☆Rachel☆Award-winning at Existing☆
@kalrell.bsky.social
She/Her mostly. 🏳️⚧️ 30something old.
Lover of gaming, SciFi and nerdy things. ActuallyAutistic
Likes to nerd out about stuff. Nerds are the cutest.
Social Transitioning Era. \o/
♥Sappy Sapphic Yearning Era♥ - let me tell you, you're cute!
Lover of gaming, SciFi and nerdy things. ActuallyAutistic
Likes to nerd out about stuff. Nerds are the cutest.
Social Transitioning Era. \o/
♥Sappy Sapphic Yearning Era♥ - let me tell you, you're cute!
Pinned
So hi I'm Rach I'm posting through it right now.
I always just post unfiltered honest brain thoughts with no ill will or vibe other than:
Hi I'm Rachel, a nerdy gamer lady who really likes other nerdy ladies, new friends is the best 😌💛
I'm a friends first gal even if I might crush and fangirl a lil😍
I always just post unfiltered honest brain thoughts with no ill will or vibe other than:
Hi I'm Rachel, a nerdy gamer lady who really likes other nerdy ladies, new friends is the best 😌💛
I'm a friends first gal even if I might crush and fangirl a lil😍
On subject of school me, been working on reframeing recently.
A girl teased me that my boobs were bigger than hers, and said I needed a bra. It was hurtful made me feel ick about having girl features.
Now though, I just wish I could have been her bestie, and comfort her small titty insecurities. 🥺
A girl teased me that my boobs were bigger than hers, and said I needed a bra. It was hurtful made me feel ick about having girl features.
Now though, I just wish I could have been her bestie, and comfort her small titty insecurities. 🥺
This was me for whole life, once someone explained discomfort with gender peer group was a dysphoria I started to let everything fall into place.
Been thinking and processing a lot lately, what school would have been like if I was me girly etc and didn't shut down from dude bullying.
Been thinking and processing a lot lately, what school would have been like if I was me girly etc and didn't shut down from dude bullying.
It took me ten years to understand why I was never comfy near guys and only comfy near girls
boy did that pin drop deafen me for a while
boy did that pin drop deafen me for a while
December 28, 2025 at 7:19 AM
On subject of school me, been working on reframeing recently.
A girl teased me that my boobs were bigger than hers, and said I needed a bra. It was hurtful made me feel ick about having girl features.
Now though, I just wish I could have been her bestie, and comfort her small titty insecurities. 🥺
A girl teased me that my boobs were bigger than hers, and said I needed a bra. It was hurtful made me feel ick about having girl features.
Now though, I just wish I could have been her bestie, and comfort her small titty insecurities. 🥺
This was me for whole life, once someone explained discomfort with gender peer group was a dysphoria I started to let everything fall into place.
Been thinking and processing a lot lately, what school would have been like if I was me girly etc and didn't shut down from dude bullying.
Been thinking and processing a lot lately, what school would have been like if I was me girly etc and didn't shut down from dude bullying.
It took me ten years to understand why I was never comfy near guys and only comfy near girls
boy did that pin drop deafen me for a while
boy did that pin drop deafen me for a while
The transfem egg in a lesbian friend group doesn't need to have her "manhood" accommodated, she needs to be prodded to figure out why she has an easier time getting along with lesbians than straight guys. And forcefemmed before she crashes out about the pit she gets in her stomach when hanging out.
December 28, 2025 at 6:51 AM
This was me for whole life, once someone explained discomfort with gender peer group was a dysphoria I started to let everything fall into place.
Been thinking and processing a lot lately, what school would have been like if I was me girly etc and didn't shut down from dude bullying.
Been thinking and processing a lot lately, what school would have been like if I was me girly etc and didn't shut down from dude bullying.
Hi I'ma sleepy gurl, finding it hard to have words for social media this week, back to bed i think it is.
December 26, 2025 at 5:37 PM
Hi I'ma sleepy gurl, finding it hard to have words for social media this week, back to bed i think it is.
Show me how your 2025 went.
December 25, 2025 at 12:03 AM
Show me how your 2025 went.
This is why I'm a reply girl, I like to reply and tell people they're neat.
Yup. the rule I've told people is one reply here is 1000 likes anywhere else, and a like is 10 likes anywhere else.
✨ Bluesky newbie tip!
