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it's real alt hours up in here now
would be a lie to say i don't feel like a freak that i haven't had sex in, like, over a year
January 19, 2026 at 7:39 PM
a hug and being called a good girl could, unironically, fix me rn

tbh, i think id cry if it happened rn
January 19, 2026 at 6:10 AM
vibrating with anxiety for some reason

i need some kind of touch, being held, something

it does so much for my nervous system and i've gone too long

truly feels like withdrawal
January 19, 2026 at 5:59 AM
delayed emotional processing is a fuck
January 18, 2026 at 10:07 PM
idk

i feel like everyone around me just wants to fuck, and my dysphoria makes that feel revolting

so i just find myself around a bunch of horny ass trannies, desperately wanting to feel like one of them, conceptually *being* one of them

but wanting to vomit at the thought of even being seen naked
January 18, 2026 at 7:41 PM
idk. i'm just another broken tranny i guess
January 18, 2026 at 7:33 PM
one of the hardest core beliefs i have to unlearn is that i truly do not believe that i'll ever be truly loved

i will be loved, of course, but it will come with conditions. it will be earned

and god help me if it's given freely, because there's always a catch and that scares me
January 18, 2026 at 7:32 PM
fuck i wish feeling horny didn't feel so fucking awkward and uncomfortable
January 17, 2026 at 8:18 PM
site needs private accounts, istg
January 17, 2026 at 6:07 AM
day i'm really going through it

day ending in y
January 16, 2026 at 9:09 PM
girl who hasn't been held in a
month, and hasn't been kissed for even longer

fucking criminal state of affairs, tbh
January 16, 2026 at 8:02 PM
it's real alt hours up in here now
January 16, 2026 at 7:27 PM
hard to hold onto the vision of joy when the easiest story i can craft about my life is one of loss

i manage. but fuck it's hard, and it's a story i'm always consciously putting energy into rewriting to be closer towards the more joyful truth

but that's not a narrative i'm used to
January 16, 2026 at 9:12 AM
huh… i think i've been in an extended depressive episode since i got pip'd at my last job, back in june
January 15, 2026 at 10:23 PM
oh right. i like attention lol lmao
January 15, 2026 at 8:56 PM
ummmm… gonna make this my alt for more private stuff going forward, i think

will block liberally
January 15, 2026 at 8:26 PM
chat, would it be really funny to keep this acct alive as an alt, and revive my og account?
January 15, 2026 at 7:30 PM
a lot of talk in therapy yesterday about how i'm avoiding even trying to get close to anyone right now, because i feel like i can't give what i feel like they'd want until after surgery

and how expecting patience or boundary respecting until then feels like too much to ask for
January 15, 2026 at 5:39 PM
i am tired and need to be held

honestly a crime i'm not being held
January 15, 2026 at 7:19 AM
tfw you forgot your meds in the morning, but it's too late to take them now 💀
January 14, 2026 at 11:28 PM
i think it is fun, sometimes, to drag a mix out to 32 bars, or even more if they're long enough, if the songs' keys match 🙂‍↕️
January 14, 2026 at 8:16 AM
some nights you just wanna shout
January 14, 2026 at 6:24 AM
Reposted by an ocean
economy so bad i cant even listen to house music . stuck listening to apartment music
January 13, 2026 at 11:31 PM
Reposted by an ocean
elon did the impossible and got all the trans girls to hate musk
January 14, 2026 at 5:28 AM