the previous message was me explaining why it's so stressful when people touch my chair/desk. y'all have no clue how much i wished that was a "no" in reaction to the gif we sent like maybe she'd spring into action, magically get the damn papers so we can WFH and skip this "stop touching my shit" BS!

how it feels to 🍃 vape with paci 😹🤣 it's so much nicer to bite than our teeth though and jaw is refusing to stop clenching today 😅

shit. snake necklace was fucked in that one. it's facing forward for post-workout flex check lol. and my knuckles only look *that* white cos *ra¥naud's*. it's 65°F in here or something. we should be there already but in ~5 lbs we should be able to have sunflower seeds fall through finger gaps again.

sometimes i randomly remember i don't live with my folks anymore and if i want to wear a tank, i fuckin CAN. nobody will tell me off for showing more than 1 cm below my collarbone. forgot how comfy this one is. used to only be allowed to wear it to bed when i had my own room. crazy how shit changes.

like tf is this shit? it might not bother me so much if it was centered but it's usually to the right a bit. we've had issues with the valve between intestines before and this might be related but either way it's annoying AF!! hopefully it'll go away after ILU massage and various exercises help shit

so now it's like...i wanna learn how to fight...but an instructor? can't fathom trusting one. cos we need to know how to defend ourselves. but we'd need a teacher to do that. but we can't get a teacher...

since we don't have much horizontal space and don't want to lose pieces, we're putting it together inside boxes first. when it's in two pieces we'll transfer it to entertainment center top. it'll barely fit. also i feel the need to specify the 3 day record we're making is for any solo 500 pc puzzle.

this is the puzzle we're doing btw.

Us, a System trying to improve self-talk: 😇

jkjk lmao we're good at failing too, it might be the one thing we're good at. and we're only cute like the easter 🐇 - only occasionally cute, and usually kind of unsettling

and too many others lol my brain makes me dizzy sometimes

tw//numbers & bc's
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decided to do the whole trick/treat thing and not weigh in for the whole month. guess we'll see what happens, whether or not we reach gw. it is definitely achievable.
starting point:
49.4 kg / 108.9 lb / 19.9 bmi
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so if we don't lose...*calculates*...5 fucking lbs that's SILLY.

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sometimes this butterfly hug/tapping helps us, also square/box breathing (4 seconds each: breathe in, hold, breathe out, hold), cold water on temples and/or behind neck...sorry ur going through it :'( sending peace 🖤

highly recommend hip shimmy and figure 8s (basic beIIydance moves) as well as the ILU massage (laying down)

tw//sh talk
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doing scratch art cos the vibration feels quite similar to when we'd use an old and slightly rusty blade...we usually preferred glass but sometimes we liked to hear the tearing a bit more...fuck i miss cutting 😭 sh in general, esp the glass. and branding 😓 this is the closest we'll get

2.5ish 😎
(blue squares semi-partial)
- either headphones, earbuds, or earplugs
- we had a cat but now the only cats are housemates'
- fuck seroqueI (that's what caused us to gain, now we're "normal" again 🙄)

yo i hope all's going well!! proud of you for stepping out like that and i hope u create some happy memories! miss u and went to send u this via DM but apparently that isn't possible here...i realised we never named these [carved bamboo] snakes so they are now rinnie and rika, in your honour hehe 💕💖

okay i was p sure i knew what poverty nachos were but had to g°°gI3 *cos OCD* and after confirming, of course had to look at the related questions. i was not disappointed. (the weight proximity to the applicable Q is hilarious as well as how they change from "you" to "i" mid-sentence 😆 sending me 🤣)