logged in sitting in the same spot since the memorial for you. I caught
Jeez, do I always make that many mistakes when I post on my phone. First time I looked over one of these post. I really need to do that more often cause that was too many mistakes. I paid good money for this urns. Now that I think about it that lion better not be a fucking sticker or I'm gonna flip!
January 13, 2026 at 7:08 PM
Jeez, do I always make that many mistakes when I post on my phone. First time I looked over one of these post. I really need to do that more often cause that was too many mistakes. I paid good money for this urns. Now that I think about it that lion better not be a fucking sticker or I'm gonna flip!
I.. I'm so sorry Hun. I'm so sorry. I couldn't handle it. Before I want to bed I had asked myself to have a dream of you. At least just this once. I didn't think it'd happen since I haven't dreamed of you since but towards the end, you were here. You were home and you were lecturing me in your usual
January 13, 2026 at 6:42 PM
I.. I'm so sorry Hun. I'm so sorry. I couldn't handle it. Before I want to bed I had asked myself to have a dream of you. At least just this once. I didn't think it'd happen since I haven't dreamed of you since but towards the end, you were here. You were home and you were lecturing me in your usual
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January 11, 2026 at 1:18 PM
Oh man it took everything to write that last message. I kept passing out while writing. I changed my name a bit so it's not so on the nose that this my account. This is suppose to be hidden although it's very much public. What to even say. To start your siblings got here a bit early so I was able to
January 11, 2026 at 1:16 PM
Oh man it took everything to write that last message. I kept passing out while writing. I changed my name a bit so it's not so on the nose that this my account. This is suppose to be hidden although it's very much public. What to even say. To start your siblings got here a bit early so I was able to
Hunny, the funeral is over and I'm exhausted. I'll write later. I'm super sleepy so I'll finish talking to you when I wake I up. Love you /smooch /smooch /smooch
January 11, 2026 at 9:34 AM
Hunny, the funeral is over and I'm exhausted. I'll write later. I'm super sleepy so I'll finish talking to you when I wake I up. Love you /smooch /smooch /smooch
After all the love everyone has given me I feel like I would be the selfish one to just up and leave. It feels like I'm not allowed that option. I... I dunno. I need to stop thinking like this. I want to see you. I need sleep. See you soon hunny bear. You are loved by so many. That makes me happy.
January 10, 2026 at 12:20 PM
After all the love everyone has given me I feel like I would be the selfish one to just up and leave. It feels like I'm not allowed that option. I... I dunno. I need to stop thinking like this. I want to see you. I need sleep. See you soon hunny bear. You are loved by so many. That makes me happy.
Arawr rawr. It's finally here hunny. Today is the day I get to see you. I finished your playlist. I also need to make a folder to show off all the pictures I have of your pretty face. I hope you like my selection of songs. I also hope your obituary turned out well. Can't wait to see that as well.
January 10, 2026 at 12:17 PM
Arawr rawr. It's finally here hunny. Today is the day I get to see you. I finished your playlist. I also need to make a folder to show off all the pictures I have of your pretty face. I hope you like my selection of songs. I also hope your obituary turned out well. Can't wait to see that as well.
Rein and Trish have arrived. I haven't slept yet and I still need to clean the bathroom. I'm so tired. You Funeral is tomorrow and I've been impatiently wanting to see you have a ton of anxiety about it to. I want you to wake up and leave that funeral home with me. Drain my blood if ya have to
January 9, 2026 at 4:15 PM
Rein and Trish have arrived. I haven't slept yet and I still need to clean the bathroom. I'm so tired. You Funeral is tomorrow and I've been impatiently wanting to see you have a ton of anxiety about it to. I want you to wake up and leave that funeral home with me. Drain my blood if ya have to