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@ubluh.bsky.social
I suffer from depression, trauma, and a bunch of other things and sometimes I just want to scream. I'm forced to witness this train wreck from the front seat but at least you can blame curiosity.
Give a second to your own thoughts and the endless self hate I doubt any therapy can fix just pours out.
September 12, 2025 at 3:25 AM
Give a second to your own thoughts and the endless self hate I doubt any therapy can fix just pours out.
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I dislike people describing what they find visually sexy because I know it will never be me. Catching stray bullets from a convo I'm not even part of urrghh
August 17, 2025 at 6:35 PM
I dislike people describing what they find visually sexy because I know it will never be me. Catching stray bullets from a convo I'm not even part of urrghh
There's something hurtfully sad to be able to give advice on what to say because you've rehearsed it in your mind so many times, but just know realistically it will never be relevant to you.
July 13, 2025 at 9:01 PM
There's something hurtfully sad to be able to give advice on what to say because you've rehearsed it in your mind so many times, but just know realistically it will never be relevant to you.
In a way it's relieving have someone confirm that you were said some fucked up stuff by your parent as a teen and it's not right, but at the same time it leaves me ruminating further about what if that fucked up stuff wasn't said to me
June 30, 2025 at 12:23 PM
In a way it's relieving have someone confirm that you were said some fucked up stuff by your parent as a teen and it's not right, but at the same time it leaves me ruminating further about what if that fucked up stuff wasn't said to me
Or equally normal to wish to attain a terminal illness, at least then I'd have a day to look forward to
June 28, 2025 at 1:41 AM
Or equally normal to wish to attain a terminal illness, at least then I'd have a day to look forward to
It's probably normal and in fact incredibly sexy to wish that I hurt more to be honest
June 28, 2025 at 1:38 AM
It's probably normal and in fact incredibly sexy to wish that I hurt more to be honest
My self disgust is so off the roof lately ughhhh
June 20, 2025 at 12:50 AM
My self disgust is so off the roof lately ughhhh
Not being born conventionally attractive sucks in many, many ways, but doubly so that people expect you to have the life experience of a conventionally attractive woman regardless.
June 20, 2025 at 12:48 AM
Not being born conventionally attractive sucks in many, many ways, but doubly so that people expect you to have the life experience of a conventionally attractive woman regardless.
I'm starting to understand why it hurts to see my sisters travel with my parents. It's not necessarily that I'd want to join them, it's more that when my dad was traveling, he would say he'd take me next time and then never did. It's the difference of being wanted.
June 4, 2025 at 1:05 AM
I'm starting to understand why it hurts to see my sisters travel with my parents. It's not necessarily that I'd want to join them, it's more that when my dad was traveling, he would say he'd take me next time and then never did. It's the difference of being wanted.
"I don't want to be responsible of you" while semi understandable and probably said without much behind it, hurts so fucking much even after all these years.
May 29, 2025 at 12:43 PM
"I don't want to be responsible of you" while semi understandable and probably said without much behind it, hurts so fucking much even after all these years.
It hurts more than I expected to be in a car with two sisters and their boyfriends, I feel like such a cautionary tale, an ugly failure
May 9, 2025 at 12:46 PM
It hurts more than I expected to be in a car with two sisters and their boyfriends, I feel like such a cautionary tale, an ugly failure
I'm like certain few hours ago I had more concrete thoughts about what started this but all that remains is the sorrow
April 18, 2025 at 5:01 AM
I'm like certain few hours ago I had more concrete thoughts about what started this but all that remains is the sorrow
I'm stressed and hopeless, watching people in worse situations than I am and unable to even help them.
Tomorrow is another day for me to wish I don't wake to see it.
Tomorrow is another day for me to wish I don't wake to see it.
April 18, 2025 at 5:00 AM
I'm stressed and hopeless, watching people in worse situations than I am and unable to even help them.
Tomorrow is another day for me to wish I don't wake to see it.
Tomorrow is another day for me to wish I don't wake to see it.
I don't think there's anything I can provide to be worth of anything but pity at best. A rotten corpse stuck in an iron maiden, growing poisonous mushrooms no one can eat.
