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@spottedhyena.bsky.social
· Apr 8
You slide into bed while I get drunk
Slow conversations with a gun mean more
Than I've ever said to anyone
Anyone
So keep in happiness and torture me
While I tell you, "Let's go in style"
A million hooks around, a million ways to die
Darling, let's go inside
It'll be alright
Slow conversations with a gun mean more
Than I've ever said to anyone
Anyone
So keep in happiness and torture me
While I tell you, "Let's go in style"
A million hooks around, a million ways to die
Darling, let's go inside
It'll be alright
Hoping to summit a few tall mountains this winter. One of them is the most dangerous in the country. Either gunna live or die, either way Ill be at peace for my time on the mountain. The only time I don’t think about it is when I’m actively in danger.
December 3, 2025 at 6:06 AM
Hoping to summit a few tall mountains this winter. One of them is the most dangerous in the country. Either gunna live or die, either way Ill be at peace for my time on the mountain. The only time I don’t think about it is when I’m actively in danger.
After he left he seems to be doing so much better. This seems like a common theme, I’m just kept around to be used and then left to make space for better things
November 14, 2025 at 4:50 PM
After he left he seems to be doing so much better. This seems like a common theme, I’m just kept around to be used and then left to make space for better things
Please God, if I’m meant to be cold and alone, take away my desire to feel warmth and compassion
November 14, 2025 at 12:07 PM
Please God, if I’m meant to be cold and alone, take away my desire to feel warmth and compassion
A little over a year ago I was on the phone with a friend in a store while I was getting something. The aisle was empty and we were talking about him moving away and me having to move there with him. I said something along the lines of “yeah I’ll go out there, I’ll probably end up dead or in jail in
November 14, 2025 at 7:49 AM
A little over a year ago I was on the phone with a friend in a store while I was getting something. The aisle was empty and we were talking about him moving away and me having to move there with him. I said something along the lines of “yeah I’ll go out there, I’ll probably end up dead or in jail in
It never ends does it?
October 15, 2025 at 3:05 AM
It never ends does it?
I don’t even have the energy to text people. I just wake up from a nightmare in the morning, go to work or class, come home, study until it gets dark and then lay in bed and stare at the ceiling until I go back into another nightmare. They’re almost always about him now. I can’t get away from him.
September 12, 2025 at 2:43 AM
I don’t even have the energy to text people. I just wake up from a nightmare in the morning, go to work or class, come home, study until it gets dark and then lay in bed and stare at the ceiling until I go back into another nightmare. They’re almost always about him now. I can’t get away from him.
Not to mention getting blackout drunk camping Saturday and incoherently crying on the roof of an abandoned building. At least I got this picture out of it. Every time I kept looking up at the milkyway I’d break down again because it just reminded me of what he left me for.
August 19, 2025 at 2:30 AM
Not to mention getting blackout drunk camping Saturday and incoherently crying on the roof of an abandoned building. At least I got this picture out of it. Every time I kept looking up at the milkyway I’d break down again because it just reminded me of what he left me for.
Got fucked up alone, woke up incoherently hungover and texted the person who destroyed me. Great start to a day
August 19, 2025 at 2:29 AM
Got fucked up alone, woke up incoherently hungover and texted the person who destroyed me. Great start to a day
The harm I cause myself is one of the only things that makes me feel okay. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s cause I’m finally feeling some pain he didn’t cause
August 7, 2025 at 5:30 AM
The harm I cause myself is one of the only things that makes me feel okay. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s cause I’m finally feeling some pain he didn’t cause
I think my more recent propensity to more and more dangerous past times is from two things, one of the only times I’m not constantly plagued by intrusive thoughts about him and other bad things is when I’m doing something with some form of adrenaline or risk associated with it because I’m so 1/?
July 17, 2025 at 6:06 AM
I think my more recent propensity to more and more dangerous past times is from two things, one of the only times I’m not constantly plagued by intrusive thoughts about him and other bad things is when I’m doing something with some form of adrenaline or risk associated with it because I’m so 1/?
I don’t know how much longer I can do this
July 17, 2025 at 4:20 AM
I don’t know how much longer I can do this
Count my little scars, I've got dozens down inside
I come complete and invincible behind my dirty imbecile
All these things I've tried, boy: be cute, be dumb, be wise, be young
So don't tell me what to fear in the darkness of this atmosphere
I come complete and invincible behind my dirty imbecile
All these things I've tried, boy: be cute, be dumb, be wise, be young
So don't tell me what to fear in the darkness of this atmosphere
July 15, 2025 at 11:26 AM
Count my little scars, I've got dozens down inside
I come complete and invincible behind my dirty imbecile
All these things I've tried, boy: be cute, be dumb, be wise, be young
So don't tell me what to fear in the darkness of this atmosphere
I come complete and invincible behind my dirty imbecile
All these things I've tried, boy: be cute, be dumb, be wise, be young
So don't tell me what to fear in the darkness of this atmosphere
This is gunna be a music drive home from work and then a liquor morning
July 13, 2025 at 10:11 AM
This is gunna be a music drive home from work and then a liquor morning
You began to feel like home. Being in your arms, I felt safe and comfortable more than anywhere else. The nightmares were gone, and then one day just like that, trying to sleep in your arms I had my first nightmare with you, and it was worse than any other. That one I never woke up from. Never will.
