i'm... fighting with my bf? how? why is that happening?

well i'm on my own right now sike

i feel like i'm discovering sex for the first time every time i have sex with my bf. but also i feel so much more performative like i know what i gotta do this time and i'll do it right

i'm officially no longer single!!! i have a BOYFRIEND!!! i haven't been in a relationship in 4 YEARS!!!!

he declared his love for me and i did too

fighting the urge to swallow a whole tab of benzos and just pass out. i'm exhausted

i might be truly falling in love for the first time since... since i don't know when and it might just be the best and most terrifying thing ever. i feel again in a way i didn't think i had not in forever but i am feeling EVERYTHING. everything just at once and not just for him, in all aspects

i am filled with despair i can not stop crying i wish i wasn't alive i wish i didn't feel this pain i don't know what's going on i don't know what's wrong with me but this ache i can not stand

this day is already so fuckinng hard i'm crying my eyes out over picking up the trash i feel so beyond broken

i got all this love and no one to put it towards to. maybe it's best. maybe my love wasn't made for this plane, maybe i'll give it freely in the next

posting here in an attempt to break a writer's block and also get a better understanding of who i am now in a world i barely recognize with a big heart but an empty shell

LUNA.

only logging in to check on my baby @borderlinebby.bsky.social i am ur bigger fan xx🙏🏾🙏🏾