I’ve also noticed there’s about three people following me. A bit nervous about it, but that’s all about these entries. Hello! I didn’t think I’d have three followers at all, but that’s something! It really comes to show how interactive Bluesky is! I like the community here from my short stay!

I’ll be honest, I fit the ‘One Way To See’ in because I hit the limit of my word count. The thought of continuing this entry up to a potential future where I’m satisfied with my life is a heartwarming one. It would have done its deed: A reflection. That would definitely be nice!

I want to put a reason behind these entries. Questions I want to answer with these entries to not forget and bury myself deep down once more. My eyes have been opened, and I can only hope I am not influenced by such hurtful words coming from the family I looked up to who seem to not feel the same.

This seems like a lot, but I want to know that these feelings aren't unreasonable. I want to be someone who I am happy with, I want to be someone who is fun and true to themselves. I want to be a friend to anyone. I want to be heard. I want to achieve all this. I feel like time is running out.

I think I know the reason why. The only thing everybody has to say about me is that I am beautiful, pretty, authentic. I am only something in appearance, but none seems to understand the feelings I feel. I only want to be happy, I only want to be someone. I want to know what it's like to live.

I like that there are people who can transition and be happy, I want to be like that. I think it will help me grow out of the depression I've been condemned by the solitude of the life I am. My childhood was spent by my family who only worries about surviving. I understand, but their words hurt.

I'm scared. It's survival or a sacrifice to the life I live to become myself. All alone, in a world I was never taught properly to get along with. I want to be happy, but why is it so difficult to? My entire life has been the same, and I've felt so alone. Nobody seems to understand that.

Is being happy a difficult thing? Is it important to ignore one's feelings, and am I being stupid and foolish? If I approach the me who makes me happy, I will lose everything. I don't have anybody in this world, but my mother and sibling who has been there for me.

My mother played me off as insane, that I am stupid and naive. My sibling has told me they will disown me as their sibling. My mother has told me that I can, but that she won't support and help me on my journey. It's something I've thought to myself.

I've come out to my family regarding my feelings. It is only my sibling and my mother, my father I'm not very close to. If you've read my previous entries, I am not very outgoing and I am reserved like my family is. It stems from my mother.

I love my family dearly, but I want to know what it's like to live. Which is the reason why I made this account to express myself and put myself out there. I don't exactly know what else to add to an introduction, but this will be it for the time being.

Self-reservation hurts, and making friends are difficult. To loop things around to what I described, this account is to learn out of my comfort zone. To learn what it's like to socialize, and that it isn't so bad as how my family always made it out to be.

I'm somebody who comes from a fully Spanish family, migrated to the United States. A family that is reserved, where our relatives are our enemies. My interactions with others have been negative, supported by a family who has a strong distrust for people. I was raised to be self-reserved, and I am.