one of them has a drawing of a tiger or maybe a cat or dog or a bird I can’t tell but that. One always is the second from the bottom because of the Protection

Without the Books I Cannot See

caterpillar named Henrietta

trans girl named Violet and her enby partner Bud

~the beginnings to a song I wrote about lacking the capacity to be a supportive partner to someone while also resisting the idea of articulating that to myself & to them out of some sort of egoic sense of duty.~

the Truth will be revealed
And all the envelopes sealed
the feelings will be felt
as we reinvent the wheel
and the Orange will be peeled
once I stop and take a knee
once I stop and make a plan
Once I stop so I can breathe
(I love you!)

down in your bed
when there’s so much in my head
and on my mind — I say I’m fine
but we both know that I am
Falling behind!
I’ll catch back up
I always do
But what will that mean for you?
I think that maybe I blew it
Unless you beat me to it!

I tried!
to swallow my pride,
but my throat is dry
I need to find one of those
sodas that we used to buy
for too much money, from the
place that sells the local honey
these times are tough,
I should’ve known
I can’t afford to lie/lay