And then I realize how little my #research work seems to matter.
In the face of illness, of real life, it feels abstract. Detached. Almost irrelevant. #fck #cancer

And then comes the strange normality of serious illness.
And when I return to my desk, surrounded by small talk and shallow complaints,
it all feels distant — like I’ve come back from another world. But of course, being socially connected matters — I know that.

How many times have I sat in waiting rooms, just waiting.
And in those moments, there's so much time to think. About yourself. About what has been. And sometimes, about what might come.
The walls are usually white, the magazines old, and the clock ticks more slowly than usual.
#fck #cancer

„What if the treatment doesn’t help, Mama?“ The thought alone is crushing — a weight pressing down on everything. #fck #cancer

I think today, our five-year-old son saw his father cry for the first time.
My fear is that he might lose his lightness and that the heaviness that has entered our lives might also find a place in his small heart – where there should still be wonder, ease, and a deep sense of safety. #fck #cancer

I understand that doctors are #human too, and that the responsibility - especially with a serious illness like #cancer - can be overwhelming. But stepping away in the middle of ongoing treatment because the #responsibility becomes too much felt not just disappointing, but deeply hurtful.

The day today can also go... kidney failure due to a rotavirus infection and possibly another metastasis.

Heute ist einer dieser Tage, an denen ich einfach nur „Hey cancer, fuck you“ schreien möchte. #fuckcancer #scanxiety

Today is one of those days when I just want to scream "Hey cancer, fuck you". #fuckcancer #scanxiety

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