eyeofheaven
@eyeofheaven.bsky.social
22 trans all pronouns nonhuman system
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eyeofheaven
@eyeofheaven.bsky.social
· Nov 11
I'm venting on this damn acc btw but it'll be less than it was on the vent app mainly due to the character limit. so I'll say the same short sentiments over and over. until I find a better place to vent ig
life update: things are in motion to switch therapists but he might not take my insurance so if he doesn't then my current therapist wants me to see both him and his supervisor to do "parts work" (same people that said you don't have alters if you're aware of them) (nightmare)
February 4, 2025 at 9:02 AM
life update: things are in motion to switch therapists but he might not take my insurance so if he doesn't then my current therapist wants me to see both him and his supervisor to do "parts work" (same people that said you don't have alters if you're aware of them) (nightmare)
I'm not dead or anything. also not coming back just yet but I do miss this. I don't like bluesky as a replacement for vent but I didn't like any of the other ones and also my internal life(?) has been falling apart. I came on here to reference a DM and I felt bad that I've been gone
February 4, 2025 at 8:29 AM
I'm not dead or anything. also not coming back just yet but I do miss this. I don't like bluesky as a replacement for vent but I didn't like any of the other ones and also my internal life(?) has been falling apart. I came on here to reference a DM and I felt bad that I've been gone
I still haven't redownloaded it on my new phone but also I've just been fucking Weird lately. this whole month. everything's overwhelming
I got a new phone and forgot to download bluesky for a few days lol my bad
December 23, 2024 at 8:00 AM
I still haven't redownloaded it on my new phone but also I've just been fucking Weird lately. this whole month. everything's overwhelming
everything's changing internally and I feel lost in my own life
December 19, 2024 at 7:19 AM
everything's changing internally and I feel lost in my own life
I got a new phone and forgot to download bluesky for a few days lol my bad
December 17, 2024 at 6:45 AM
I got a new phone and forgot to download bluesky for a few days lol my bad
I don't like being referred to by (my IRL) name as like "thank you, (name)". mainly bc it feels awkward that I don't do that. I know I* literally picked that name so I should be fine hearing it, but idk it's too intimate almost??
December 10, 2024 at 2:48 PM
I don't like being referred to by (my IRL) name as like "thank you, (name)". mainly bc it feels awkward that I don't do that. I know I* literally picked that name so I should be fine hearing it, but idk it's too intimate almost??
I have a normal relationship to food and sex!!!
December 10, 2024 at 7:18 AM
I have a normal relationship to food and sex!!!
I need to stop nitpicking my morality it's really annoying. it'd be fine if I was engaging with it and then could put it down, but I never feel satisfied and wanna make everything black/white like idk man it depends
December 10, 2024 at 7:09 AM
I need to stop nitpicking my morality it's really annoying. it'd be fine if I was engaging with it and then could put it down, but I never feel satisfied and wanna make everything black/white like idk man it depends
having an identity crisis without me? 😏
December 10, 2024 at 3:50 AM
having an identity crisis without me? 😏
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[pronouncing it like “naked”] i am so baked
December 9, 2024 at 3:18 AM
[pronouncing it like “naked”] i am so baked
I feel like I age regress more than I realize. yesterday I did feel like I was turning 18 which I said on accident. I laughed it off but sometimes I do feel stuck at 17... whatever that's about. age is such a subjective feeling anyway so it feels frivolous unless it's Obvious ig
December 9, 2024 at 5:56 PM
I feel like I age regress more than I realize. yesterday I did feel like I was turning 18 which I said on accident. I laughed it off but sometimes I do feel stuck at 17... whatever that's about. age is such a subjective feeling anyway so it feels frivolous unless it's Obvious ig
dawg my brain is trying to slim down my diagnoses like "did I really experience mania or was that bpd euphoria" are you kidding me rn. undiagnosing myself with bpd so I stop feeling like I'm "bpd and lying"
December 9, 2024 at 6:56 AM
dawg my brain is trying to slim down my diagnoses like "did I really experience mania or was that bpd euphoria" are you kidding me rn. undiagnosing myself with bpd so I stop feeling like I'm "bpd and lying"
I think I'm at my baseline level of depression and everything else is making me feel like shit on top of it rather than being in a depressive episode
December 9, 2024 at 6:24 AM
I think I'm at my baseline level of depression and everything else is making me feel like shit on top of it rather than being in a depressive episode
my goal for today is to strengthen my communication with my system 👍 somehow. brute forcing an overhaul
December 9, 2024 at 5:37 AM
my goal for today is to strengthen my communication with my system 👍 somehow. brute forcing an overhaul
I need vent back so badly
December 9, 2024 at 4:44 AM
I need vent back so badly
I feel the need to ruin my life but I'm 22 and the ways I know are that of a teenager. I can't just like. skip school anymore
December 9, 2024 at 4:07 AM
I feel the need to ruin my life but I'm 22 and the ways I know are that of a teenager. I can't just like. skip school anymore
hmmmm I wonder why I get so worked up when I'm not believed. like how far back does that extend? where did it start?
December 9, 2024 at 3:31 AM
hmmmm I wonder why I get so worked up when I'm not believed. like how far back does that extend? where did it start?
technically I am regressing on my birthday but it'll even out bc nothing ever changes unless by force
December 8, 2024 at 11:22 PM
technically I am regressing on my birthday but it'll even out bc nothing ever changes unless by force
nothing has even happened to me I'm just super fucking sensitive and it pisses me off
December 8, 2024 at 11:14 PM
nothing has even happened to me I'm just super fucking sensitive and it pisses me off
everyone hates me and wants me dead and I'm the worst person to ever live (not really)
December 8, 2024 at 10:51 PM
everyone hates me and wants me dead and I'm the worst person to ever live (not really)
I can't even go to my therapy appt bc I don't have insurance to get a cab lmao. I was thinking I could attend the appt and then they bill my insurance later when I have it, but idk who knows when I'll get it back
December 8, 2024 at 3:46 AM
I can't even go to my therapy appt bc I don't have insurance to get a cab lmao. I was thinking I could attend the appt and then they bill my insurance later when I have it, but idk who knows when I'll get it back
I'm overstimulated by my feet, my scalp, and my pain fuck
December 7, 2024 at 8:45 AM
I'm overstimulated by my feet, my scalp, and my pain fuck
I wish I could indulge in my hobbies. I have all the free time in the world but no motivation and barely any concentration. all I've been doing is social media and music like I wanna play a video game but I only last 20mins
December 7, 2024 at 6:40 AM
I wish I could indulge in my hobbies. I have all the free time in the world but no motivation and barely any concentration. all I've been doing is social media and music like I wanna play a video game but I only last 20mins
I wonder how much of the system doubt is a result of our tendency towards perfectionism. we don't fit neatly into any narrative so everything feels like overflowing bullshit
December 7, 2024 at 6:23 AM
I wonder how much of the system doubt is a result of our tendency towards perfectionism. we don't fit neatly into any narrative so everything feels like overflowing bullshit
I feel the urge to start an argument with someone but like why lmao
December 7, 2024 at 3:22 AM
I feel the urge to start an argument with someone but like why lmao