April 18, 2025 at 4:58 AM
I don't think there's anything I can provide to be worth of anything but pity at best. A rotten corpse stuck in an iron maiden, growing poisonous mushrooms no one can eat.
It's not like not getting the love and warmth I desire hurts, it hurts that to begin with I don't believe I deserve it, not now or likely ever.
April 18, 2025 at 4:54 AM
It's not like not getting the love and warmth I desire hurts, it hurts that to begin with I don't believe I deserve it, not now or likely ever.
In a way I feel like I'm rotting from the inside, leaving just a cold void behind
March 21, 2025 at 12:49 PM
In a way I feel like I'm rotting from the inside, leaving just a cold void behind
Sometimes the only thing keeping you from suicide is "fuck I gotta dress up and at least do it in front of a government building" and if that gets you to the next day, so be it.
February 27, 2025 at 7:58 AM
Sometimes the only thing keeping you from suicide is "fuck I gotta dress up and at least do it in front of a government building" and if that gets you to the next day, so be it.
Rationally I know that in part I'm feeling extremely shitty cause I've not slept, but at the same time I do feel like the walls of society are collapsing on me. Seeing other people struggle just makes me feel more hopeless. And EVERYONE is struggling, except the billionaires.
February 27, 2025 at 7:55 AM
Rationally I know that in part I'm feeling extremely shitty cause I've not slept, but at the same time I do feel like the walls of society are collapsing on me. Seeing other people struggle just makes me feel more hopeless. And EVERYONE is struggling, except the billionaires.
I don't want to sleep I don't want time to pass I want to stay in the lull of the void and if I could just decide to have a full blown eating disorder I'd love to not even give a single thought to food I just don't fucking care I'm so fucking SPENT.
February 27, 2025 at 7:47 AM
I don't want to sleep I don't want time to pass I want to stay in the lull of the void and if I could just decide to have a full blown eating disorder I'd love to not even give a single thought to food I just don't fucking care I'm so fucking SPENT.
At this point I feel that my hatred towards the taste of alcohol is the only thing keeping me away from becoming an alcoholic. Like, I feel I've tried and cared so much I'm having debt on my debt of shits to give
February 27, 2025 at 7:44 AM
At this point I feel that my hatred towards the taste of alcohol is the only thing keeping me away from becoming an alcoholic. Like, I feel I've tried and cared so much I'm having debt on my debt of shits to give
I'll never be able to prove that my mom smoking during pregnancy and my childhood (when the side effects were less known so I would just sit on her lap) caused me to have asthma which was then made million times worse by covid but, man. Breathing.
February 25, 2025 at 5:04 AM
I'll never be able to prove that my mom smoking during pregnancy and my childhood (when the side effects were less known so I would just sit on her lap) caused me to have asthma which was then made million times worse by covid but, man. Breathing.
It's wild to me that people apply things to themselves to be... prettier? Whenever I think about jewelry or tattoos on myself I keep thinking how my ugliness just overshadows them and makes them look out of place and unfitting and uglier
February 13, 2025 at 3:19 AM
It's wild to me that people apply things to themselves to be... prettier? Whenever I think about jewelry or tattoos on myself I keep thinking how my ugliness just overshadows them and makes them look out of place and unfitting and uglier
My guilty pleasure are Reddit stories but the amount of stories involving men cheating or laughing about their gfs/wives behind their backs is not doing wonders for my mistrust of men
February 9, 2025 at 6:03 AM
My guilty pleasure are Reddit stories but the amount of stories involving men cheating or laughing about their gfs/wives behind their backs is not doing wonders for my mistrust of men
The grand irony of not getting a therapist (if I had the money for the government funded) unless I'm a threat to myself is that if I ever get to that point again there will be no need for one. Which I guess saves them money in the long run, or something, because of who cares right.
January 17, 2025 at 4:34 AM
The grand irony of not getting a therapist (if I had the money for the government funded) unless I'm a threat to myself is that if I ever get to that point again there will be no need for one. Which I guess saves them money in the long run, or something, because of who cares right.