🔃 Heavy 🔃 | MultiFandom | Standing on the edge of cliff.🌩 Depressed Mess 💔| 🌬️ No drama/hate/bullies. | Minors DNF
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I haven't been talkingabout it. Either things just fit, or been struggling, and just barely. With my youngest sister's help or my SO's help.
* Almost out of cat food
* no car insurance
* no car registration
* no working car
* Fredday vet
$35 bank.
I haven't been talkingabout it. Either things just fit, or been struggling, and just barely. With my youngest sister's help or my SO's help.
* Almost out of cat food
* no car insurance
* no car registration
* no working car
* Fredday vet
$35 bank.
I'm still behind on so much. It's so much energy.
But GoFundMe so Fredday can have his inhaler and my mom can have her car (registration/fix) is top priority.
Cleaning my room... it's become bad again.
I'm just.
Drive comes and goes at the worst... I'm dizzy.
I'm still behind on so much. It's so much energy.
But GoFundMe so Fredday can have his inhaler and my mom can have her car (registration/fix) is top priority.
Cleaning my room... it's become bad again.
I'm just.
Drive comes and goes at the worst... I'm dizzy.
it's been hard. Fluctuating sickness, but getting better. Fluctuating mood (as always, but with added grief attachment - my nightmares keep having me hunt for my siblings... both deceased and not.). Brainfog from all of it.
I'm clinging to what little I can enjoy...
it's been hard. Fluctuating sickness, but getting better. Fluctuating mood (as always, but with added grief attachment - my nightmares keep having me hunt for my siblings... both deceased and not.). Brainfog from all of it.
I'm clinging to what little I can enjoy...
Waking up to "Spaghetti f JHope" stuck in my head isn't helping 😹😭😹😭😹
Waking up to "Spaghetti f JHope" stuck in my head isn't helping 😹😭😹😭😹
... Not ok.
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... Not ok.
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I better be able to see it...
I better be able to see it...
I certainly won't be seeing BTS live this year.
And certainly won't be able to get their new album...
Or ATEEZ's if they release one.
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I certainly won't be seeing BTS live this year.
And certainly won't be able to get their new album...
Or ATEEZ's if they release one.
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The lovely neighbor I worry about due to his heavy dr/g use + physical violent record (look, I don't immediately judge ppl. I try to find out things, listen, etc. And then depending on crime, actions, regret/apology/rehab, etc)...
But he has been
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The lovely neighbor I worry about due to his heavy dr/g use + physical violent record (look, I don't immediately judge ppl. I try to find out things, listen, etc. And then depending on crime, actions, regret/apology/rehab, etc)...
But he has been
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I reach for my phone at times... wanting to text Shannon... but I can't. Because she's gone. I sometimes go to Nick's playstation acct, once in a blue moon, and leave a message. Just. I want my siblings back.
They were too young.
This isn't fair.
I reach for my phone at times... wanting to text Shannon... but I can't. Because she's gone. I sometimes go to Nick's playstation acct, once in a blue moon, and leave a message. Just. I want my siblings back.
They were too young.
This isn't fair.
And y'know, I do think that if a place has enough power to HELP someone, they should (aka help Pa|estine, not Isr@e|), etc.
WHILE
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And y'know, I do think that if a place has enough power to HELP someone, they should (aka help Pa|estine, not Isr@e|), etc.
WHILE
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Nvm what the world sees.
Nvm what the world sees.
... who knew a Sesame Street episode about The Snap would be a thing that'd make me emotional??
https://tmblr.co/ZYeuJVignKyFSu00
... who knew a Sesame Street episode about The Snap would be a thing that'd make me emotional??
https://tmblr.co/ZYeuJVignKyFSu00
I mean, I've got the emotional/sensitivity/hyper empathy she doesn't have? And I'm not outgoing generally like her, but yeah.
/thoughts.
I mean, I've got the emotional/sensitivity/hyper empathy she doesn't have? And I'm not outgoing generally like her, but yeah.
/thoughts.
But yeah.
But yeah.
I like *looking* at Fireworks. I understand the problems and have talked about it in the past.
At midnight they (someone) blasted it and it sounded like it was on our porch, so it was def close by x.x
Fredday sat at the kitchen
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I like *looking* at Fireworks. I understand the problems and have talked about it in the past.
At midnight they (someone) blasted it and it sounded like it was on our porch, so it was def close by x.x
Fredday sat at the kitchen
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Bringing in the new year finding out that my mom's power bank - which is just under 2 years old - is swollen up. I primarily use it now.
I googled.
It's a b0mb, pretty much, and isn't safe anymore.
So that's fun.
Bringing in the new year finding out that my mom's power bank - which is just under 2 years old - is swollen up. I primarily use it now.
I googled.
It's a b0mb, pretty much, and isn't safe anymore.
So that's fun.
What does my brain do for the last nightmare set of the year?
Make me nightmare she needs the hospital, maybe not survivable, then also include a sh00ting in s public place.
Yup.
Thanks, brain.
What does my brain do for the last nightmare set of the year?
Make me nightmare she needs the hospital, maybe not survivable, then also include a sh00ting in s public place.
Yup.
Thanks, brain.
But I opened up the BTS live and saw what they were doing for ARMY... and now at least my heart is fuzzy.
But I opened up the BTS live and saw what they were doing for ARMY... and now at least my heart is fuzzy.
Walmart doesn't do the car part m'mom needs. So she's having to ask elsewhere. Her ... worker person thing is trying to help with her health insurance, too. My phone is getting worse. Understandably still taking a while to get used to
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Walmart doesn't do the car part m'mom needs. So she's having to ask elsewhere. Her ... worker person thing is trying to help with her health insurance, too. My phone is getting worse. Understandably still taking a while to get used to
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