July 11, 2025 at 4:30 AM
You began to feel like home. Being in your arms, I felt safe and comfortable more than anywhere else. The nightmares were gone, and then one day just like that, trying to sleep in your arms I had my first nightmare with you, and it was worse than any other. That one I never woke up from. Never will.
This has been one of the worst weeks in recent memory I think. Everything went great and aside from seeing family, i spent time with people i cared about. I saw him though. I remember each and every time I saw him and how I instantly turned tail and fled because I was terrified of him seeing me. 1/?
July 11, 2025 at 3:23 AM
This has been one of the worst weeks in recent memory I think. Everything went great and aside from seeing family, i spent time with people i cared about. I saw him though. I remember each and every time I saw him and how I instantly turned tail and fled because I was terrified of him seeing me. 1/?
Every night I want to talk to him and every night I can’t work up the nerve to say anything to him because I know it’s just going to hurt me. I have dreams or more specifically, nightmares of him messaging me or seeing me in person and I wake up practically mid panic attack from it. I’m tired.
July 8, 2025 at 1:05 AM
Every night I want to talk to him and every night I can’t work up the nerve to say anything to him because I know it’s just going to hurt me. I have dreams or more specifically, nightmares of him messaging me or seeing me in person and I wake up practically mid panic attack from it. I’m tired.
I’m not gunna lie this was the worst convention I’ve ever been to. I ran into him non fucking stop and had to drop everything and turn around to go hide. Every time I saw him my hands were shaking just as bad or worse than any part of my childhood. I accidentally got close to him and saw him out of
July 8, 2025 at 12:34 AM
I’m not gunna lie this was the worst convention I’ve ever been to. I ran into him non fucking stop and had to drop everything and turn around to go hide. Every time I saw him my hands were shaking just as bad or worse than any part of my childhood. I accidentally got close to him and saw him out of
No matter what I do or how things are going, every time I do something good I just want to tell him. I want him it be happy for me like he used to. It feels like nothing I do matters. I’m starting the beginning of the process for the hardest achievement in my career and I feel like a worthless 1/?
June 17, 2025 at 7:30 AM
No matter what I do or how things are going, every time I do something good I just want to tell him. I want him it be happy for me like he used to. It feels like nothing I do matters. I’m starting the beginning of the process for the hardest achievement in my career and I feel like a worthless 1/?
My main solace is that I bet he hates me now. At least it’s one sided love now
May 2, 2025 at 3:20 AM
My main solace is that I bet he hates me now. At least it’s one sided love now
I hope I don’t wake up
April 25, 2025 at 4:05 AM
I hope I don’t wake up
I would hug all my friends if they weren't friends with you
You don't know what it's like to be nothing at all
When the night turns cold my thoughts feel like stone
And it's nothing I can't change
But I can't breathe anymore
I forgot how to walk by myself
I could do with a little more of your help
You don't know what it's like to be nothing at all
When the night turns cold my thoughts feel like stone
And it's nothing I can't change
But I can't breathe anymore
I forgot how to walk by myself
I could do with a little more of your help
April 14, 2025 at 5:12 AM
I would hug all my friends if they weren't friends with you
You don't know what it's like to be nothing at all
When the night turns cold my thoughts feel like stone
And it's nothing I can't change
But I can't breathe anymore
I forgot how to walk by myself
I could do with a little more of your help
You don't know what it's like to be nothing at all
When the night turns cold my thoughts feel like stone
And it's nothing I can't change
But I can't breathe anymore
I forgot how to walk by myself
I could do with a little more of your help
Half a jar of moonshine down. The other half left. Hopefully when I’m done with the other half I’ll forget him for a minute
April 10, 2025 at 5:30 AM
Half a jar of moonshine down. The other half left. Hopefully when I’m done with the other half I’ll forget him for a minute
You slide into bed while I get drunk
Slow conversations with a gun mean more
Than I've ever said to anyone
Anyone
So keep in happiness and torture me
While I tell you, "Let's go in style"
A million hooks around, a million ways to die
Darling, let's go inside
It'll be alright
Slow conversations with a gun mean more
Than I've ever said to anyone
Anyone
So keep in happiness and torture me
While I tell you, "Let's go in style"
A million hooks around, a million ways to die
Darling, let's go inside
It'll be alright
April 8, 2025 at 1:23 PM
You slide into bed while I get drunk
Slow conversations with a gun mean more
Than I've ever said to anyone
Anyone
So keep in happiness and torture me
While I tell you, "Let's go in style"
A million hooks around, a million ways to die
Darling, let's go inside
It'll be alright
Slow conversations with a gun mean more
Than I've ever said to anyone
Anyone
So keep in happiness and torture me
While I tell you, "Let's go in style"
A million hooks around, a million ways to die
Darling, let's go inside
It'll be alright
God damn it I had another nightmare about him I just want this to be over
April 4, 2025 at 5:50 AM
God damn it I had another nightmare about him I just want this to be over