Sober Hedonist
@x-hedonist.bsky.social
For the past 30 years I have used something to numb myself, or alter my mood. This is my journey of exploring my pure consciousness, filling my time with art, plant medicine and Transcendental Meditation. It’s not easy, but necessary.
This time it doesn’t feel so hard at all, thanks to the well curated iboga ceremony. The last time, the first week without nicotine felt like I was losing my mind while climbing up an impossible mountain.
June 1, 2025 at 3:04 PM
This time it doesn’t feel so hard at all, thanks to the well curated iboga ceremony. The last time, the first week without nicotine felt like I was losing my mind while climbing up an impossible mountain.
During the break I had between the Iboga ceremonies, I decided to dip my toe in the waters of my addictions again. The next iboga ceremony requires another 40 day detox from alcohol and caffeine. I feel disappointed that I wanted to, but thought a break from taking a break would be nice.
May 23, 2025 at 6:57 AM
During the break I had between the Iboga ceremonies, I decided to dip my toe in the waters of my addictions again. The next iboga ceremony requires another 40 day detox from alcohol and caffeine. I feel disappointed that I wanted to, but thought a break from taking a break would be nice.
Yesterday was another Kambo ceremony in preparation for the iboga ceremony starting at midnight tonight. May that greedy pig who overindulges in everything die this weekend.
May 23, 2025 at 6:49 AM
Yesterday was another Kambo ceremony in preparation for the iboga ceremony starting at midnight tonight. May that greedy pig who overindulges in everything die this weekend.
30 days of meditating for 20 minutes, twice a day. May this gold streak continue.
May 9, 2025 at 5:00 AM
30 days of meditating for 20 minutes, twice a day. May this gold streak continue.
My Kambo Warrior marks. The frog medicine doesn’t just make you purge out toxins, it fills you with the wisdom and peace of the frog who carries it. I cut down dramatically on mindless Netflix and You Tube, because I enjoy my own thoughts much more now. How grateful I am for this medicine.
May 8, 2025 at 1:14 PM
My Kambo Warrior marks. The frog medicine doesn’t just make you purge out toxins, it fills you with the wisdom and peace of the frog who carries it. I cut down dramatically on mindless Netflix and You Tube, because I enjoy my own thoughts much more now. How grateful I am for this medicine.
The only counters I have left is nicotine, alcohol and chewing gum. Coffee and weed have become part of my daily life again. Weed is helping with my mood, and cravings for alcohol and nicotine. Caffeine is helping me suppress the relentless appetite that nicotine withdrawals give.
May 8, 2025 at 1:02 PM
The only counters I have left is nicotine, alcohol and chewing gum. Coffee and weed have become part of my daily life again. Weed is helping with my mood, and cravings for alcohol and nicotine. Caffeine is helping me suppress the relentless appetite that nicotine withdrawals give.
I had to reset my weed counter today. I was lashing out at everyone and felt like I was about to explode. It helped me calm down, be more compassionate and reduced the other cravings. Let’s hope it doesn’t mean I fall completely off the wagon with everything else.
April 28, 2025 at 6:48 PM
I had to reset my weed counter today. I was lashing out at everyone and felt like I was about to explode. It helped me calm down, be more compassionate and reduced the other cravings. Let’s hope it doesn’t mean I fall completely off the wagon with everything else.
This week was particularly hard because I gave up chewing gum which was my replacement for smoking and vaping. I keep thinking this will be the day where I give up giving up.
April 27, 2025 at 3:08 PM
This week was particularly hard because I gave up chewing gum which was my replacement for smoking and vaping. I keep thinking this will be the day where I give up giving up.
I made it to one month without alcohol. The holidays sure made it more challenging. I missed it, but I feel like anything is possible now.
April 21, 2025 at 6:13 AM
I made it to one month without alcohol. The holidays sure made it more challenging. I missed it, but I feel like anything is possible now.
Yesterday was particularly tough, but I’m glad I made it through the night clean from my vices. I think I should do another iboga flood to help with the cravings.
April 17, 2025 at 6:09 AM
Yesterday was particularly tough, but I’m glad I made it through the night clean from my vices. I think I should do another iboga flood to help with the cravings.
My therapy for the day. Gray scale still life.
April 15, 2025 at 1:55 PM
My therapy for the day. Gray scale still life.
Days since. I miss nicotine the most, but would love an Irish coffee paired with a weed/ tobacco joint.
April 14, 2025 at 11:45 AM
Days since. I miss nicotine the most, but would love an Irish coffee paired with a weed/ tobacco joint.