😖 sometimes I still feel like that kid that sits at the lunch table and afterwards the other kids get up and head somewhere else

You’re not punk or leftist if you think someone loses value or credibility by not having a job

I’m sorry that valuing accessibility even amongst a capitalistic society is just a show to you

The leftism leaving someone’s body when it’s really time to stick it to em

Was wrong.

When you double down on the behavior, you’re now using psychosis as an excuse and I can’t abide by that.

You can’t just “I’m going to push you around because I’m having a psychotic episode” and then pull the

“They’re holding what I did during a psychotic episode against me!” schtick if you never actually acknowledge the behavior as inappropriate

It would be one thing if you understood what you did

That’s just not how it works!

Have I treated others poorly during a psychotic episode? Yes. But it then became my responsibility to apologize and recognize my behavior as irrational.

Like I’m not going to get into it but last fall/winter was very bad for me in that regard

I wish things were as easy as being told precisely what I need to do to be the best I can be — and to reduce pain as much as possible.

The trial and error aspect of interacting with others is exhausting and painful

I don’t want to upset anyone — and I don’t want to be upset etc

I’m sorry Chicken, we recently lost Olive the same way :( it never feels fair

Could it possibly be that I was around a toxic community that thrives over pettiness and drama? Nooo never

darpers will never change

I’m so so sorry, Lulzy — I will keep you and your family in my thoughts 🫂

I don’t like feeling like I’m in this cloudy fugue but I don’t know how to poke out

URGGHH I hate it SO much!!!

the uwuification of neurodivergence has done so much damage in general — but also like TO ME!!!

I’m not “neurospicy” I’m disabled and oftentimes the symptoms are NOT cute or quirky! They cause problems for me and the people I care about!!

Good luck Chicken 😣 may circumstances be kind

Lulzy, hold my hand

Context: I got ejected from a friend server because one person asked for me to be kicked. They didn’t tell me anything they just Kicked me. I ask why, they lie and say they were just kicking inactive folks. I ask to come back, they tell the truth(?) and get made at me when I say im hurt