f; stan !! ★
@sashasalt.bsky.social
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stan’s sign-off: 🎸
IT WAS A MISTAKE, HE SAID MY RESPONSE WAS PHENOMENAL (IN CAPS) I FUCKING KNEW IT BRO
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February 3, 2026 at 1:21 AM
IT WAS A MISTAKE, HE SAID MY RESPONSE WAS PHENOMENAL (IN CAPS) I FUCKING KNEW IT BRO
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im gonna have a fucking panic attack dude just reply and fix my grade already for the love of god
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February 3, 2026 at 12:02 AM
im gonna have a fucking panic attack dude just reply and fix my grade already for the love of god
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just got a 0 on this assignment bc it supposedly wasnt what we were supposed to do. im genuinely so fucking confused, i kick ass in this class and i tripled checked now and everything was fine. just emailed the teacher so hopefully the grade can be fixed or i figure out where i somehow went wrong
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February 2, 2026 at 11:43 PM
just got a 0 on this assignment bc it supposedly wasnt what we were supposed to do. im genuinely so fucking confused, i kick ass in this class and i tripled checked now and everything was fine. just emailed the teacher so hopefully the grade can be fixed or i figure out where i somehow went wrong
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campus housing applications opened and i spent 2 hours looking at the virtual tours and photos of the campus and imagining what itd be like there. just reopened this bag of stuff they gave me last year. stickers, magnets, brochures. i was tearing up at this all ngl. i cant fucking wait to go
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February 2, 2026 at 11:07 PM
campus housing applications opened and i spent 2 hours looking at the virtual tours and photos of the campus and imagining what itd be like there. just reopened this bag of stuff they gave me last year. stickers, magnets, brochures. i was tearing up at this all ngl. i cant fucking wait to go
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i feel like all i ever do is play catch up
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February 2, 2026 at 8:12 PM
i feel like all i ever do is play catch up
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nobody ever pronounces our irl name right and we used to correct people but we stopped. when we move on campus we prob wont either. we dont care about the name anymore. and most of the time we dont care about the name sasha either. would rather be called whoever’s fronting. which is inconvenient
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February 2, 2026 at 8:00 PM
nobody ever pronounces our irl name right and we used to correct people but we stopped. when we move on campus we prob wont either. we dont care about the name anymore. and most of the time we dont care about the name sasha either. would rather be called whoever’s fronting. which is inconvenient
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just remembered why i dont like meeting with this guy. swear to god i feel like im being indoctrinated into becoming a capitalist everytime he opens his mouth and goes on another one of his positivity speeches,,, hmm yes professor people are poor because of their mindset you’re right /s
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February 2, 2026 at 7:58 PM
just remembered why i dont like meeting with this guy. swear to god i feel like im being indoctrinated into becoming a capitalist everytime he opens his mouth and goes on another one of his positivity speeches,,, hmm yes professor people are poor because of their mindset you’re right /s
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trying to think about my childhood is just making me wanna relapse and die so i think i’ll just have to wait to get a therapist to help me. which is a whole other challenge in and of itself but whatever
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February 2, 2026 at 3:14 AM
trying to think about my childhood is just making me wanna relapse and die so i think i’ll just have to wait to get a therapist to help me. which is a whole other challenge in and of itself but whatever
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i remember when we were a kid we were obsessed with the idea of smoking. we’d stay up late watching storytimes of smokers talking about their first time and shit. was jealous watching videos of kids smoking too, which was really fucked in hindsight. what the fuck was up with that. so weird
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February 2, 2026 at 2:34 AM
i remember when we were a kid we were obsessed with the idea of smoking. we’d stay up late watching storytimes of smokers talking about their first time and shit. was jealous watching videos of kids smoking too, which was really fucked in hindsight. what the fuck was up with that. so weird
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not becoming a paranoid fuck like we were our whole childhood is so fucking hard sometimes bc this fake deja vu shit has me genuinely thinking reality or the whole internet is fake. why does this shit keep repeating, i swear to god i keep getting like. boring visions of the future what the fuck
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February 2, 2026 at 1:58 AM
not becoming a paranoid fuck like we were our whole childhood is so fucking hard sometimes bc this fake deja vu shit has me genuinely thinking reality or the whole internet is fake. why does this shit keep repeating, i swear to god i keep getting like. boring visions of the future what the fuck
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sometimes we get really uptight and sanctimonious and i like telling myself thats our true nature, being smart and punctual and capable, but i know im just repressing myself again. i have to do that and make myself like it because the alternative of being a crybaby again is too much
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February 2, 2026 at 1:10 AM
sometimes we get really uptight and sanctimonious and i like telling myself thats our true nature, being smart and punctual and capable, but i know im just repressing myself again. i have to do that and make myself like it because the alternative of being a crybaby again is too much
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ok im saying stupid shit now im just going to sleep
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February 1, 2026 at 3:15 AM
