Nat
@freddiemerqwerty.bsky.social
they/them
aroace, audhd, agender/genderqueer 🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈
OFMD, kpop baby, and other assorted things
aroace, audhd, agender/genderqueer 🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈
OFMD, kpop baby, and other assorted things
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Nat
@freddiemerqwerty.bsky.social
· Mar 20
It would be so much easier to explain my behavior if I was allo
Alas, I am not and this is just autism
Alas, I am not and this is just autism
Well, I just read an incredibly depressing manga.
It was about a pair of animal friends who get reincarnated again and again. In every life, one of them wants to murder all the other animals because they’re all gonna die anyway, and the other friend wants to enjoy a nice rock.
It was about a pair of animal friends who get reincarnated again and again. In every life, one of them wants to murder all the other animals because they’re all gonna die anyway, and the other friend wants to enjoy a nice rock.
December 3, 2025 at 6:35 AM
Well, I just read an incredibly depressing manga.
It was about a pair of animal friends who get reincarnated again and again. In every life, one of them wants to murder all the other animals because they’re all gonna die anyway, and the other friend wants to enjoy a nice rock.
It was about a pair of animal friends who get reincarnated again and again. In every life, one of them wants to murder all the other animals because they’re all gonna die anyway, and the other friend wants to enjoy a nice rock.
I need to not process the world for a sec so you know what time it is:
Sherlock Rewatch! S3E2 The Sign of Three
Sherlock Rewatch! S3E2 The Sign of Three
December 2, 2025 at 2:29 AM
I need to not process the world for a sec so you know what time it is:
Sherlock Rewatch! S3E2 The Sign of Three
Sherlock Rewatch! S3E2 The Sign of Three
I‘ve been in a rough spot mentally, but today’s wins are:
1) While difficult at first, I got out of the house and ended up spending the whole day out w/ friends or doing friend-related tasks
2) Every time something made me want to cry I checked in, tried again, and let myself give up if needed
1) While difficult at first, I got out of the house and ended up spending the whole day out w/ friends or doing friend-related tasks
2) Every time something made me want to cry I checked in, tried again, and let myself give up if needed
November 30, 2025 at 10:10 AM
I‘ve been in a rough spot mentally, but today’s wins are:
1) While difficult at first, I got out of the house and ended up spending the whole day out w/ friends or doing friend-related tasks
2) Every time something made me want to cry I checked in, tried again, and let myself give up if needed
1) While difficult at first, I got out of the house and ended up spending the whole day out w/ friends or doing friend-related tasks
2) Every time something made me want to cry I checked in, tried again, and let myself give up if needed
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"The Art of K-Pop Demon Hunters" artbook (physical) is coming in 2026.
In the meantime, here's the free digital version.
>> theartofkpopdemonhunters.com
In the meantime, here's the free digital version.
>> theartofkpopdemonhunters.com
November 28, 2025 at 6:36 PM
"The Art of K-Pop Demon Hunters" artbook (physical) is coming in 2026.
In the meantime, here's the free digital version.
>> theartofkpopdemonhunters.com
In the meantime, here's the free digital version.
>> theartofkpopdemonhunters.com
Apparently anthropomorphized universities have a large fic presence on AO3
November 27, 2025 at 10:18 AM
Apparently anthropomorphized universities have a large fic presence on AO3
Oop, my after visit summary said I fainted and collapsed.
That’s. Okay maybe making me rethink my history. During the test, I perceived those moments as like a millisecond of unawareness. Not enough to make me think I lost consciousness.
Hm. Interesting. Good to know.
That’s. Okay maybe making me rethink my history. During the test, I perceived those moments as like a millisecond of unawareness. Not enough to make me think I lost consciousness.
Hm. Interesting. Good to know.
I have been tilted on a table.
There’s no denying it’s POTS.
I didn’t faint, but I lost my vision and hearing a few times from breathing too hard. They had to put hot packs around my hands to get enough blood flow for the reading. And my heart rate made the machine go beep beep beep a LOT
There’s no denying it’s POTS.
I didn’t faint, but I lost my vision and hearing a few times from breathing too hard. They had to put hot packs around my hands to get enough blood flow for the reading. And my heart rate made the machine go beep beep beep a LOT
November 26, 2025 at 9:03 PM
Oop, my after visit summary said I fainted and collapsed.
