Never kill yourself.

I'm so fucking hyped baby holy shit.

Wait, this file I got has Marsters in it WTF they got him back????

wats sable

I should clarify I was not taking mushrooms as a teen, my brain just did all that on its own :)

I should say that it was actually very intense for me, it's just that I've been experiencing dissociation and derealization AND all the visual disturbances associated with HPPD since I was a teen, so the uptick in visual disturbances didn't really register for me for ages lol.

Yeah! It's not just psilocybin. It can happen with almost any psychoactive substance. Mushrooms are speculated at like 5-10% chance tho, it's a very big risk.

I think psilocybin does *something* to throw that out of whack. I can't speculate as to what, but it's as if your brain has to start again on a new filter for every latent visual disturbance you experience. This only happens to some people tho.

I think visual snow, floaters, tracers, ect happens to every single person, it's just that some people's brains can filter it out better than others.

All completely uncontrollable background filters.

I've also experienced HPPD once before tho so I can verify the reality of it, and personally it did not really effect me as much as it does a lot of other people.

It effects some people very hard though, and for this reason I cannot recommend anyone take psilocybin.

Personally I feel like the risk is worth it for the long lasting anti-depressive effects psilocybin has (ranges from weeks to years off a single dose).

Psilocybin is actively fucking with your neurological pathways in unpredictable ways. It both kills and regrows brain cells. It's not a benign substances that just passes through you, it actively changes you.

I won't do it tho.

I never recommend mushrooms for anyone, but I see so much of myself in those spirals so I just wanna say "take mushrooms" at her lol.

I need a 6 episode HBO special of Lube Man also.