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28 • vent account • un-dx'd dissociative system • ment-ill dx include [definitely not limited to] AuDHD, (C+)PTSD, ED, OCD • gw: too light to enIist • pro-recovery (DNI if you aren't as well)
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thankful even though all our technology is fuckin up we still have those movies we downIoaded a few yrs ago. currently: finding n€m°. fell asleep at the end of finding d°®¥ lol only bothered to copy four movies to this flashdrive but if w¡f¡ isn't back tonight we'll transfer more...we're going nuts.
January 13, 2026 at 10:36 AM
thankful even though all our technology is fuckin up we still have those movies we downIoaded a few yrs ago. currently: finding n€m°. fell asleep at the end of finding d°®¥ lol only bothered to copy four movies to this flashdrive but if w¡f¡ isn't back tonight we'll transfer more...we're going nuts.
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love waking up inside flashbacks 🙃 it's been 30+ mins which is 1/5 of the time we were asleep 😐 we're TIRED. and angry at ex. we can understand many reasons why he did a lot of the abuse which is why we excused it for so long, but i will never understand him not waiting til im awake when i
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love waking up inside flashbacks 🙃 it's been 30+ mins which is 1/5 of the time we were asleep 😐 we're TIRED. and angry at ex. we can understand many reasons why he did a lot of the abuse which is why we excused it for so long, but i will never understand him not waiting til im awake when i
January 13, 2026 at 10:20 AM
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love waking up inside flashbacks 🙃 it's been 30+ mins which is 1/5 of the time we were asleep 😐 we're TIRED. and angry at ex. we can understand many reasons why he did a lot of the abuse which is why we excused it for so long, but i will never understand him not waiting til im awake when i
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love waking up inside flashbacks 🙃 it's been 30+ mins which is 1/5 of the time we were asleep 😐 we're TIRED. and angry at ex. we can understand many reasons why he did a lot of the abuse which is why we excused it for so long, but i will never understand him not waiting til im awake when i
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note to self: ask, is this a binge, or is this a healthy meal after under-eating all day, week, whenever?
January 12, 2026 at 9:44 PM
note to self: ask, is this a binge, or is this a healthy meal after under-eating all day, week, whenever?
elle is tripping me out. we've never cried about traumas randomly until the past month; it's always taken physically speaking words to make us realise it actually IS something...worth crying over? that we probably should be crying about?? but have never let ourselves? but elle is giving permission??
January 12, 2026 at 9:51 PM
elle is tripping me out. we've never cried about traumas randomly until the past month; it's always taken physically speaking words to make us realise it actually IS something...worth crying over? that we probably should be crying about?? but have never let ourselves? but elle is giving permission??
AHAHAHA oh dear, in the course of moving things around my wrist got scratched and there's no blood but it's a welt and i feel silly that this is so triggering but with the week we've had omfg i do not know how much more we can deal with before we fucking relapse. we are WALKING OUR LIMIT. Lord help.
January 12, 2026 at 9:43 PM
AHAHAHA oh dear, in the course of moving things around my wrist got scratched and there's no blood but it's a welt and i feel silly that this is so triggering but with the week we've had omfg i do not know how much more we can deal with before we fucking relapse. we are WALKING OUR LIMIT. Lord help.
wanna get shower overwith but then eating will make me feel dirty anyway. not hungry rn and prob won't be later either but there's a slight chance. might be another ramen night. maybe yogurt cos protein. UGH FUCK SHIT BALLS DAMN im tired 😭 gonna try to have logic beat feels and do shower now ig. idk
January 12, 2026 at 9:35 PM
wanna get shower overwith but then eating will make me feel dirty anyway. not hungry rn and prob won't be later either but there's a slight chance. might be another ramen night. maybe yogurt cos protein. UGH FUCK SHIT BALLS DAMN im tired 😭 gonna try to have logic beat feels and do shower now ig. idk
just realised how dehydrated i am. but i didn't wanna drink water at work and then have to use the bathroom 😭 idk if we've ever had a day where we only left once but that happened today. & i cried when i got back to my desk. i felt SILLY but did message my manager...she didn't read it before i left.