ok im saying stupid shit now im just going to sleep
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i miss that time he calmed me down from a panic attack and assured me i wasnt a bad person. i remember when i randomly sobbed on call when talking about my dad. and i still dont know why exactly. but he was the only person i’ve cried in front of. i felt so safe around him. and hes gone forever
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February 1, 2026 at 3:14 AM
i miss that time he calmed me down from a panic attack and assured me i wasnt a bad person. i remember when i randomly sobbed on call when talking about my dad. and i still dont know why exactly. but he was the only person i’ve cried in front of. i felt so safe around him. and hes gone forever
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i really dont understand how we were able to do stuff without him. i get the 3 months of mourning but suddenly we go to graduation and see what a loser we are and maxime forms and for almost half a year we’re locked the fuck in? how? how the fuck did we do that? it still doesnt make sense to me
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February 1, 2026 at 3:00 AM
i really dont understand how we were able to do stuff without him. i get the 3 months of mourning but suddenly we go to graduation and see what a loser we are and maxime forms and for almost half a year we’re locked the fuck in? how? how the fuck did we do that? it still doesnt make sense to me
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this would be so much easier if i was on campus already. i’d either meet someone else or be forced to focus on studying and sucking up to teachers. either way i wouldnt be spending my time having panic attacks over him and crying about how i cant hear about his college life or whatever
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February 1, 2026 at 2:03 AM
this would be so much easier if i was on campus already. i’d either meet someone else or be forced to focus on studying and sucking up to teachers. either way i wouldnt be spending my time having panic attacks over him and crying about how i cant hear about his college life or whatever
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i wish i could hate him again. but i cant so im back to just hating myself
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February 1, 2026 at 1:59 AM
i wish i could hate him again. but i cant so im back to just hating myself
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just had a panic attack after looking through me and his old messages and our pinterest boards. pit in my stomach. i want to die. i cant sleep
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February 1, 2026 at 1:52 AM
just had a panic attack after looking through me and his old messages and our pinterest boards. pit in my stomach. i want to die. i cant sleep
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realizing he doesnt even know any fucking german after 6 months of studying it almost every day and reaching around B2 level has killed most of our motivation. we’ll probably slowly study until we properly finish B2 in april or so but theres no real reason to continue this shit
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studying german today made us wonder why we were even doing it again. like we accepted it was a hurt ego thing to distance ourself from him but rn it feels really pathetic in a different way, we’ve been really wishing we could speak it with him. but he barely knows any. and now we just feel weird
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January 30, 2026 at 11:02 PM
realizing he doesnt even know any fucking german after 6 months of studying it almost every day and reaching around B2 level has killed most of our motivation. we’ll probably slowly study until we properly finish B2 in april or so but theres no real reason to continue this shit
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we just got full points on the debate we busted our ass off for but im honestly mad rn bc the only comment we got from the teacher was ‘thank you for your excellent contribution’. and obviously thats good yes and obviously theres not much more to say yes but we were expecting more anyway
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January 30, 2026 at 10:46 PM
we just got full points on the debate we busted our ass off for but im honestly mad rn bc the only comment we got from the teacher was ‘thank you for your excellent contribution’. and obviously thats good yes and obviously theres not much more to say yes but we were expecting more anyway
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GAY SEX !!!!!!!!!!!
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January 30, 2026 at 10:24 PM
GAY SEX !!!!!!!!!!!
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i feel like we’re constantly waiting for something but i have zero idea what. what the hell am i looking out for
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January 30, 2026 at 10:23 PM
i feel like we’re constantly waiting for something but i have zero idea what. what the hell am i looking out for
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we’ve been having a kenny alter form recently kinda but hes still a fragment. we’ve been pretending he isnt there and hoping he goes away but it’s not working. honestly it might be better to just develop him and stuff, host has been a fictive for a long while so what the hell does it even matter
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January 30, 2026 at 9:04 PM
we’ve been having a kenny alter form recently kinda but hes still a fragment. we’ve been pretending he isnt there and hoping he goes away but it’s not working. honestly it might be better to just develop him and stuff, host has been a fictive for a long while so what the hell does it even matter
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reading this fic that spells out every thought and feeling we’ve ever had is probably making our dissociation worse. it’s weird because we’re always wishing for media like that. but the same thing happened when we watched hannibal so clearly we cant really handle it
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January 30, 2026 at 3:03 PM
reading this fic that spells out every thought and feeling we’ve ever had is probably making our dissociation worse. it’s weird because we’re always wishing for media like that. but the same thing happened when we watched hannibal so clearly we cant really handle it
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