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@xo-kill.bsky.social
· Mar 31
☆ hi im 𝙺𝙸𝙻𝙻𝙰 [key-la]
☆ i was born in 1997
☆ they/it [nonbinary]
☆ demisexual [in love]
☆ neurodivergent
☆ disabled & traumatized
☆ 21+ [i will block you]
this is a 𝚅𝙴𝙽𝚃 account ⚠️
[block ➜ dont report]
☆ i was born in 1997
☆ they/it [nonbinary]
☆ demisexual [in love]
☆ neurodivergent
☆ disabled & traumatized
☆ 21+ [i will block you]
this is a 𝚅𝙴𝙽𝚃 account ⚠️
[block ➜ dont report]
i went to a CODA meeting today & it was nothing like it was in rehab.
May 5, 2025 at 6:00 AM
i went to a CODA meeting today & it was nothing like it was in rehab.
if you believe the moon landing was fake, if you think aliens aren’t real, if you think the earth is flat, then DONT interact with me!
if you are seriously dense enough to think either any of those things, i dont want your opinions on anything!
also, shaving doesnt make your hair grow in thicker!
if you are seriously dense enough to think either any of those things, i dont want your opinions on anything!
also, shaving doesnt make your hair grow in thicker!
April 19, 2025 at 9:22 AM
if you believe the moon landing was fake, if you think aliens aren’t real, if you think the earth is flat, then DONT interact with me!
if you are seriously dense enough to think either any of those things, i dont want your opinions on anything!
also, shaving doesnt make your hair grow in thicker!
if you are seriously dense enough to think either any of those things, i dont want your opinions on anything!
also, shaving doesnt make your hair grow in thicker!
how the fuck…? seriously that doesn’t make any sense?!
my BF’s temperature was just 94.3 when we checked it but he said he’s feels super hot. he is visually sweaty & clammy.
everything online says hypothermia but there has to be something else going on…
seriously what the actual fuck?!
my BF’s temperature was just 94.3 when we checked it but he said he’s feels super hot. he is visually sweaty & clammy.
everything online says hypothermia but there has to be something else going on…
seriously what the actual fuck?!
April 19, 2025 at 9:15 AM
how the fuck…? seriously that doesn’t make any sense?!
my BF’s temperature was just 94.3 when we checked it but he said he’s feels super hot. he is visually sweaty & clammy.
everything online says hypothermia but there has to be something else going on…
seriously what the actual fuck?!
my BF’s temperature was just 94.3 when we checked it but he said he’s feels super hot. he is visually sweaty & clammy.
everything online says hypothermia but there has to be something else going on…
seriously what the actual fuck?!
someone would loves me would know to make a habit of messaging me. they’d understand my brain likes routine & if they become part of my routine, they become part of my life… i wish people understood how i get lost in my own mind & what to do next while trying to just stay alive.
April 19, 2025 at 9:09 AM
someone would loves me would know to make a habit of messaging me. they’d understand my brain likes routine & if they become part of my routine, they become part of my life… i wish people understood how i get lost in my own mind & what to do next while trying to just stay alive.
it feels like all i do is care for other people or put them first… then when im struggling & ask for help… they either aren’t there for me or half ass it…
April 19, 2025 at 8:09 AM
it feels like all i do is care for other people or put them first… then when im struggling & ask for help… they either aren’t there for me or half ass it…
im such a pessimistic, negative & depressing person. it makes sense why i can’t keep people in my life. i judge people around me by their actions & see what others are able to do that im not. maybe it’s because im autistic, but i’ve always felt like i didnt fit in. like i knew something others dont.
April 19, 2025 at 7:56 AM
im such a pessimistic, negative & depressing person. it makes sense why i can’t keep people in my life. i judge people around me by their actions & see what others are able to do that im not. maybe it’s because im autistic, but i’ve always felt like i didnt fit in. like i knew something others dont.
i gained 12+ lbs in the past month or two… i stopped weighing myself everyday for a while & now im back at it again… woops 🤷🏻♀️
April 19, 2025 at 5:23 AM
i gained 12+ lbs in the past month or two… i stopped weighing myself everyday for a while & now im back at it again… woops 🤷🏻♀️
i can tell i gained weight just by my face shape… my double chin is back…
April 19, 2025 at 5:18 AM
i can tell i gained weight just by my face shape… my double chin is back…
i only had a carmel matcha today & i realized it’s midnight so i went to taco bell to get a quesadilla.
as i was eating, my BF got out of the shower & asked if i could switch the bluetooth scale over to his account.