January 12, 2026 at 9:15 PM
just realised how dehydrated i am. but i didn't wanna drink water at work and then have to use the bathroom 😭 idk if we've ever had a day where we only left once but that happened today. & i cried when i got back to my desk. i felt SILLY but did message my manager...she didn't read it before i left.
gotta try to make a grocery list for Sat but it's hard. i wanna cook more but i so rarely have the energy and then things go bad. also have to stock up on pantry shit cos im still sharing my stamps (for some reason they still haven't gotten their own, and they do qualify, so...) im so fuckin tired 😭
January 12, 2026 at 9:11 PM
gotta try to make a grocery list for Sat but it's hard. i wanna cook more but i so rarely have the energy and then things go bad. also have to stock up on pantry shit cos im still sharing my stamps (for some reason they still haven't gotten their own, and they do qualify, so...) im so fuckin tired 😭
stuck on data for another day or two cos w¡f¡ people lied this morning. at least my afternoon obligation is overwith half an hour early because of it. exercising til the wash is done, then switching it and will either do omad or shower. can't decide which to do first. both suck. i don't want either.
January 12, 2026 at 9:07 PM
stuck on data for another day or two cos w¡f¡ people lied this morning. at least my afternoon obligation is overwith half an hour early because of it. exercising til the wash is done, then switching it and will either do omad or shower. can't decide which to do first. both suck. i don't want either.
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They're tear gassing us and going HOME TO HOME. They shot a journalist point blank with a concussion grenade. They're refusing to let our elected representatives do oversight. Idgaf what the overall purpose of this acc is WE'RE BEING INVADED. CALL YOUR REPS AND TELL THEM TO DO SOMETHING! WE NEED YOU
To all my American moots, please please PLEASE call your representatives. Tell them you are opposed to the horrific things 🧊 is doing in Minneapolis, my home. They killed at least one already. They've kidnapped who knows how many. Every day they hurt my city and community.
January 12, 2026 at 8:27 PM
They're tear gassing us and going HOME TO HOME. They shot a journalist point blank with a concussion grenade. They're refusing to let our elected representatives do oversight. Idgaf what the overall purpose of this acc is WE'RE BEING INVADED. CALL YOUR REPS AND TELL THEM TO DO SOMETHING! WE NEED YOU
survived work and now im smelly which wouldn't be upsetting if i worked a physical job but i literally just type and it's the stupid fuckin trauma sweat i want to dig my brain out with a grapefruit spoon
January 12, 2026 at 7:31 PM
survived work and now im smelly which wouldn't be upsetting if i worked a physical job but i literally just type and it's the stupid fuckin trauma sweat i want to dig my brain out with a grapefruit spoon
[to selves] get your fuckin shit together.
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January 12, 2026 at 2:27 PM
[to selves] get your fuckin shit together.
(pls)
(pls)
aaand my mask fell on the floor. FUUUCK
January 12, 2026 at 2:25 PM
aaand my mask fell on the floor. FUUUCK
crying in the bathroom at work cos the new door code is two numbers related to The Motel assault and now thinking about if we just need to deal with this new trigger til we get a new door code or if we're gonna ask them to change it (when we rly wanna just be WFH but wifi is out today so we screwed)
January 12, 2026 at 2:23 PM
crying in the bathroom at work cos the new door code is two numbers related to The Motel assault and now thinking about if we just need to deal with this new trigger til we get a new door code or if we're gonna ask them to change it (when we rly wanna just be WFH but wifi is out today so we screwed)
so we will have to go in tomorrow so it's good we did eat tonight. as annoying as it was. anywho here's what we wrote this afternoon and tonight. (it was mostly vik but elle was a tad involved too...check Alt if illegible)
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TW//dysmorphia
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TW//dysmorphia
January 12, 2026 at 4:37 AM
so we will have to go in tomorrow so it's good we did eat tonight. as annoying as it was. anywho here's what we wrote this afternoon and tonight. (it was mostly vik but elle was a tad involved too...check Alt if illegible)
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TW//dysmorphia
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great. i might have to go into the office tomorrow. my neck isn't ready for this 😭 at least we didn't unpack the laptop yet? *sigh* 😣
January 12, 2026 at 2:19 AM
great. i might have to go into the office tomorrow. my neck isn't ready for this 😭 at least we didn't unpack the laptop yet? *sigh* 😣
fuck the winter.