That’s. Okay maybe making me rethink my history. During the test, I perceived those moments as like a millisecond of unawareness. Not enough to make me think I lost consciousness.
Hm. Interesting. Good to know.
That’s. Okay maybe making me rethink my history. During the test, I perceived those moments as like a millisecond of unawareness. Not enough to make me think I lost consciousness.
Hm. Interesting. Good to know.
I have been tilted on a table.
There’s no denying it’s POTS.
I didn’t faint, but I lost my vision and hearing a few times from breathing too hard. They had to put hot packs around my hands to get enough blood flow for the reading. And my heart rate made the machine go beep beep beep a LOT
There’s no denying it’s POTS.
I didn’t faint, but I lost my vision and hearing a few times from breathing too hard. They had to put hot packs around my hands to get enough blood flow for the reading. And my heart rate made the machine go beep beep beep a LOT
November 26, 2025 at 5:27 AM
I have been tilted on a table.
There’s no denying it’s POTS.
I didn’t faint, but I lost my vision and hearing a few times from breathing too hard. They had to put hot packs around my hands to get enough blood flow for the reading. And my heart rate made the machine go beep beep beep a LOT
There’s no denying it’s POTS.
I didn’t faint, but I lost my vision and hearing a few times from breathing too hard. They had to put hot packs around my hands to get enough blood flow for the reading. And my heart rate made the machine go beep beep beep a LOT
My dad now will not take off the sharp fidget ring. He’s using it to claim superiority over other family members.
His only weakness is that he’s still upset mine is “better”
His only weakness is that he’s still upset mine is “better”
My dad saw me using one of my sharp fidgets for managing pain and was like ???
I showed it to him and he was like “what could you need this for” 😒 Then like 5 mins later he asked to play with it.
I gave him one to keep and now he’s upset it’s not exactly like mine.
I wonder who gave me autism
I showed it to him and he was like “what could you need this for” 😒 Then like 5 mins later he asked to play with it.
I gave him one to keep and now he’s upset it’s not exactly like mine.
I wonder who gave me autism
November 25, 2025 at 5:53 PM
My dad now will not take off the sharp fidget ring. He’s using it to claim superiority over other family members.
His only weakness is that he’s still upset mine is “better”
His only weakness is that he’s still upset mine is “better”
It’s really so very rude of my body to give me false hope.
Last night I was in…bad thoughts levels of physical pain. This morning I woke up and was no longer in that pain so I was like ✨💐 Ah! What if today were easy! 💕🌻
Then I sat up
Last night I was in…bad thoughts levels of physical pain. This morning I woke up and was no longer in that pain so I was like ✨💐 Ah! What if today were easy! 💕🌻
Then I sat up
November 25, 2025 at 5:48 PM
It’s really so very rude of my body to give me false hope.
Last night I was in…bad thoughts levels of physical pain. This morning I woke up and was no longer in that pain so I was like ✨💐 Ah! What if today were easy! 💕🌻
Then I sat up
Last night I was in…bad thoughts levels of physical pain. This morning I woke up and was no longer in that pain so I was like ✨💐 Ah! What if today were easy! 💕🌻
Then I sat up
My dad saw me using one of my sharp fidgets for managing pain and was like ???
I showed it to him and he was like “what could you need this for” 😒 Then like 5 mins later he asked to play with it.
I gave him one to keep and now he’s upset it’s not exactly like mine.
I wonder who gave me autism
I showed it to him and he was like “what could you need this for” 😒 Then like 5 mins later he asked to play with it.
I gave him one to keep and now he’s upset it’s not exactly like mine.
I wonder who gave me autism
November 25, 2025 at 4:00 AM
My dad saw me using one of my sharp fidgets for managing pain and was like ???
I showed it to him and he was like “what could you need this for” 😒 Then like 5 mins later he asked to play with it.
I gave him one to keep and now he’s upset it’s not exactly like mine.
I wonder who gave me autism
I showed it to him and he was like “what could you need this for” 😒 Then like 5 mins later he asked to play with it.
I gave him one to keep and now he’s upset it’s not exactly like mine.
