Cosmic Ant-onio45 🌠☃️
@the-voyager45.bsky.social
(21) Hello, lonely artist and aspiring writer and musician. Hoping to share my art and make some friends. Have a good day :) 🇺🇸🇲🇽🇵🇷🌠🎶
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Ngl I don't feel like uploading on here as much anymore, I already stopped uploading on Twitter which I spent years on for the same reasons, feels like I'm just on Twitter except even lonelier here. I mean I won't stop but it's not a priority I guess.
Here's the wip from the art I've been talking about that I haven't finished, this is the result of me slowly adding a few things everyday in the past week lol. Working on my newer art style and a new design for Tsuki that mixes some of her other versions based on the yt poll results and such
January 10, 2026 at 5:50 PM
Here's the wip from the art I've been talking about that I haven't finished, this is the result of me slowly adding a few things everyday in the past week lol. Working on my newer art style and a new design for Tsuki that mixes some of her other versions based on the yt poll results and such
The artist in me finally awoke, stay safe my friends. Stay strong and please keep drawing and sharing your art no matter what. Every piece you share makes the world a little bit better. 🌠❤️🩹
#art #artist #digitalart
#art #artist #digitalart
January 10, 2026 at 9:02 AM
The artist in me finally awoke, stay safe my friends. Stay strong and please keep drawing and sharing your art no matter what. Every piece you share makes the world a little bit better. 🌠❤️🩹
#art #artist #digitalart
#art #artist #digitalart
I'm really going through it right now
January 10, 2026 at 8:07 AM
I'm really going through it right now
Reposted by Cosmic Ant-onio45 🌠☃️
#マリンのお宝 #art
For those who press like and retweet my art I’m drawing you anything you like. Comment below.
私の作品にいいねとリツイートしてくれた方にご希望のイラストを描きますコメントで教えてください.
이 그림을 공유 맘찍 해주신분들에게 원하시는거 그려드립니다. 댓글로 써주세요.
#kronillust
For those who press like and retweet my art I’m drawing you anything you like. Comment below.
私の作品にいいねとリツイートしてくれた方にご希望のイラストを描きますコメントで教えてください.
이 그림을 공유 맘찍 해주신분들에게 원하시는거 그려드립니다. 댓글로 써주세요.
#kronillust
January 2, 2026 at 9:35 AM
#マリンのお宝 #art
For those who press like and retweet my art I’m drawing you anything you like. Comment below.
私の作品にいいねとリツイートしてくれた方にご希望のイラストを描きますコメントで教えてください.
이 그림을 공유 맘찍 해주신분들에게 원하시는거 그려드립니다. 댓글로 써주세요.
#kronillust
For those who press like and retweet my art I’m drawing you anything you like. Comment below.
私の作品にいいねとリツイートしてくれた方にご希望のイラストを描きますコメントで教えてください.
이 그림을 공유 맘찍 해주신분들에게 원하시는거 그려드립니다. 댓글로 써주세요.
#kronillust
Fuck I made the mistake of looking in another artists comments again
January 10, 2026 at 2:52 AM
Fuck I made the mistake of looking in another artists comments again
I hate being so sensitive man because I'm crying again
January 10, 2026 at 2:50 AM
I hate being so sensitive man because I'm crying again
It's night now and the deep extreme feeling of loneliness and sadness comes in again. I wish it would end
January 10, 2026 at 2:11 AM
It's night now and the deep extreme feeling of loneliness and sadness comes in again. I wish it would end
Really bad thoughts again I guess I should say it's very fortunate that I've been way too weak and tired to actually do something to myself. Man I just want something to eat my arms are getting thinner
January 7, 2026 at 4:54 AM
Really bad thoughts again I guess I should say it's very fortunate that I've been way too weak and tired to actually do something to myself. Man I just want something to eat my arms are getting thinner
All of my socials are as good as gone man. I was remembering Halloween and everything that happened with Kit-Tsuki. It all leaves a sour taste in my mouth but I also feel a bit of Nostalgia already. It was what I most looked forward too the entire year, the lead up to Halloween was so slow for me
January 7, 2026 at 4:31 AM
All of my socials are as good as gone man. I was remembering Halloween and everything that happened with Kit-Tsuki. It all leaves a sour taste in my mouth but I also feel a bit of Nostalgia already. It was what I most looked forward too the entire year, the lead up to Halloween was so slow for me
I lost 1 sub, but on both my art channel and on my main old channel. Probably the same person? I haven't gotten any subscribers since like 2019 on my old channel so that means it must have been someone who followed me a long time ago and I guess also subbed to my art channel more recently.
January 6, 2026 at 7:03 PM
I lost 1 sub, but on both my art channel and on my main old channel. Probably the same person? I haven't gotten any subscribers since like 2019 on my old channel so that means it must have been someone who followed me a long time ago and I guess also subbed to my art channel more recently.