Notification/ Engagement indicators are NOT the same here.
With no bot accounts clogging things up, you might get lower likes or reposts than you're used to elsewhere - but each of those are higher quality and audience driven.
Quality over bot driven quantity!
Notification/ Engagement indicators are NOT the same here.
With no bot accounts clogging things up, you might get lower likes or reposts than you're used to elsewhere - but each of those are higher quality and audience driven.
Quality over bot driven quantity!
December 24, 2025 at 9:01 PM
This is why I'm a reply girl, I like to reply and tell people they're neat.
Why did you transition? Wrong answers only.
Because female video game characters are better? oops was meant to be a wrong answer, oh well..
Because female video game characters are better? oops was meant to be a wrong answer, oh well..
Why did you transition? Wrong answers only.
I play almost all video games on hard mode so it just made sense
I play almost all video games on hard mode so it just made sense
Why did you transition? Wrong answers only.
I didn't choose to transition: I got in the dark souls 2 coffin and when I next looked down, I had tits
I didn't choose to transition: I got in the dark souls 2 coffin and when I next looked down, I had tits
December 23, 2025 at 11:07 PM
Why did you transition? Wrong answers only.
Because female video game characters are better? oops was meant to be a wrong answer, oh well..
Because female video game characters are better? oops was meant to be a wrong answer, oh well..
QTP with a robot that's not from star wars or transformers 🤖
🥇☝️
🥇☝️
December 22, 2025 at 2:44 AM
QTP with a robot that's not from star wars or transformers 🤖
🥇☝️
🥇☝️
mild rsd, sigh not sure what i did.
have I been over posting stuffs idk
have I been over posting stuffs idk
December 22, 2025 at 12:38 AM
mild rsd, sigh not sure what i did.
have I been over posting stuffs idk
have I been over posting stuffs idk
Hi nerd has the kinda insomnia that comes with a headache, and hot head, and crippling loneliness starting at the darkness and ceilings etc
3:30am x.x
3:30am x.x
December 21, 2025 at 3:28 AM
Hi nerd has the kinda insomnia that comes with a headache, and hot head, and crippling loneliness starting at the darkness and ceilings etc
3:30am x.x
3:30am x.x
Today is a tired weird lazy day. And yeah I am too tired to type
December 20, 2025 at 7:41 PM
Today is a tired weird lazy day. And yeah I am too tired to type
Ya'll ever have that lazy Saturday wake up where you're still soo tired and can't move, but should get outta bed..
December 20, 2025 at 4:19 PM
Ya'll ever have that lazy Saturday wake up where you're still soo tired and can't move, but should get outta bed..
I'm lost in deep introspection tonight, reframing life.
What if the girl in school who teased me for having bigger boobs than her, and suggesting bra wearing..
What if we were just girl besties and I supported and hyped up her chest insecurities 🥺🥺
She'll never know i thinking about her..
What if the girl in school who teased me for having bigger boobs than her, and suggesting bra wearing..
What if we were just girl besties and I supported and hyped up her chest insecurities 🥺🥺
She'll never know i thinking about her..
December 19, 2025 at 4:40 AM
I'm lost in deep introspection tonight, reframing life.
What if the girl in school who teased me for having bigger boobs than her, and suggesting bra wearing..
What if we were just girl besties and I supported and hyped up her chest insecurities 🥺🥺
She'll never know i thinking about her..
What if the girl in school who teased me for having bigger boobs than her, and suggesting bra wearing..
What if we were just girl besties and I supported and hyped up her chest insecurities 🥺🥺
She'll never know i thinking about her..
can't sleep, am too... HAIIII I'MA GURL.. hyped
December 19, 2025 at 4:30 AM
can't sleep, am too... HAIIII I'MA GURL.. hyped
Do hug me.
December 19, 2025 at 12:23 AM
Do hug me.
Reposted by ☆Rachel☆Award-winning at Existing☆
So the Levy Review verdict so far seems to be ‘tinkering at the edges but nothing actually bad’
December 18, 2025 at 2:20 PM
So the Levy Review verdict so far seems to be ‘tinkering at the edges but nothing actually bad’
Soo.. seems like there's no doomhammer here.. breathing out that it isn't "a lot worse".
I am worried in 3 years I'm gonna have to somehow drag my disabled butt up to Nottingham if they demand "face to face" gatekeeping now.
