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Alexzersz
@unnoticedcloundsn.bsky.social
18/M
For a moment I stopped posting here because for a moment life was good...

I enjoyed that moment, it was peaceful, it was something I had never expected to go through because I believe I don't deserve to be happy in a way-
December 30, 2025 at 7:52 PM
The world isn't ready for me, as I am not ready for it as well yet it laughs in my face and I recoil with fear why is my life unfair?

I always watch the people who have always hurt me the most have to go through what I wish I could be living-
December 30, 2025 at 7:42 PM
And when your skin starts to wrinkle, when your too weak to reach for the pill bottle, when you can't stand up anymore, when there's no more black in your hair and when you feel death crawling behind you.

Don't call me, because I'll be busy taking care of those who really cared for me.
October 17, 2025 at 9:23 PM
I can't do this anymore, I'm finally 18, why does it hurt so much though? On the day of the birthday my grandpa died so it was also his anniversary, I didn't even get anything special on my birthday because my father is a greedy f*ck, he's thrown us under the bus and now my mom has to look for a job
October 14, 2025 at 1:05 AM
Godd, How I hate when people are always in a bad mood because then I get in a bad mood.. worst part is when they figure me out and start lashing out on me, why is it so hard for people to control their emotions?

It's not difficult or something that should be practiced, just do it.
October 11, 2025 at 4:34 PM
October 11, 2025 at 4:24 PM
To summarize, my mother was hitting me, pulling me, threatening me, taking my stuff away and calling me names over some dogs.

Dogs that have killed my kittens.
I understand that not everyone has time to go and have a life, especially parent who now have to take care of their children, but my mother? She already has 3 grown children! And to fill that void in her heart she wants to take care of some DOGS!

She cares more about those dogs than for me!
September 22, 2025 at 12:03 AM
Reposted by Alexzersz
A few days before their first kiss, Nick and Charlie have a lot on their minds...
#heartsky
September 21, 2025 at 7:56 PM
I understand that not everyone has time to go and have a life, especially parent who now have to take care of their children, but my mother? She already has 3 grown children! And to fill that void in her heart she wants to take care of some DOGS!

She cares more about those dogs than for me!
September 21, 2025 at 11:54 PM
Does anyone have any LGBTQ+ literature recommendations?

I want to start reading again, novels, books, community created, anything works!

#reading #books #book #literature #bookbluesky #literaturecommunity #bookrecommendations #novels #AO3
#Wattpad #jesushowmanytagsarethereforthis
September 18, 2025 at 11:23 PM
I like my user handle, I think I did a pretty good job with the words. :-P
September 18, 2025 at 10:12 PM
As my last day here in the neighbouring town comes to an end I like to remember my days here, I'd like to think I had fun for what it lasted, not only that but I learned some really important lessons that I'll definitely remember throughout my days once I return to my home town.
September 18, 2025 at 12:57 AM
AND OVER A SOCCER GAME (???)
Just got woken up at 2 in the morning, Still hate drunk people.

#yay
September 16, 2025 at 8:33 AM
Just got woken up at 2 in the morning, Still hate drunk people.

#yay
September 16, 2025 at 8:30 AM
Recently it was announced that Mitski would release a movie about her most recent album and I couldn't be more excited!!

I absolutely love her music and.. yes, I am listening to the album as I am typing this but it doesn't matter, it won't interrupt my thinking.. if anything, it helps!
September 16, 2025 at 3:31 AM
I've never felt so disappointed and disgusted in my life, but the emotion of disappointment has always been there when it comes to my mother, don't get me wrong, she's an amazing person truly but I can't help but feel betrayed.
September 16, 2025 at 2:17 AM
I hate the people that surrounds me, they always act like they know better, but how can you know what's the best for me when you haven't even sold your own problems, you act like you know what to do, how to act, how to talk but everyday you show me that your as weak as me, dare I say even more-
September 14, 2025 at 12:31 AM
I've always wanted to be someone in life, but I'm only 17, I'm still so young yet I still feel like I have this feeling of impending doom, that something bad is going to happen to me and that I'll never be able to know how it feels to stand at the tallest point of the earth-
September 13, 2025 at 5:52 PM
Reposted by Alexzersz
Moar sunflowers. Bonus frendo. :)
#photography #phonepic #bloomscrolling
September 13, 2025 at 2:26 AM
I want to be loved,

but I am loved, my mother loves me, and that's all the love one needs, right? But what if I want more! I want to fall asleep in the arms of someone, I want them to hug me while they tell me "everything will be fine" and maybe a kiss, or not. :-P
September 13, 2025 at 1:55 AM
Friendship is a hard concept for me to grasp, I've always wanted to have one of those friendships that you see in the movies, I want to have a friend who knows how to drive a car alongside a loud friend group and I want to peek out the window and feel the wind on my face as a bright city passes by-
September 13, 2025 at 1:34 AM
I feel so bad for my friends, it's what I'd normally say if it weren't for the fact that they are the worst type of people you'd meet in real life, for one, one of them literally stinks the whole time, it's like they've never heard of deodorant! It's not like he has an excuse for starters-
September 13, 2025 at 1:25 AM