... Although I'd much rather play than TO still.

I dunno, maybe im just thinking too hard about this stuff. Anyway if you made it through all of this, thanks for reading. i dunno if its going to help you, but i feel like i need to spread my mind about things SOMEWHERE and this felt like the best place for me to release.

(7/7)

finally #4 (which i just thought of). is any of this going to affect the way that I TO or help the YEG community going forward? it's just, i want the community to grow and i dont want to hinder anything in whatever way i do and im always paranoid about that, especially if its on me.

(6/7)

...but it makes it super hard to get into the groove of your teammates and what they actually need for the team to be successful. I hope that this changes with the times and people just not looking for positions, but also comps.

(5/?)

3. i wonder if because its hard for me to perfectly describe how i play my Support/Slayer role in teams if that limits the type of teammate i am outside of soloq. now im not saying that i can't adapt... (4/?)

2. I want to start making content again (whether that be Twitch streams or going back to the old Supermustang9 stuff, which tends to be more Christian-Life-outside-of-gaming focused.) but i feel like because of me being a not-that-great of making friends person im at a bit of a disadvantage. (3/?)

(cont.) the grind is real and playing with a crew actually helps you get the team mentality, i of course limit myself by not playing SendouQ (honestly, its because of another point im going to make later) and that hurts me in the fact i cant build a stable report to get my name out there. (2/?)

anyone who happens to come across this