I want to escape it, but I will not, I fear
February 4, 2026 at 6:51 AM
I want to escape it, but I will not, I fear
I'm really going to ruin my life for this, aren't I?
February 4, 2026 at 6:48 AM
I'm really going to ruin my life for this, aren't I?
It's strange, because when I was a child, I wanted to die every day. I'm free as a bird and yet unhappy, but I've never wanted to live so much.
February 4, 2026 at 6:40 AM
It's strange, because when I was a child, I wanted to die every day. I'm free as a bird and yet unhappy, but I've never wanted to live so much.
I don't want to die, despite the pain. This evil thing inside me (perhaps it's just me, after all) also makes me want to live. I enjoy every moment of life, even when I feel like I'm bleeding to death.
February 4, 2026 at 6:38 AM
I don't want to die, despite the pain. This evil thing inside me (perhaps it's just me, after all) also makes me want to live. I enjoy every moment of life, even when I feel like I'm bleeding to death.
Is it fear? I don't know. It's an unpleasant feeling, a knot in my stomach that tightens my chest every time I think about the future, about how things are unfolding. I don't see anything good. Dread, maybe. Fear is more intense. I'm tired of feeling bad all the time. There's no way out.
February 4, 2026 at 6:26 AM
Is it fear? I don't know. It's an unpleasant feeling, a knot in my stomach that tightens my chest every time I think about the future, about how things are unfolding. I don't see anything good. Dread, maybe. Fear is more intense. I'm tired of feeling bad all the time. There's no way out.
I don't feel sadness about my current situation. More like disappointment, at the thought that my life is and will remain this way. I wish I were wrong. Perhaps then I wouldn't be so afraid of the future. But those who oppose me are afraid too. So, maybe I would be afraid no matter what.
February 4, 2026 at 6:20 AM
I don't feel sadness about my current situation. More like disappointment, at the thought that my life is and will remain this way. I wish I were wrong. Perhaps then I wouldn't be so afraid of the future. But those who oppose me are afraid too. So, maybe I would be afraid no matter what.
I think the idea that it has no creator and no ownership to be the most compelling but then it's not Woke
February 2, 2026 at 8:20 PM
I think the idea that it has no creator and no ownership to be the most compelling but then it's not Woke
no, I said *if anyone* has an argument for creating satanism it is lavey. there are no other figures who you can argue *could be considered* the creator. the other option is that there is no one category of "satanism" and so generalizing is useless.
February 2, 2026 at 8:11 PM
no, I said *if anyone* has an argument for creating satanism it is lavey. there are no other figures who you can argue *could be considered* the creator. the other option is that there is no one category of "satanism" and so generalizing is useless.
but then there is no point in generalizing about satanism being either left or right-wing
February 2, 2026 at 8:08 PM
but then there is no point in generalizing about satanism being either left or right-wing
christians are generally stupid so no use arguing with them either way lol
February 2, 2026 at 8:07 PM
christians are generally stupid so no use arguing with them either way lol
then who is the creator of this Woke Satanism? what are its tenets, that you mentioned, if it is not the tenets of the TST?
and if lavey is not the creator then it has no creator and is not a logical grouping, which is a fair argument itself
and if lavey is not the creator then it has no creator and is not a logical grouping, which is a fair argument itself
February 2, 2026 at 8:07 PM
then who is the creator of this Woke Satanism? what are its tenets, that you mentioned, if it is not the tenets of the TST?
and if lavey is not the creator then it has no creator and is not a logical grouping, which is a fair argument itself
and if lavey is not the creator then it has no creator and is not a logical grouping, which is a fair argument itself
again, I am well aware of the TST, but the person I am responding to said this was not about the TST. what other Woke Satanism is there
February 2, 2026 at 8:05 PM
again, I am well aware of the TST, but the person I am responding to said this was not about the TST. what other Woke Satanism is there
yes. But the person I was responding to said they were NOT talking about the TST, but satanism generically.
February 2, 2026 at 8:05 PM
yes. But the person I was responding to said they were NOT talking about the TST, but satanism generically.
I am genuinely curious what you could possibly be referring to.
February 2, 2026 at 5:56 PM
I am genuinely curious what you could possibly be referring to.
then what are the tenets of satanism that are woke? if anyone has an argument for creating satanism it is lavey, who was shamelessly fascist. satanism is if anything more fascist than it is left wing.
February 2, 2026 at 5:55 PM
then what are the tenets of satanism that are woke? if anyone has an argument for creating satanism it is lavey, who was shamelessly fascist. satanism is if anything more fascist than it is left wing.
what satanic tenets are 'woke'? the satanic temple was started in the 2010s and is not all that encompasses satanism.
February 2, 2026 at 9:26 AM
what satanic tenets are 'woke'? the satanic temple was started in the 2010s and is not all that encompasses satanism.
I envy those who can believe in things that don't cause them immense suffering.
February 1, 2026 at 10:09 AM
I envy those who can believe in things that don't cause them immense suffering.
So I don't know how to change without becoming a completely different person. Everyone is driven by desires. Most people yearn for life, love, happiness, of that sort. But if you're seeking something that contradicts that, it's difficult to reconcile that goal with the lifestyle of ordinary people.
February 1, 2026 at 9:38 AM
So I don't know how to change without becoming a completely different person. Everyone is driven by desires. Most people yearn for life, love, happiness, of that sort. But if you're seeking something that contradicts that, it's difficult to reconcile that goal with the lifestyle of ordinary people.
So, it goes beyond that. It's something else entirely. Even if I completely agreed with them on every point factually, I have very different priorities. I no longer care about what interests normal people.
February 1, 2026 at 8:52 AM
So, it goes beyond that. It's something else entirely. Even if I completely agreed with them on every point factually, I have very different priorities. I no longer care about what interests normal people.
And if you're so insistent on us requiring evidence acceptable in courts of law to determine anything about Myatt - you realize he was actually cross examined in court about the 1974 interview? So it is actually is probative evidence after all.
January 31, 2026 at 9:26 PM
And if you're so insistent on us requiring evidence acceptable in courts of law to determine anything about Myatt - you realize he was actually cross examined in court about the 1974 interview? So it is actually is probative evidence after all.