Edyta Nowak
@ambivala.bsky.social
Recovery from depression and burnout though self-mastery.
Well, when you can't get up, make people come to you.
September 20, 2025 at 7:54 AM
Well, when you can't get up, make people come to you.
I was really anxious yesterday and one of the apps I use, Eat Right Now (irrelevant), suggested a mindfulness exercise to note if my thoughts are about future, past or now. I observed them for a moment and most of them were worries about future. It was interesting and labeling made me more grounded.
September 13, 2025 at 11:05 AM
I was really anxious yesterday and one of the apps I use, Eat Right Now (irrelevant), suggested a mindfulness exercise to note if my thoughts are about future, past or now. I observed them for a moment and most of them were worries about future. It was interesting and labeling made me more grounded.
All you can do is all you can do, but all you can do is enough.
-- Art L. Williams
-- Art L. Williams
September 11, 2025 at 2:42 PM
All you can do is all you can do, but all you can do is enough.
-- Art L. Williams
-- Art L. Williams
"How to build discipline from a complete zero" is what I typed into Google the other day. I found some reddit post that I didn't even finish reading but the OP mentioned a book that really helped him.
"The Slight Edge".
I checked it, read reviews and listened to some audiobook samples. Is this it?
"The Slight Edge".
I checked it, read reviews and listened to some audiobook samples. Is this it?
September 10, 2025 at 8:54 AM
"How to build discipline from a complete zero" is what I typed into Google the other day. I found some reddit post that I didn't even finish reading but the OP mentioned a book that really helped him.
"The Slight Edge".
I checked it, read reviews and listened to some audiobook samples. Is this it?
"The Slight Edge".
I checked it, read reviews and listened to some audiobook samples. Is this it?
I depicted the difference between normal me and depressed me. I think I caught the essence.
September 6, 2025 at 8:48 PM
I depicted the difference between normal me and depressed me. I think I caught the essence.
I recognized that I am engaging too much into easy dopamine activities and find myself in a cycle of feel good-feel terrible that is hard to break. Below video really opened my eyes to why this is happening and how to end the cycle. I recommend:
youtu.be/-2jZ-iOR8p4
youtu.be/-2jZ-iOR8p4
how to make doing hard things easier than scrolling youtube
YouTube video by Newel of Knowledge
youtu.be
September 3, 2025 at 7:43 AM
I recognized that I am engaging too much into easy dopamine activities and find myself in a cycle of feel good-feel terrible that is hard to break. Below video really opened my eyes to why this is happening and how to end the cycle. I recommend:
youtu.be/-2jZ-iOR8p4
youtu.be/-2jZ-iOR8p4
The hardest is to get out of bed. On time. With a plan.
After that it's mostly fine.
After that it's mostly fine.
September 2, 2025 at 6:44 AM
The hardest is to get out of bed. On time. With a plan.
After that it's mostly fine.
After that it's mostly fine.
“It's a job that's never started that takes the longest to finish.”
– J.R.R. Tolkien
– J.R.R. Tolkien
September 1, 2025 at 10:21 AM
“It's a job that's never started that takes the longest to finish.”
– J.R.R. Tolkien
– J.R.R. Tolkien
Today, I was 100% convinced I can't complete my MTB bike trip without a break for crying.
Well, I couldn't find a spare moment and I didn't want others to see me so I delayed it.
Now, I'm alone and I could cry but I don't want anymore.
I almost regret I didn't take the chance earlier.
Well, I couldn't find a spare moment and I didn't want others to see me so I delayed it.
Now, I'm alone and I could cry but I don't want anymore.
I almost regret I didn't take the chance earlier.
August 30, 2025 at 9:56 AM
Today, I was 100% convinced I can't complete my MTB bike trip without a break for crying.
Well, I couldn't find a spare moment and I didn't want others to see me so I delayed it.
Now, I'm alone and I could cry but I don't want anymore.
I almost regret I didn't take the chance earlier.
Well, I couldn't find a spare moment and I didn't want others to see me so I delayed it.
Now, I'm alone and I could cry but I don't want anymore.
I almost regret I didn't take the chance earlier.
Do you know your calling?
Reading the book 'Mastery' by Robert Greene. It's pretty inspiring. Goes back to recognizing what drove you in your childhood and letting it guide you. It brought back happy memories for me.
What drove you when you were young?
Reading the book 'Mastery' by Robert Greene. It's pretty inspiring. Goes back to recognizing what drove you in your childhood and letting it guide you. It brought back happy memories for me.
What drove you when you were young?
August 26, 2025 at 3:51 PM
Do you know your calling?
Reading the book 'Mastery' by Robert Greene. It's pretty inspiring. Goes back to recognizing what drove you in your childhood and letting it guide you. It brought back happy memories for me.
What drove you when you were young?
Reading the book 'Mastery' by Robert Greene. It's pretty inspiring. Goes back to recognizing what drove you in your childhood and letting it guide you. It brought back happy memories for me.
What drove you when you were young?
Okay, my new meditation app has lead me to a breakthrough. I don't know how to explain it clearly yet, but apparently when I'm in the middle of a negative thought chain, changing the perspective from being a hero of your mind to an outside observer makes the thought disappear?
