watching euphoria rn and yes definitely

i took a while shit of meds and i'm just waking up at 10 like am i really that not phased it was very short i could kms ill never die

fuck it i'll do better tomorrow

because i do be isolating myself, fighting with my loved ones, feeling strong emotions about death and loss. but i also feel love

it is NOTHING toxic or unwanted. it is purely attraction, love and tenderness. he talks to me every day morning to sleep. he is affectionate, demonstrating and loving. i am having the best sex. i even deleted my dating apps and im only talking to him which is a first on every level. i am down bad

how do i know this is not the start of a bpd episode

it is like i've been turned back on again and my body and mind are just trying to catch up but it is painful even though i know that the person im falling for has no desire to hurt me it's like im still suffering because of all the love im getting that i thought was lost