January 11, 2026 at 11:55 PM
fuck the winter.
arm scar driving me nuts and this weekend has reminded me why we've been trying to become ambidextrous. LH is getting a lot better at many things which is great, but it still sucks if we forget to use LH or if/when it gets tired. RH still sucks during computer work + food prep + dishes + cleaning...
January 11, 2026 at 11:54 PM
arm scar driving me nuts and this weekend has reminded me why we've been trying to become ambidextrous. LH is getting a lot better at many things which is great, but it still sucks if we forget to use LH or if/when it gets tired. RH still sucks during computer work + food prep + dishes + cleaning...
im not even hungry and we're not driving why are we doing this 😭
January 11, 2026 at 11:51 PM
im not even hungry and we're not driving why are we doing this 😭
food time. slightly later than preferred but we got the laundry done and put away so we can at least try to relax after...we started to write something this afternoon which usually means more catharting will follow, just a matter of when and whether it'll be more writing or more processing and cryin
January 11, 2026 at 11:40 PM
food time. slightly later than preferred but we got the laundry done and put away so we can at least try to relax after...we started to write something this afternoon which usually means more catharting will follow, just a matter of when and whether it'll be more writing or more processing and cryin
feeling a tad decent about myself, like enough to snap a bc and my fuckin phone is out of storage! i don't have the patience for this! we Just emptied the caches like TWO days ago. FML. (this phone is at least 7 yrs old [and 16 GB, of which 8 are the phone's system files]...but it still works so...)
January 10, 2026 at 8:27 PM
feeling a tad decent about myself, like enough to snap a bc and my fuckin phone is out of storage! i don't have the patience for this! we Just emptied the caches like TWO days ago. FML. (this phone is at least 7 yrs old [and 16 GB, of which 8 are the phone's system files]...but it still works so...)
been having a surprisingly chill time. guess we were finally tired and distracted enough. have random compilations on in background, ASMR in ear, been doing scratch art for idk how long with heat pad on various muscle and scar groups...feeling like doing dinner prep and early dinner don't sound bad.
January 10, 2026 at 8:18 PM
been having a surprisingly chill time. guess we were finally tired and distracted enough. have random compilations on in background, ASMR in ear, been doing scratch art for idk how long with heat pad on various muscle and scar groups...feeling like doing dinner prep and early dinner don't sound bad.
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A Black man was killed by ICE (off duty) in Los Angeles on New Year’s Eve. And like Renée Good, he was an American citizen. But most people have not heard about Keith Porter.
I need y’all to realize this. Black people experience this lack of visibility all the time when it comes to being victims.
I need y’all to realize this. Black people experience this lack of visibility all the time when it comes to being victims.
January 10, 2026 at 3:24 PM
A Black man was killed by ICE (off duty) in Los Angeles on New Year’s Eve. And like Renée Good, he was an American citizen. But most people have not heard about Keith Porter.
I need y’all to realize this. Black people experience this lack of visibility all the time when it comes to being victims.
I need y’all to realize this. Black people experience this lack of visibility all the time when it comes to being victims.
nvm it just occurred to me the movie they're watching is W¡¢k€d and we can't deal with that rn hahaha gonna stay in our own room 😅😸
January 10, 2026 at 5:05 PM
nvm it just occurred to me the movie they're watching is W¡¢k€d and we can't deal with that rn hahaha gonna stay in our own room 😅😸
things happening around house and i have slight fomo and also anxiety and also im still not feeling quite right, idk, B offered grilled cheese and i declined but now im thinking about food and just want to get omad overwith but there's already someone else in the kitchen and there's not enough SPACE
January 10, 2026 at 5:01 PM
things happening around house and i have slight fomo and also anxiety and also im still not feeling quite right, idk, B offered grilled cheese and i declined but now im thinking about food and just want to get omad overwith but there's already someone else in the kitchen and there's not enough SPACE