reky vent
@rekyvents.bsky.social
Venting account for @reky.channel , may be unhinged with art too idk, but mostly a vent account and posting thoughts i wouldn't on my main account to separate the two
I just want to be part of something.
December 15, 2025 at 7:37 AM
I just want to be part of something.
im so scared people will leave me.
December 15, 2025 at 6:55 AM
im so scared people will leave me.
I am debating making a post on my public BSKY regarding how I just want to feel like the people around me are actually proud of me because I never feel like I belong and I just want my peers to feel proud of me for what I've done. And I'm also just, crashing out. But I just want respect ig.
December 15, 2025 at 5:55 AM
I am debating making a post on my public BSKY regarding how I just want to feel like the people around me are actually proud of me because I never feel like I belong and I just want my peers to feel proud of me for what I've done. And I'm also just, crashing out. But I just want respect ig.
Does anyone even give a shit if i stream anymore like am i just straight up constantly meant to be the outcast and unappreciated 24/7 im just consistently disliked everywhere i go
December 15, 2025 at 5:09 AM
Does anyone even give a shit if i stream anymore like am i just straight up constantly meant to be the outcast and unappreciated 24/7 im just consistently disliked everywhere i go
Am I just a bad friend? Is this what I'm going to keep telling myself all throughout December lmao
December 15, 2025 at 4:49 AM
Am I just a bad friend? Is this what I'm going to keep telling myself all throughout December lmao
Just every single year I am crashing the fuck out and no ounce of it is any better.
Things are fine! Im okay! But I'm freaking the fuck out. I'm hyperventilating. I don't know what it is. I don't know what causes it. But every single time at the end of the year I am an absolute wreck.
Things are fine! Im okay! But I'm freaking the fuck out. I'm hyperventilating. I don't know what it is. I don't know what causes it. But every single time at the end of the year I am an absolute wreck.
December 15, 2025 at 4:32 AM
Just every single year I am crashing the fuck out and no ounce of it is any better.
Things are fine! Im okay! But I'm freaking the fuck out. I'm hyperventilating. I don't know what it is. I don't know what causes it. But every single time at the end of the year I am an absolute wreck.
Things are fine! Im okay! But I'm freaking the fuck out. I'm hyperventilating. I don't know what it is. I don't know what causes it. But every single time at the end of the year I am an absolute wreck.
I keep doing this shit all the time at the same fucking time at the same time of the year.
December 15, 2025 at 4:23 AM
I keep doing this shit all the time at the same fucking time at the same time of the year.
My therapist told me that eventually if I keep not showing up or wanting to do things then nobody is going to ask me. But I guess it's true. I just wish I had something. It's always something. Today I didn't want to go anywhere because of the snow and it was freezing. It feels like an excuse
December 15, 2025 at 4:17 AM
My therapist told me that eventually if I keep not showing up or wanting to do things then nobody is going to ask me. But I guess it's true. I just wish I had something. It's always something. Today I didn't want to go anywhere because of the snow and it was freezing. It feels like an excuse
I feel like shit.
I think it's because I am tired. In an effort to try and fix a sleep schedule, but wow do I feel like uhhhhhh not good. I already kinda didn't do anything because of the snow, but I feel like I still should have went. Everyone else went. But I didn't go. Why am I so complicated
I think it's because I am tired. In an effort to try and fix a sleep schedule, but wow do I feel like uhhhhhh not good. I already kinda didn't do anything because of the snow, but I feel like I still should have went. Everyone else went. But I didn't go. Why am I so complicated
December 14, 2025 at 6:07 PM
I feel like shit.
I think it's because I am tired. In an effort to try and fix a sleep schedule, but wow do I feel like uhhhhhh not good. I already kinda didn't do anything because of the snow, but I feel like I still should have went. Everyone else went. But I didn't go. Why am I so complicated
I think it's because I am tired. In an effort to try and fix a sleep schedule, but wow do I feel like uhhhhhh not good. I already kinda didn't do anything because of the snow, but I feel like I still should have went. Everyone else went. But I didn't go. Why am I so complicated
My purpose in life is to be used and then thrown away
December 8, 2025 at 11:39 PM
My purpose in life is to be used and then thrown away
Fucking, finally.
The wave of unfollows on twitch stopped. I lost a good 20-30 people and I really thought it was gonna be just endless. I normally don't care, but going for a goal and then just having you go back to square 1 20 times was a lot. i just had a lot of fun today. so much fun really.
The wave of unfollows on twitch stopped. I lost a good 20-30 people and I really thought it was gonna be just endless. I normally don't care, but going for a goal and then just having you go back to square 1 20 times was a lot. i just had a lot of fun today. so much fun really.
December 8, 2025 at 6:12 AM
Fucking, finally.
The wave of unfollows on twitch stopped. I lost a good 20-30 people and I really thought it was gonna be just endless. I normally don't care, but going for a goal and then just having you go back to square 1 20 times was a lot. i just had a lot of fun today. so much fun really.
The wave of unfollows on twitch stopped. I lost a good 20-30 people and I really thought it was gonna be just endless. I normally don't care, but going for a goal and then just having you go back to square 1 20 times was a lot. i just had a lot of fun today. so much fun really.
Today felt like a very useless day and I kinda feel really shit and I kinda am trying to avoid a depressive slump but holy shit was today such a nothing day after all of that. I just genuinely feel really bad lol.
December 7, 2025 at 5:19 AM
Today felt like a very useless day and I kinda feel really shit and I kinda am trying to avoid a depressive slump but holy shit was today such a nothing day after all of that. I just genuinely feel really bad lol.
