It's one of those things where a role is so uniquely suited to my skillsets and experience...I am like was this container made for me? *Insert anime guy looking at butterfly meme*

It's also so painful to witness incredible people be reprimanded or their value be wasted when they're trying to guess the system they're supposed to be working in. Or that it only lives in one person's head and flip flops based on that person's switch up. A power imbalance.

I think this is a bizarrely me trait, but maybe has to do with my own need to have a clear understanding or place I can independently seek information.

I hope that I wrapped up the curse with "everything comes in threes" and I don't have any more of this nonsense cause...holy cannoli.

It's like the mercury in retrograde on my banking, phone, and even a website I used months ago. All of them far superceded what a normal support rep could do because my accounts were glitched in ways they couldn't actually fix unless it was backend or multi-level escalated.

Something they do well in HSR is they set up systems for auto-battle or certain characters with speciality moves that help "skip" or speed up elements that could get really repetitive. Lots of ways to pick and choose what you spend time on. Including dialog skip + sumarry (not for me hehe).

Tell me what you think. 😶‍🌫️ First world is pretty basic conceptually, but I think it's cause they wanna build the concepts, tropes, universe starting closed and then layer. If I'd been introduced to it in the current world my brain would have imploded.

Story + universe gets brain breaking in penacony & amphoreus. 💕

Depends on what you're looking for in a game! I'd looove someone to talk about lore with 🥹 but it has pretty specific game mechanics re: turn based battling. altho they do have v good quality of life mechanics for repetitive features.

also nothing beats being able to take a game with you on your phone. 😅😝😜

how dare you call me out publicly for that 😭 but yes. I am gacha'd haha 🥹 that lore tho

🙈 Honkai star rail

I also I think in some ways they got too big to be collaborative and engaged in the same ways as when they started. So might have impacted the path they took too.

I was on their set in Chicago when they filmed VIP and noticed how collaborative they were. You could tell there was a flow w their pals. But honestly, I think the joking around & collaborating cut out the artistic vision where it all got muddled into meme core without any purpose.

And it's like...anyone who knows me, would know that?

All that to say, I feel like I know these gaps, and actively work on them. But, damn, although beautiful in concept as I am generous and don't fall for fear-based propaganda because of it...there's also negative aspects of an instinctual gap.

B. I don't have the natural self-protection instincts to lie to people or play games for personal gain. I hardly ever remember to prioritize myself.

C. And unfortunately, I give too much information away about myself that people can craft compelling stories with real truths mixed in.

So it's extra wild when I hear these crafted stories about me.

Cause -

A. Even in my 30s & with all the lessons and heaviness of experience.... I'm still too naïve.

Although I confidently show up in protection or support of people other than myself. It's just when it comes to myself I struggle to recognize that need.

That's all to say, my basic understanding of boundaries and security is not intuitive. 🙃🤐

locked my bedroom door. Even my vulnerable, overly-honest, and direct way of communicating mirrors this gap in natural understanding.

I started to recognize that performing "having a fence" made people respect it or not take advantage of it.