Of course the final drawing for now showing my giving up and leaving behind the Voyager helmet is the one that suddenly gets so many likes and views 💀
January 5, 2026 at 10:40 PM
Of course the final drawing for now showing my giving up and leaving behind the Voyager helmet is the one that suddenly gets so many likes and views 💀
made sure to finish this right now, these were some of the things that were going to be shown in the animation I wanted to finish and release on New Years, atleast this gives you a little idea where I am at and how my ocs like Tsuki are doing as we leave them and move on to 2026
#art #artist
#art #artist
January 5, 2026 at 9:46 AM
January 5, 2026 at 8:24 AM
I ended up crying and ranting to my brother about how much of a fuck up I am and how useless I am still trying to use my art for something useful and I just keep failing over and over again no matter what I do
January 5, 2026 at 7:15 AM
I ended up crying and ranting to my brother about how much of a fuck up I am and how useless I am still trying to use my art for something useful and I just keep failing over and over again no matter what I do
Ok I really really need to stop or else I'll spend hours going through my posts and crying, I really don't want to but I'm feeling like I should just uninstall TikTok and Twitter, and go to my main yt account and log out of my art one.
Going through my lonely posts again, new people don't react to my dream art because I still can't get over how hard it flopped. A few art ideas got ignored. I think it's safe to say yeah I'm done for now
a dog sitting on a beach looking out over the ocean
ALT: a dog sitting on a beach looking out over the ocean
media.tenor.com
January 4, 2026 at 8:01 PM
Ok I really really need to stop or else I'll spend hours going through my posts and crying, I really don't want to but I'm feeling like I should just uninstall TikTok and Twitter, and go to my main yt account and log out of my art one.
Going through my lonely posts again, new people don't react to my dream art because I still can't get over how hard it flopped. A few art ideas got ignored. I think it's safe to say yeah I'm done for now
a dog sitting on a beach looking out over the ocean
ALT: a dog sitting on a beach looking out over the ocean
media.tenor.com
January 4, 2026 at 7:46 PM
Going through my lonely posts again, new people don't react to my dream art because I still can't get over how hard it flopped. A few art ideas got ignored. I think it's safe to say yeah I'm done for now
Reposted by Cosmic Ant-onio45 🌠☃️
I think it's kinda funny when people get mad at artists that destroy their own work and say "I would have taken those pages" but those same people would never actually pay the artist for the pages if they weren't destroying them.
January 3, 2026 at 8:25 PM
I think it's kinda funny when people get mad at artists that destroy their own work and say "I would have taken those pages" but those same people would never actually pay the artist for the pages if they weren't destroying them.
3 pm right now and boom I remember last night and yesterday and once again the suicidal thoughts are back and so strong, this is going to be an incredibly tough several weeks to try to get through
January 3, 2026 at 11:06 PM
3 pm right now and boom I remember last night and yesterday and once again the suicidal thoughts are back and so strong, this is going to be an incredibly tough several weeks to try to get through
A kind person ended up dming me and talking with me for a bit, they were the only one to wish me a happy new years and they sent me this little digital letter with a very kind little message. They told me they were at a loss for words and didn't know what to say which has happened a few times
Ended up bursting into tears again I really wish I had someone to talk to about this, I mean someone that genuinely understands how I feel about all of this art stuff. There's a few I trust but but idk I don't trust them enough I guess, I feel like such an annoying burden.
January 3, 2026 at 5:50 AM
A kind person ended up dming me and talking with me for a bit, they were the only one to wish me a happy new years and they sent me this little digital letter with a very kind little message. They told me they were at a loss for words and didn't know what to say which has happened a few times
Ended up bursting into tears again I really wish I had someone to talk to about this, I mean someone that genuinely understands how I feel about all of this art stuff. There's a few I trust but but idk I don't trust them enough I guess, I feel like such an annoying burden.
January 3, 2026 at 4:41 AM
Ended up bursting into tears again I really wish I had someone to talk to about this, I mean someone that genuinely understands how I feel about all of this art stuff. There's a few I trust but but idk I don't trust them enough I guess, I feel like such an annoying burden.
I spend so much time watching animations and short films about people and their love stories or stories with their friends in school and stuff, damn man I wished for that every day growing up. I am 21 now and I'm still super fucking lonely and it's making me want to kill myself 😭
January 3, 2026 at 3:23 AM
I spend so much time watching animations and short films about people and their love stories or stories with their friends in school and stuff, damn man I wished for that every day growing up. I am 21 now and I'm still super fucking lonely and it's making me want to kill myself 😭
Almost 5 years ago now when I first opened my commissions and started promoting them on Twitter I believe, I got this comment that would stick with me even up until now. This is one of several comments they made really flaming me because I thought my art was worth something.
January 3, 2026 at 2:01 AM
Almost 5 years ago now when I first opened my commissions and started promoting them on Twitter I believe, I got this comment that would stick with me even up until now. This is one of several comments they made really flaming me because I thought my art was worth something.
My bathroom is a bit dark with light coming from a little window and that really makes my eye bags stand out, I almost scared myself looking in the mirror it almost looks like I'm wearing a raccoon mask or something lol. I'd show if I didn't hate my face so much
January 2, 2026 at 10:56 PM
My bathroom is a bit dark with light coming from a little window and that really makes my eye bags stand out, I almost scared myself looking in the mirror it almost looks like I'm wearing a raccoon mask or something lol. I'd show if I didn't hate my face so much
Reposted by Cosmic Ant-onio45 🌠☃️
Also I'm sorry if I sound a bit agitated, I've barely eaten at all since Christmas eve, that commission that never went anywhere would have really been useful right now. I don't want to ask for support again, and I don't want to beg for commissions again either, idk what to do I really need money
January 2, 2026 at 9:05 PM
Also I'm sorry if I sound a bit agitated, I've barely eaten at all since Christmas eve, that commission that never went anywhere would have really been useful right now. I don't want to ask for support again, and I don't want to beg for commissions again either, idk what to do I really need money