But future rach problems..
maybe inching closer to tryin something private
I am worried in 3 years I'm gonna have to somehow drag my disabled butt up to Nottingham if they demand "face to face" gatekeeping now.
But future rach problems..
maybe inching closer to tryin something private
It is a sign of how fundamentally abused and traumatised trans communities are in the UK that many folks are responding to Levy with relief and cautious welcome.
It could have been a lot worse.
But it fundamentally fails to deliver meaningful improvements to trans healthcare. 1/4
It could have been a lot worse.
But it fundamentally fails to deliver meaningful improvements to trans healthcare. 1/4
December 18, 2025 at 3:48 PM
Soo.. seems like there's no doomhammer here.. breathing out that it isn't "a lot worse".
I am worried in 3 years I'm gonna have to somehow drag my disabled butt up to Nottingham if they demand "face to face" gatekeeping now.
But future rach problems..
maybe inching closer to tryin something private
I am worried in 3 years I'm gonna have to somehow drag my disabled butt up to Nottingham if they demand "face to face" gatekeeping now.
But future rach problems..
maybe inching closer to tryin something private
Hi friends, so I trust Claire here knows what she talks about.
Hang in there everyone, breathe, relax, try to go about day.
Hang in there everyone, breathe, relax, try to go about day.
Looks like Levy may be dropping at 2pm.
1) Dont panic
2) Itll take some careful analysis so beware people jumping the gun
3) put your own mental health first.
If youre posting stuff, be responsible and mind other mental health. Use warnings etc as appropriate.
Looks like a busy weekend for me.
1) Dont panic
2) Itll take some careful analysis so beware people jumping the gun
3) put your own mental health first.
If youre posting stuff, be responsible and mind other mental health. Use warnings etc as appropriate.
Looks like a busy weekend for me.
December 18, 2025 at 1:00 PM
Hi friends, so I trust Claire here knows what she talks about.
Hang in there everyone, breathe, relax, try to go about day.
Hang in there everyone, breathe, relax, try to go about day.
2026 is gonna be my year
December 17, 2025 at 3:10 PM
2026 is gonna be my year
Limes 👀
Hey, I saw you sparkling over here and just had to come over and try out my best pick up limes 💗✨
December 17, 2025 at 3:04 PM
Limes 👀
Reposted by ☆Rachel☆Award-winning at Existing☆
Thinkin' about yesterday.. had a long chat with a nurse something.
But it started with "you have a complex sexuality" before asking for names and pronouns etc.
All polite professional friendly np.
But definitely made me realise the CiS have no understanding of Sexuality vs Gender..
But it started with "you have a complex sexuality" before asking for names and pronouns etc.
All polite professional friendly np.
But definitely made me realise the CiS have no understanding of Sexuality vs Gender..
December 16, 2025 at 6:22 PM
Thinkin' about yesterday.. had a long chat with a nurse something.
But it started with "you have a complex sexuality" before asking for names and pronouns etc.
All polite professional friendly np.
But definitely made me realise the CiS have no understanding of Sexuality vs Gender..
But it started with "you have a complex sexuality" before asking for names and pronouns etc.
All polite professional friendly np.
But definitely made me realise the CiS have no understanding of Sexuality vs Gender..
Without downloading any new pictures what caused the Bell riots
December 16, 2025 at 5:48 PM
Without downloading any new pictures what caused the Bell riots
Hi I'm now Award-winning Rachel, nominated by my supported housing staff for achievement or something over the last year, somehow something I guess lol
December 16, 2025 at 5:38 PM
Hi I'm now Award-winning Rachel, nominated by my supported housing staff for achievement or something over the last year, somehow something I guess lol
Oh wow.. so amazon pages on bras is adult content now... Won't someone think of the children?! Half or more might also need to shop for bras..
if you see this, we IMPLORE you to post a picture from whatever device you’re using without explanation
(Amazon is taunting me 🥺😩)
(Amazon is taunting me 🥺😩)
December 16, 2025 at 5:35 PM
Oh wow.. so amazon pages on bras is adult content now... Won't someone think of the children?! Half or more might also need to shop for bras..
I am now brave girl with stomach pain and gas yayyy LET ME SLEEEEEP AHHGH
December 16, 2025 at 6:24 AM
I am now brave girl with stomach pain and gas yayyy LET ME SLEEEEEP AHHGH