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Just call me Ash
@ash.ashtardeza.com
Author of Sinister Fiction (horror and general dark stuff), software dev, armchair philosopher.

Neurodivergent, poly and active in the kink community.

He / him

https://linktr.ee/ashtardeza
After months of bad mental health, it felt good to have a story idea pop into my head again yesterday. In a way, it was about my bad mental health, but hey... that's how you get #horror
September 21, 2025 at 7:31 AM
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You know what? Tot celebrate 69k followers, get ALL my books on itch for the low price of $20! That's 3 smutty novellas, 3 short story collections! Lasts all weekend!

Find the sale here:
itch.io/s/160448/69k...
September 19, 2025 at 6:22 PM
#PennedPossibilities 758 Is there any sort of “lie” at the core of your MC’s worldview or how they see things?

The lie that he never had a choice, that everything was being done to him and he had no agency.

Only the Living Feel Remorse: A Ghost Story
August 18, 2025 at 11:04 AM
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the more senior an engineer you are, the more likely you are to take up woodworking
August 14, 2025 at 4:31 AM
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Wacht, wait, what?
August 13, 2025 at 10:22 PM
#WritersCoffeeClub Day 12
How does the morality of the characters you write differ from your own?

Often radically 😅😅

The main character of my novella is an utter asshole, but he is that way because he let his resentment overcome him.

We have some overlap, but I wasn't quite so unlucky in life.
August 13, 2025 at 8:24 PM
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Just saw someone repost this so I thought I'd resurface it for everyone. It's still relevant.
Saw someone upbraiding someone else for having a hobby while the world is on fire, and, my friends:

1. The world is ever on fire, this is today's conflagration;

2. If you don't find time for rest and joy the fire will consume you;

3. Don't let people shame you for being an entire human.
August 12, 2025 at 3:05 PM
New blog post: on the smoky room at the edge of my brain, where I keep all my old toxic masculinity:

ashtardeza.com/content/blog...
The Department of Toxic Masculinity
When I first started working, smoking in offices had already been banned. Officially, you couldn’t smoke anywhere in the workplace, yet the director of my first job still regularly walked through the ...
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August 11, 2025 at 9:08 AM
I don't often write Dutch, but this prompt inspired me:

(1/3)
August 1, 2025 at 9:31 PM
I'm just dumbfounded. The world needs to know just how bad this is.
This is an executive order that lays the groundwork for sending homeless people and people with mental illness to concentration camps to be "civilly committed." It was never going to stop with immigrants.

This is horrifying beyond words.

www.whitehouse.gov/presidential...
Ending Crime and Disorder on America's Streets
By the authority vested in me as President by the Constitution and the laws of the United States of America, it is hereby ordered: Section 1.  Purpose and
www.whitehouse.gov
July 25, 2025 at 11:11 AM
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July 25, 2025 at 10:30 AM
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Support trans authors while you still can
On that note:

Trans authors (I mean authors who are trans, NOT cis people who write about trans people), drop your book links here and I'll try to repost as many as I can throughout the day.

Cis people: Repost trans authors' book links.

Cis people who want to complain about being excluded: gtfo
Being a trans author is fucking weird right now. Hell is actively unfolding all around us but I still need to be like, "hey, everyone, wanna buy my silly little queer book? It won't make anything better, but it's kinda fun?"

So....hey, everyone, wanna buy my silly little queer book?
July 24, 2025 at 3:16 PM
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Queer/trans authors affected by itch.io, if your NSFW stories have paperback options available, now's a good time to advertise them.
July 24, 2025 at 5:23 AM
#ScribesAndMakers Jul 24: Do you create on the go?

It's almost embarrassing to admit how much of my fiction gets typed on my phone 😅
July 24, 2025 at 6:05 AM
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A horror podcast (The Antiquarium of Sinister Happenings) accepted a short story of mine 🥰🥰🥰
Can't wait to hear them tell this story 🥰🥰🥰

~if you're not familiar with this podcast, highly recommend checking them out for some gruesome horror stories 📚💙🩸📚😱
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Get more from The Antiquarium of Sinister Happenings on Patreon
The Obsidian Covenant
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July 12, 2025 at 1:16 PM
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I've just sent out a whole bunch of submission responses so please look to your spam folders, folks. (Sorry if it's a 'no' this time ❤️)
July 7, 2025 at 11:06 PM
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Rambo IV: CyberVietnam
July 11, 2025 at 5:14 AM
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Hello! A friend of mine forgot an embroidery piece somewhere on the train. She worked on it for years and years, so could you repost and like this in case anyone found it? ❤️
July 6, 2025 at 10:15 AM
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Gevonden op FB. Ik moest erom lachen ... www.facebook.com/photo/?fbid=...
July 5, 2025 at 5:43 AM
I left social media for a while, thinking it would help with my mental health... turns out, it just made me miss you lot 😅
July 4, 2025 at 6:00 AM
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En medeplichtigheid is straks ook strafbaar: honderden kerken, scholen, artsen; duizenden mensen lopen straks risico te worden vervolgd. Beangstigend.
July 1, 2025 at 9:04 PM
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Ik ben aangekondigd als gast op HSFCon, het eerste weekend van november in Maastricht. Ik zal er een lezing geven over Solarpunk, gevolgd door discussie. Bovendien heb ik mijn meest recente boeken mee. Zie ik je daar? www.hsfcon.nl/2025/07/01/n...
Nieuwe gast: Johan Klein Haneveld – HSFCon
www.hsfcon.nl
July 2, 2025 at 7:09 AM
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"Dutch kids get bicycles at an early age and that gives them the ability to move around their towns and cities by themselves."

Bikes ➡️ freedom & independence ➡️ happy kids ✅

edition.cnn.com/2025/06/29/h...?
Why are Dutch kids the world’s happiest? A teenager weighs in | CNN
Freedom for kids to move through the world on their own may be the key to the Netherlands’ top spot in childhood happiness.
edition.cnn.com
June 30, 2025 at 11:34 AM
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Politici die willen dat iedereen met een bijstandsuitkering gaat werken, snappen niet dat het vaak mensen met een chronische ziekte of beperking zijn die die uitkering hebben, en dat het managen van je aandoening al een baan op zich is.
June 30, 2025 at 9:04 AM