vent 4/4
i know realistically and logically that i did the right thing but my dad's voice and the little demon in my brain are so much louder
i know this isn't about me or how i feel i really don't mean to be selfish i just can't let go of this obsessive thought i just needed to get it out of me

vent 3/?
they needed a non-related witness to come over and sign DNR forms. she died 12 hours later. and this family is in so much pain from her loss, everyone loved her so much. myself included. everyone is in shambles and i signed the paper that told them not to save her and i feel like a monster

vent 2/?
on Halloween my kid's paternal grandma went to the ER for chest pain and was diagnosed with end stage terminal lung cancer.
a couple of weeks ago she was put on home hospice so she could be comfortable.
Friday afternoon I got a call at work from my ex that they needed me to come over

he texted me after the show to tell me how well it went and how happy he was

he texted me when he woke up to tell me how he slept and that he hoped i slept well too

asked me to "come over and be lazy with me all day"

i am simping SO HARD for this man

this is going to end so badly for me lol

i got his number and he sent my a flyer for the show he's playing in tonight

it's a charity event
it's a goddamn toy drive
he's playing in 4 of the bands

update: I told him that I would love to come his show Sunday (he wants me at his show?!) but I have to be responsible and he said "I know, it's okay. We can dream about it and then our dreams will come true. 😊"

WE CAN DREAM ABOUT IT 🥺

i wanted to click this real bad so probably