Literally having 3 hours of my time just, gone, really trook the fucking wind out of me. I just straight up do not feel good.
December 7, 2025 at 5:07 AM
Literally having 3 hours of my time just, gone, really trook the fucking wind out of me. I just straight up do not feel good.
Genuinely sad how I've all but confirmed some stuff that's been going on and it just kinda sucks. It's the most unfortunate feelings you can have but all you can do is keep going tbh. To push through the fear and keep pushing regardless of what one may feel. To continue doing and being you
December 5, 2025 at 10:10 PM
Genuinely sad how I've all but confirmed some stuff that's been going on and it just kinda sucks. It's the most unfortunate feelings you can have but all you can do is keep going tbh. To push through the fear and keep pushing regardless of what one may feel. To continue doing and being you
Genuinely going mad but also genuinely not understanding how or why my twitch has stagnated so badly. It's genuinely frustrating.
December 4, 2025 at 9:24 PM
Genuinely going mad but also genuinely not understanding how or why my twitch has stagnated so badly. It's genuinely frustrating.
Today feels like a day in which the entire world is on pause or I am basically invisible today.
December 4, 2025 at 7:37 PM
Today feels like a day in which the entire world is on pause or I am basically invisible today.
I feel like I haven't really deserved what I have earned and I think today I'll take that time to deconstruct that and see if that really makes sense or not.
Even at my own job I don't feel like it's earned
Even at my own job I don't feel like it's earned
December 4, 2025 at 5:01 PM
I feel like I haven't really deserved what I have earned and I think today I'll take that time to deconstruct that and see if that really makes sense or not.
Even at my own job I don't feel like it's earned
Even at my own job I don't feel like it's earned
Today feels a lot like a "I will immediately just check out and not interact with anything" day because I genuinely feel like there is no point yes
December 4, 2025 at 4:50 PM
Today feels a lot like a "I will immediately just check out and not interact with anything" day because I genuinely feel like there is no point yes
I should note that I'm not upset about streaming or anything I just feel like I'm so tired that I genuinely have the ick (also like probably physically sick too tbh)
December 4, 2025 at 5:49 AM
I should note that I'm not upset about streaming or anything I just feel like I'm so tired that I genuinely have the ick (also like probably physically sick too tbh)
Streamed way past what i thought was ok, really fucked me up. God I hope my job approves my vacation. This week really fucked me up. I think I need extra sleep or something because I do not feel good at all.
December 4, 2025 at 5:24 AM
Streamed way past what i thought was ok, really fucked me up. God I hope my job approves my vacation. This week really fucked me up. I think I need extra sleep or something because I do not feel good at all.
But what if instead I just thought people disliked me. I just like. Did what I usually do and send stickers and be cat coded and just told people I appreciate them because as much as I tell myself to do more, that's just what I do at the end of the day. I'm full of love and want to share it
December 3, 2025 at 1:12 AM
But what if instead I just thought people disliked me. I just like. Did what I usually do and send stickers and be cat coded and just told people I appreciate them because as much as I tell myself to do more, that's just what I do at the end of the day. I'm full of love and want to share it
It's been really hard for me to try and talk to my friends again as friends because I feel like I've hurt them so much that they probably don't even want to really talk to me that much anymore and it just kinda sucks. Maybe it's the long work week and lack of sleep that I feel so defeated about it
December 3, 2025 at 12:46 AM
It's been really hard for me to try and talk to my friends again as friends because I feel like I've hurt them so much that they probably don't even want to really talk to me that much anymore and it just kinda sucks. Maybe it's the long work week and lack of sleep that I feel so defeated about it
I like. Really want to go on vacation.
Working a 10 hour shift is not it folks. And then after that I have to go back less than 12 hours later. Even if it's just for 3 hours of work, I still hate it. I wanna sleep. I also feel my body just kinda like, not.. cooperating rn and I'm just zzz
Working a 10 hour shift is not it folks. And then after that I have to go back less than 12 hours later. Even if it's just for 3 hours of work, I still hate it. I wanna sleep. I also feel my body just kinda like, not.. cooperating rn and I'm just zzz
December 2, 2025 at 11:43 PM
I like. Really want to go on vacation.
Working a 10 hour shift is not it folks. And then after that I have to go back less than 12 hours later. Even if it's just for 3 hours of work, I still hate it. I wanna sleep. I also feel my body just kinda like, not.. cooperating rn and I'm just zzz
Working a 10 hour shift is not it folks. And then after that I have to go back less than 12 hours later. Even if it's just for 3 hours of work, I still hate it. I wanna sleep. I also feel my body just kinda like, not.. cooperating rn and I'm just zzz
Today i actually forgot to change my follower notification to match the new name, but it absolutely felt like I was much more comfortable when i figured it out, like. I was able to just stream and not know if anyone followed or anything, and it helped with my psyche a lot. It made me feel more
December 1, 2025 at 5:15 AM
Today i actually forgot to change my follower notification to match the new name, but it absolutely felt like I was much more comfortable when i figured it out, like. I was able to just stream and not know if anyone followed or anything, and it helped with my psyche a lot. It made me feel more
Its just so hard to run a discord server tbh. I feel like my server is so dead, and idk what to really even do about that. 273 people and the server is like, all over the place. its just so hard, how do i even do that?
November 30, 2025 at 10:49 PM
Its just so hard to run a discord server tbh. I feel like my server is so dead, and idk what to really even do about that. 273 people and the server is like, all over the place. its just so hard, how do i even do that?