when he came back in the room he told me how much he weighed… i stopped eating…
as i was eating, my BF got out of the shower & asked if i could switch the bluetooth scale over to his account.
when he came back in the room he told me how much he weighed… i stopped eating…
April 19, 2025 at 5:17 AM
i only had a carmel matcha today & i realized it’s midnight so i went to taco bell to get a quesadilla.
as i was eating, my BF got out of the shower & asked if i could switch the bluetooth scale over to his account.
when he came back in the room he told me how much he weighed… i stopped eating…
as i was eating, my BF got out of the shower & asked if i could switch the bluetooth scale over to his account.
when he came back in the room he told me how much he weighed… i stopped eating…
life update —
i was working 4 - 6 days a week at a cafe, as a baker & bartisa. a month ago they cut my hours down to 2 days a week & blamed the “slow season” so i waited it out, hoping it’d pass.
last tuesday, i was told me they didnt need BOTH my positions anymore & was being let go.
1/3 📝
i was working 4 - 6 days a week at a cafe, as a baker & bartisa. a month ago they cut my hours down to 2 days a week & blamed the “slow season” so i waited it out, hoping it’d pass.
last tuesday, i was told me they didnt need BOTH my positions anymore & was being let go.
1/3 📝
March 31, 2025 at 5:49 PM
life update —
i was working 4 - 6 days a week at a cafe, as a baker & bartisa. a month ago they cut my hours down to 2 days a week & blamed the “slow season” so i waited it out, hoping it’d pass.
last tuesday, i was told me they didnt need BOTH my positions anymore & was being let go.
1/3 📝
i was working 4 - 6 days a week at a cafe, as a baker & bartisa. a month ago they cut my hours down to 2 days a week & blamed the “slow season” so i waited it out, hoping it’d pass.
last tuesday, i was told me they didnt need BOTH my positions anymore & was being let go.
1/3 📝
☆ hi im 𝙺𝙸𝙻𝙻𝙰 [key-la]
☆ i was born in 1997
☆ they/it [nonbinary]
☆ demisexual [in love]
☆ neurodivergent
☆ disabled & traumatized
☆ 21+ [i will block you]
this is a 𝚅𝙴𝙽𝚃 account ⚠️
[block ➜ dont report]
☆ i was born in 1997
☆ they/it [nonbinary]
☆ demisexual [in love]
☆ neurodivergent
☆ disabled & traumatized
☆ 21+ [i will block you]
this is a 𝚅𝙴𝙽𝚃 account ⚠️
[block ➜ dont report]
March 31, 2025 at 5:15 PM
☆ hi im 𝙺𝙸𝙻𝙻𝙰 [key-la]
☆ i was born in 1997
☆ they/it [nonbinary]
☆ demisexual [in love]
☆ neurodivergent
☆ disabled & traumatized
☆ 21+ [i will block you]
this is a 𝚅𝙴𝙽𝚃 account ⚠️
[block ➜ dont report]
☆ i was born in 1997
☆ they/it [nonbinary]
☆ demisexual [in love]
☆ neurodivergent
☆ disabled & traumatized
☆ 21+ [i will block you]
this is a 𝚅𝙴𝙽𝚃 account ⚠️
[block ➜ dont report]
my mental health is getting worse but at least i ate breakfast today —
940+ kcals
🥯🍌🫐💧
940+ kcals
🥯🍌🫐💧
March 31, 2025 at 4:55 PM
my mental health is getting worse but at least i ate breakfast today —
940+ kcals
🥯🍌🫐💧
940+ kcals
🥯🍌🫐💧
so… got my hair done today… to help me feel pretty & do some self care… after i left the salon i cried for most of the night because i spent way too much for hair im not even sure i like anymore… i hate being mentally unstable… i’d rather be dead than deal with the up & down… again & again…….
January 26, 2025 at 7:29 AM
so… got my hair done today… to help me feel pretty & do some self care… after i left the salon i cried for most of the night because i spent way too much for hair im not even sure i like anymore… i hate being mentally unstable… i’d rather be dead than deal with the up & down… again & again…….
i haven’t eaten in 2 days but atleast i have my chaos snack dinner.
SpongeBob mac & cheese with some extra plant based cheese, liquid iv, 1/2 an evening bagel, 1/2 a cinnamon swirl bagel with nacho doritos & some taco bell hot sauce.
why would i have a meal when you can have multiple snacks?
SpongeBob mac & cheese with some extra plant based cheese, liquid iv, 1/2 an evening bagel, 1/2 a cinnamon swirl bagel with nacho doritos & some taco bell hot sauce.
why would i have a meal when you can have multiple snacks?