I wonder who gave me autism
I really hope this autonomic testing tomorrow is worth it. This is such hell to just voluntarily go through.
If I wasn’t going to be seen by medical professionals who specialize in this area in 24 hours, I’d be seeking medical attention
If I wasn’t going to be seen by medical professionals who specialize in this area in 24 hours, I’d be seeking medical attention
November 24, 2025 at 11:10 PM
I really hope this autonomic testing tomorrow is worth it. This is such hell to just voluntarily go through.
If I wasn’t going to be seen by medical professionals who specialize in this area in 24 hours, I’d be seeking medical attention
If I wasn’t going to be seen by medical professionals who specialize in this area in 24 hours, I’d be seeking medical attention
I have a plan. I am going over to my dad’s house so I can be supervised and get support doing basic self-care tasks
It’s scary seeing what my body can’t do without medication. Really scary. I should’ve planned for better supports.
I’ve been on my meds for so long I assumed it wouldn’t be so bad. But this is…so much
I’ve been on my meds for so long I assumed it wouldn’t be so bad. But this is…so much
November 24, 2025 at 1:05 AM
I have a plan. I am going over to my dad’s house so I can be supervised and get support doing basic self-care tasks
It’s scary seeing what my body can’t do without medication. Really scary. I should’ve planned for better supports.
I’ve been on my meds for so long I assumed it wouldn’t be so bad. But this is…so much
I’ve been on my meds for so long I assumed it wouldn’t be so bad. But this is…so much
November 23, 2025 at 11:48 PM
It’s scary seeing what my body can’t do without medication. Really scary. I should’ve planned for better supports.
I’ve been on my meds for so long I assumed it wouldn’t be so bad. But this is…so much
I’ve been on my meds for so long I assumed it wouldn’t be so bad. But this is…so much
I wanted to work in something that could use my interests and skills to support my community. Education, video and graphics, public health, LGBTQ+ identity.
I was most drawn to our local HIV nonprofit, and asked them at pride one year if my skills would be useful there.
I got to create my job :)
I was most drawn to our local HIV nonprofit, and asked them at pride one year if my skills would be useful there.
I got to create my job :)
November 23, 2025 at 6:40 PM
I wanted to work in something that could use my interests and skills to support my community. Education, video and graphics, public health, LGBTQ+ identity.
I was most drawn to our local HIV nonprofit, and asked them at pride one year if my skills would be useful there.
I got to create my job :)
I was most drawn to our local HIV nonprofit, and asked them at pride one year if my skills would be useful there.
I got to create my job :)
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WELCOME TO THE FALL FRONT FRIDAY FALL FESTIVAL!
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Share something you made, repost or rec something you love, think about fall-front pants and share your thoughts with the class!
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#FallFrontFriday
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Share something you made, repost or rec something you love, think about fall-front pants and share your thoughts with the class!
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#FallFrontFriday
November 21, 2025 at 11:54 AM
WELCOME TO THE FALL FRONT FRIDAY FALL FESTIVAL!
🍂👖🍂👖🍂
Share something you made, repost or rec something you love, think about fall-front pants and share your thoughts with the class!
🍂👖🍂👖🍂
#FallFrontFriday
🍂👖🍂👖🍂
Share something you made, repost or rec something you love, think about fall-front pants and share your thoughts with the class!
🍂👖🍂👖🍂
#FallFrontFriday
I am so eepy, work lasted two extra hours today— and they were two hours of public speaking!
But yay it’s work break time! Yes I’m gonna be feeling awful this week because it’s mostly a break for medical reasons, but yay work break!!
But yay it’s work break time! Yes I’m gonna be feeling awful this week because it’s mostly a break for medical reasons, but yay work break!!
November 22, 2025 at 4:45 AM
I am so eepy, work lasted two extra hours today— and they were two hours of public speaking!
But yay it’s work break time! Yes I’m gonna be feeling awful this week because it’s mostly a break for medical reasons, but yay work break!!
But yay it’s work break time! Yes I’m gonna be feeling awful this week because it’s mostly a break for medical reasons, but yay work break!!
