Literally the last ten years of my career has just been "I guess I can do that if you need me to" for increasingly more boring shit. I used to build cool databases, now I'm just a baby sitter and note taker. Project management is supposed to PAY GOOD, and I'm not even getting that!!

Unprompted??

Get in bitch

Also my critical rx was FREE when I picked it up, and I'm worried they got it wrong and I'm gonna get hit with a $500 bill in the mail. I ran out of the pharmacy like I stole it (cause maybe I did??)

I GOT INSURANCE, it only took 3 phonecalls and a digital maze to get all my shit set up. I hate it when I get a peek behind the curtain of American bullshit, bc I'm fluent in English and tech savvy, and it was still a piece of shit process for me. I know it's 1000x worse for elderly or ESL folks.

Although I do wish I still had some childlike wonder about lights in the sky. Now I just assume any UFO / UAP is just the government testing new weaponry or surveillance shit.

And they told me it can take "anywhere from a couple minutes to a couple weeks" to be approved. BRO? I have appointments with specialists coming up, and I don't know how I'm going to afford them. I'm going to have to cancel and get pushed to the back of the months-long line again.

Some weeks are harder than others, and I'm in the depths of a really tough week. I know better weeks are ahead (or at least I have hope that they are), but right now I just want to lay down and stay down.