August 15, 2025 at 10:51 AM
Okay, my new meditation app has lead me to a breakthrough. I don't know how to explain it clearly yet, but apparently when I'm in the middle of a negative thought chain, changing the perspective from being a hero of your mind to an outside observer makes the thought disappear?
I messed up an appointment for house presentation and now my partner is mad.
I'm just sitting and beating myself up. Give up on me already.
I'm just sitting and beating myself up. Give up on me already.
August 14, 2025 at 5:02 PM
I messed up an appointment for house presentation and now my partner is mad.
I'm just sitting and beating myself up. Give up on me already.
I'm just sitting and beating myself up. Give up on me already.
This app is helping me recently. It has a different, practical approach than other apps and I'm really enjoying it.
Check it for free for 30 days: dynamic.wakingup.com/guestpass/SC...
Check it for free for 30 days: dynamic.wakingup.com/guestpass/SC...
August 14, 2025 at 8:49 AM
This app is helping me recently. It has a different, practical approach than other apps and I'm really enjoying it.
Check it for free for 30 days: dynamic.wakingup.com/guestpass/SC...
Check it for free for 30 days: dynamic.wakingup.com/guestpass/SC...
Sometimes, I just give in to my maladaptive behaviors and later I remember: “OOOOH, everything started 2 days before my period”.
Idk, around my period my thinking is impaired.
Setting reminder “Buckle up” before my next period.
Idk, around my period my thinking is impaired.
Setting reminder “Buckle up” before my next period.
August 13, 2025 at 8:54 PM
Sometimes, I just give in to my maladaptive behaviors and later I remember: “OOOOH, everything started 2 days before my period”.
Idk, around my period my thinking is impaired.
Setting reminder “Buckle up” before my next period.
Idk, around my period my thinking is impaired.
Setting reminder “Buckle up” before my next period.
My depressive moods come from a past I can’t change or a future I can’t control - my mind throwing problems at me I obviously can’t resolve right now.
August 11, 2025 at 3:53 PM
My depressive moods come from a past I can’t change or a future I can’t control - my mind throwing problems at me I obviously can’t resolve right now.
Maybe the problem is that we can’t really be sad around others because we make them “uncomfortable”.
I just want to be openly sad sometimes and not have people around give me advice or try to make me feel better on the spot.
I want to feel the sadness. Observe it. Give in.
And then - let go.
I just want to be openly sad sometimes and not have people around give me advice or try to make me feel better on the spot.
I want to feel the sadness. Observe it. Give in.
And then - let go.
August 11, 2025 at 3:17 PM
Maybe the problem is that we can’t really be sad around others because we make them “uncomfortable”.
I just want to be openly sad sometimes and not have people around give me advice or try to make me feel better on the spot.
I want to feel the sadness. Observe it. Give in.
And then - let go.
I just want to be openly sad sometimes and not have people around give me advice or try to make me feel better on the spot.
I want to feel the sadness. Observe it. Give in.
And then - let go.
I just cried over a random memory of a stuffed dragon that my mum gave to our new dog when I was 12. I came back from school to find it all teared up.
I just really liked it and didn’t even get a chance to say goodbye to it. My mum said I’m too old for toys.
I still think about you, Tabaluga.
I just really liked it and didn’t even get a chance to say goodbye to it. My mum said I’m too old for toys.
I still think about you, Tabaluga.
August 11, 2025 at 3:04 PM
I just cried over a random memory of a stuffed dragon that my mum gave to our new dog when I was 12. I came back from school to find it all teared up.
I just really liked it and didn’t even get a chance to say goodbye to it. My mum said I’m too old for toys.
I still think about you, Tabaluga.
I just really liked it and didn’t even get a chance to say goodbye to it. My mum said I’m too old for toys.
I still think about you, Tabaluga.
It may be a pure coincidence, but when I feel disengaged and sad, I look back at myself, my achievements, my decisions and I have this urge to rebuild. Maybe even burn everything to the ground and rebuild.
My foundations are wobbly. What the fuck do I expect them to carry?
My foundations are wobbly. What the fuck do I expect them to carry?
August 11, 2025 at 11:29 AM
It may be a pure coincidence, but when I feel disengaged and sad, I look back at myself, my achievements, my decisions and I have this urge to rebuild. Maybe even burn everything to the ground and rebuild.
My foundations are wobbly. What the fuck do I expect them to carry?
My foundations are wobbly. What the fuck do I expect them to carry?
"Big" plans for Monday again. Let's see how it goes.
Big as in low energy big.
Big as in low energy big.
August 10, 2025 at 9:24 PM
"Big" plans for Monday again. Let's see how it goes.
Big as in low energy big.
Big as in low energy big.
Now I had to take shower to pretend I went to the gym like I said I would.
August 6, 2025 at 1:24 PM
Now I had to take shower to pretend I went to the gym like I said I would.
It's really hard to move if I haven't started in the morning.
August 6, 2025 at 11:05 AM
It's really hard to move if I haven't started in the morning.