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What if we kissed at the Gracias Christmas Cantata
November 21, 2025 at 5:08 PM
What if we kissed at the Gracias Christmas Cantata
My review of The Safekeep by Yael van der Wouden as I read it:
giiiiiiiiirl
giiiiiiiiirl
November 20, 2025 at 5:11 AM
My review of The Safekeep by Yael van der Wouden as I read it:
giiiiiiiiirl
giiiiiiiiirl
I keep being woken up dysautonomia symptoms that might be preventable if I took better care of myself with sleep, water, meds, etc.
The symptoms are concerning, but my brain wants to put those emotions into: look what you did, you’re a bad person and bad at being a person.
Why are we like this?
The symptoms are concerning, but my brain wants to put those emotions into: look what you did, you’re a bad person and bad at being a person.
Why are we like this?
November 18, 2025 at 11:54 AM
I keep being woken up dysautonomia symptoms that might be preventable if I took better care of myself with sleep, water, meds, etc.
The symptoms are concerning, but my brain wants to put those emotions into: look what you did, you’re a bad person and bad at being a person.
Why are we like this?
The symptoms are concerning, but my brain wants to put those emotions into: look what you did, you’re a bad person and bad at being a person.
Why are we like this?
Is it love, to want
A blorbo inside my mouth
Just to keep, that's all
A midnight haiku on cuteness aggression
A blorbo inside my mouth
Just to keep, that's all
A midnight haiku on cuteness aggression
November 18, 2025 at 8:35 AM
Is it love, to want
A blorbo inside my mouth
Just to keep, that's all
A midnight haiku on cuteness aggression
A blorbo inside my mouth
Just to keep, that's all
A midnight haiku on cuteness aggression
Obsessed with this picrew artist’s style.
My datemate likes making picrews and will occasionally send me things they’ve made of us.
I found this artist making the kiss one and I’ve not been able to stop thinking about the gender envy I get from this art.
Creator: picrew.me/en/search/cr...
My datemate likes making picrews and will occasionally send me things they’ve made of us.
I found this artist making the kiss one and I’ve not been able to stop thinking about the gender envy I get from this art.
Creator: picrew.me/en/search/cr...
November 14, 2025 at 8:08 AM
Obsessed with this picrew artist’s style.
My datemate likes making picrews and will occasionally send me things they’ve made of us.
I found this artist making the kiss one and I’ve not been able to stop thinking about the gender envy I get from this art.
Creator: picrew.me/en/search/cr...
My datemate likes making picrews and will occasionally send me things they’ve made of us.
I found this artist making the kiss one and I’ve not been able to stop thinking about the gender envy I get from this art.
Creator: picrew.me/en/search/cr...
Had a very human moment with today.
The small grocery store I go to usually plays music I like, but today it was specifically a song I hadn’t heard since my last year of high school: Without You by Badfinger.
I quietly sung along to myself, and an aisle behind me someone joined in. Good vibes
The small grocery store I go to usually plays music I like, but today it was specifically a song I hadn’t heard since my last year of high school: Without You by Badfinger.
I quietly sung along to myself, and an aisle behind me someone joined in. Good vibes
November 14, 2025 at 4:57 AM
Had a very human moment with today.
The small grocery store I go to usually plays music I like, but today it was specifically a song I hadn’t heard since my last year of high school: Without You by Badfinger.
I quietly sung along to myself, and an aisle behind me someone joined in. Good vibes
The small grocery store I go to usually plays music I like, but today it was specifically a song I hadn’t heard since my last year of high school: Without You by Badfinger.
I quietly sung along to myself, and an aisle behind me someone joined in. Good vibes
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Cat Prints: www.djamilaknopf.com/store
November 13, 2025 at 2:02 PM
Cat Prints: www.djamilaknopf.com/store
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October 26, 2024 at 2:59 AM
I've taken this quiz multiple times before and every time I get the same correct answer
(I don't actually have a praise kink, I just wanna do a good job and am anxious)
(I don't actually have a praise kink, I just wanna do a good job and am anxious)
November 12, 2025 at 2:16 AM
I've taken this quiz multiple times before and every time I get the same correct answer
(I don't actually have a praise kink, I just wanna do a good job and am anxious)
(I don't actually have a praise kink, I just wanna do a good job and am anxious)