#storytime #curse #mylife #familytime #relishthemoment

I feel like something's always watching me, waiting to strike, it's waiting for me to enjoy a moment just to take it away from me so I can accompany this relish with a bad one, just to keep it balanced of course.

Because that's what the world needs, and that's what I, as human, cannot avoid.

2.- "After something good, there's always something bad."

I hate this one.

I wish I could just enjoy the moment I live with those who I cherish but I can't, because I know something is going to happen, something ALWAYS happens when I'm finally happy for a single f*cking minute.

-But if I were to tell you the amount of times I've gotten sick before an exciting event, or how many times they've been cancelled, or postponed, or simply forgotten then you'd be reading this page forever and forever and that's without mentioning the more niche parts.

-That I've got a bad karma I have to pay before I can actually enjoy my life, not only that but that I live with a curse, 2, to be more specific.

1.- "Something bad always happens whenever something I'm happy for is about to happen."

This could also just be bad planning only my part obviously-

-they always say that god takes the prettiest flowers first as a symbolism for death taking the best people first.

So at the end of the day I'll be the first one to go before they do and I'll finally win an already losing battle.

I'm scared, I'm scared to grow up more if it means this is what's going to happen every year, I can't do this anymore.

I'm not ready to grow up, please I beg you to take me back to those moments. I'd rather get bullied everyday if it means being able to stay with her in the same bed since we couldn't afford another, if it means cooking with her and messing up just for her to help me clean up.

I'm still stuck in the memory of my mother trying to read me a book and me correcting her since she never learned how to read but she gave me the chance to learn how to, she taught me how to draw, how to read, how to write how to do everything I know how to do but for some reason I'm still there.

Again, I'm so tired I've gotten nothing but bad news ever since I've turned 18, it feels like the world heard me say that I was scared of growing up and decided to give me the cruelest joke of my life by doing this to me and making my nightmares come true, I'm so scared, I haven't grown up

She's such a bipolar person, I just wished she got help.

I'm going to try and ask for my headphones so I can go, and if that doesn't happen then I'm fighting to stay in home cause I'm not going without them.

I'm going to talk to my dad, I'm going to tell him that I don't want to take care of those dogs anymore cause at least HE would understand me (he doesn't like them either) the only reason why I've taken care of them is because my mom forced me and because I feel bad for them.

I've given massages, I've been literally a parents dream child but she's pulling my ear and slapping me to get some food for her damm dogs.. It's not fair, I NEVER asked to take care of those dogs, they even killed my cats and now she's forcing me to give them from our money to their mouths..

Dog food, cause they're some picky little **sholes, AND they don't even belong to us, they're street dogs! And here she is literally taking my phone and my headphones away because I'm disobeying her.. And I don't mean to toot my own horn but I've been amazing this whole week, I've cleaned,

And it's not fair, I was having a good time playing on my computer, finally taking a moment to not stress about tomorrow and she comes and ruins it by forcing me to and get some chiken for the dogs that live outside-

How is that fair? Over some dogs too cause apparently they don't want to eat-