well — there is one thing i can do, and that is to turn these two into the main event. a restructuring, in other words.

i found myself more invested in nitani-sensei's inner struggles, and how his impersonator helped him to come to terms with his authentic self, and reignited his passion for writing scripts that he wanted — even if they weren't bestsellers.

god, i love a man with a sharp cheekbone and jawline... that pout is popping too fr 😜

no, seriously, there's something about this grey ensemble that makes him look so. damn. good.

someone also pointed out that "danger zone" — ie, the underarm gap between his harness and vest, and now i can't stop thinking about it.

i think we all need to remember that taka once queued more than an hour for captain e.o. at disneyland for his date. that's all the evidence i need.

with yūji, however — they're constantly linking arms, sitting knee to knee beside each other, trading flirtatious remarks; and whenever kaoru's in danger, yūji is *always* the first to rush to her.

it feels romantic, like there is something beneath all the teasing.

taka is smooth and charming with the ladies, and kaoru is no exception — but only he wants to.

there's a clear line in their relationship being an older brother teasing a spoilt and playful younger sister. it never feels romantic, unlike how taka treats his love interests.

i mean, they don't need to address it, because it's evidently just two chaotic sillies being silly together, but they can't just keep teasing us like this — this isn't actually good for my heart nor sanity.

amongst countless other things that has manifested in my tendency towards anxiety and overthinking. all behaviours that i picked up from walking on eggshells around her.

she often asks why i am so aggressively defensive when talking to her, but fails to notice that it is a learned response from when she would yell at me for my actions before i even had a chance to explain myself.