December 30, 2024 at 1:21 AM
i haven’t eaten in 2 days but atleast i have my chaos snack dinner.
SpongeBob mac & cheese with some extra plant based cheese, liquid iv, 1/2 an evening bagel, 1/2 a cinnamon swirl bagel with nacho doritos & some taco bell hot sauce.
why would i have a meal when you can have multiple snacks?
SpongeBob mac & cheese with some extra plant based cheese, liquid iv, 1/2 an evening bagel, 1/2 a cinnamon swirl bagel with nacho doritos & some taco bell hot sauce.
why would i have a meal when you can have multiple snacks?
i’m the kind of tired that sleep doesn’t fix. it’s in my bones, my head, my heart. on top of that, i constantly feel like i’m not doing enough with my life — like i’m stuck in this endless cycle of exhaustion & self-doubt. no matter how much i do, it never feels like it’s enough.
December 13, 2024 at 6:19 AM
i’m the kind of tired that sleep doesn’t fix. it’s in my bones, my head, my heart. on top of that, i constantly feel like i’m not doing enough with my life — like i’m stuck in this endless cycle of exhaustion & self-doubt. no matter how much i do, it never feels like it’s enough.
i wake up every day at 6:00 or 6:20 like clockwork to use the bathroom. i think it might be pelvic floor dysfunction. i cant sleep in, my hips & body hurt if i stay in bed too long. even when im depressed, im awake before 9:30. i wish i could just rest instead of waking up manic, depressed, or numb.
December 13, 2024 at 6:15 AM
i wake up every day at 6:00 or 6:20 like clockwork to use the bathroom. i think it might be pelvic floor dysfunction. i cant sleep in, my hips & body hurt if i stay in bed too long. even when im depressed, im awake before 9:30. i wish i could just rest instead of waking up manic, depressed, or numb.
i tried showing my bf a song i love, but he kept interrupting. near the end, i said “i love you, but you just kept talking over the song.” we were in such a good mood, but i ruined it because it felt like he didn’t care. now i feel bad because he got quiet & felt guilty after.
December 10, 2024 at 11:57 PM
i tried showing my bf a song i love, but he kept interrupting. near the end, i said “i love you, but you just kept talking over the song.” we were in such a good mood, but i ruined it because it felt like he didn’t care. now i feel bad because he got quiet & felt guilty after.
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Good things have happened to me when I don’t tell anyone. Ironic.
December 7, 2024 at 4:24 AM
Good things have happened to me when I don’t tell anyone. Ironic.
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December 7, 2024 at 9:43 AM
welp, i lost the gram cart i had from three days ago, then my bf got me a .5g cart yesterday instead of 1g cart. i appreciate that he tried but like .5 doesn’t last me more than 36 hours lately
December 7, 2024 at 10:35 PM
welp, i lost the gram cart i had from three days ago, then my bf got me a .5g cart yesterday instead of 1g cart. i appreciate that he tried but like .5 doesn’t last me more than 36 hours lately
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My ed isn’t me thinking skinnier people are morally superior, it’s not even fully about my appearance. It’s about control, over the food, over my body, over getting sick or not.
People need to stop acting like having an ed is a moral failure. It’s not a statement or a belief, it’s a disorder.
People need to stop acting like having an ed is a moral failure. It’s not a statement or a belief, it’s a disorder.
December 6, 2024 at 4:33 PM
My ed isn’t me thinking skinnier people are morally superior, it’s not even fully about my appearance. It’s about control, over the food, over my body, over getting sick or not.
People need to stop acting like having an ed is a moral failure. It’s not a statement or a belief, it’s a disorder.
People need to stop acting like having an ed is a moral failure. It’s not a statement or a belief, it’s a disorder.
if you are under 21 please don’t talk to me or interact with me, let your brain develop while you talk to people your age… why do you want to follow me so bad i’m just some traumatized anonymous nonbinary person on the internet. i don’t get it. but also, why aren’t you reading people pinned posts?
December 5, 2024 at 9:26 PM
if you are under 21 please don’t talk to me or interact with me, let your brain develop while you talk to people your age… why do you want to follow me so bad i’m just some traumatized anonymous nonbinary person on the internet. i don’t get it. but also, why aren’t you reading people pinned posts?
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i was thinking about making one of those bingo card, but i don’t feel like i have enough of a secure sense of self to even fill in the boxes. i feel like i keep getting stuck on what would i even put on it 🙃
December 5, 2024 at 3:53 AM
i was thinking about making one of those bingo card, but i don’t feel like i have enough of a secure sense of self to even fill in the boxes. i feel like i keep getting stuck on what would i even put on it 🙃