It was a small group to begin with and right from the get go the participation wasn't really there, which started triggering the rejection sensitive dysphoria 😩 if I try again I suppose I'll just keep my expectations at rock bottom even if I ask people to not join if they're not gonna interact, ty!

And so a little bit of context has to be provided

I even asked about things to make sure I wasn't asking for too much but still didn't get much interaction which sucked bad :(
I'm trying to keep it vague because it was an online thing and I don't want people to feel attacked but I also am trying to figure out if I'd be rude or not—

* Voluntary meaning that they said they were interested, implying that they'd like to join the thing, and they knew the exact time and date of when meetups were to happen, and what was expected from them progress wise

In this situation it was a voluntary thing that had a time commitment (not much, nor did I expect people to put a Lot of time into it) and was moreso of a group activity! But it ended up feeling like I was the only one doing said thing and had nobody to talk to about it so I dropped it.

I would have gladly attempted to accommodate as much as possible on my end if there was communication but honestly nobody came to me with any sort of concern, idk if I came off as unapproachable or what but :(

I've been thinking about this a lot lately hence why I'm bringing it up again :(
I'm trying to let go of my negative feelings on it, but man... My feelings actually got genuinely hurt and I think I'm subconsciously holding onto that hurt but idk how to get over it

—wanted to do on my day off and was happy to do because I was trying to make friends over a shared interest, it really fucking sucked. Now I just feel overly bitter and don't want to do said thing at all anymore or even try again because I don't want to go through this song and dance again.

—to be respected, and I want others' efforts to be respected too. I'm not doing anything right now but it makes me drop things so fast if it doesn't feel like my time and effort is being respected, as well as it kills my enthusiasm for said thing. To have my excitement killed for something I—