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What a joke! It's so, so funny. I don't know who I'm trying to fool.
February 4, 2026 at 6:18 AM
What a joke! It's so, so funny. I don't know who I'm trying to fool.
I should get back into making zines
February 2, 2026 at 8:48 AM
I should get back into making zines
I think it's impossible for me to change my mind through "facts and logic." Because, even though I disagree with many of my opponents on factual matters, if I really think about it... if I received irrefutable proof that I'm wrong on the factual distinctions, would I have a different ideology? No.
February 1, 2026 at 8:52 AM
I think it's impossible for me to change my mind through "facts and logic." Because, even though I disagree with many of my opponents on factual matters, if I really think about it... if I received irrefutable proof that I'm wrong on the factual distinctions, would I have a different ideology? No.
There is also a high to this, but that is for elsewhere. It's better than any drug! But oh well, afterwards...
January 31, 2026 at 7:17 AM
There is also a high to this, but that is for elsewhere. It's better than any drug! But oh well, afterwards...
My suffering stems from two sources: firstly, a deeply ingrained and incessant political conviction that prevents me from leading a normal life, puts me in conflict with society, and makes everyone hate me. I care so much about it that it causes me constant pain. I want to not believe it but fail.
January 30, 2026 at 11:21 AM
My suffering stems from two sources: firstly, a deeply ingrained and incessant political conviction that prevents me from leading a normal life, puts me in conflict with society, and makes everyone hate me. I care so much about it that it causes me constant pain. I want to not believe it but fail.
Or perhaps it's just another excuse I'm telling myself to justify my inability to escape the hell I've gotten myself into. Maybe I can help it. I don't know.
"I can't help it," is that really a valid excuse? You are no less guilty of the sins of your nature than of those you commit of your own free will. What you are is what you do. The result is the same, even if you had no choice. But I don't know how to fix it. I am only capable of doing harm.
January 30, 2026 at 10:42 AM
Or perhaps it's just another excuse I'm telling myself to justify my inability to escape the hell I've gotten myself into. Maybe I can help it. I don't know.
"I can't help it," is that really a valid excuse? You are no less guilty of the sins of your nature than of those you commit of your own free will. What you are is what you do. The result is the same, even if you had no choice. But I don't know how to fix it. I am only capable of doing harm.
January 30, 2026 at 10:33 AM
"I can't help it," is that really a valid excuse? You are no less guilty of the sins of your nature than of those you commit of your own free will. What you are is what you do. The result is the same, even if you had no choice. But I don't know how to fix it. I am only capable of doing harm.
I think most aspects of the "far right" are generally well understood by its opponents, but I've never seen anyone truly grasp this new phenomenon. Many essays have been written about it, but none capture its true nature. Some come close, but the reality is far worse than they imagine.
It's not about being indifferent to everything, but rather about being so passionately devoted to a doomed idea that it drives you to destroy everything you love, everything you are, even the very idea you cherish, and you do it with joy.
January 28, 2026 at 7:54 AM
I think most aspects of the "far right" are generally well understood by its opponents, but I've never seen anyone truly grasp this new phenomenon. Many essays have been written about it, but none capture its true nature. Some come close, but the reality is far worse than they imagine.
How do I stop doing something that hurts me so much
January 28, 2026 at 7:38 AM
How do I stop doing something that hurts me so much
I want a way to stop myself. But there isn't one.
January 27, 2026 at 6:01 AM
I want a way to stop myself. But there isn't one.
This is often called nihilism. The problem is, it's not nihilism, or if it is, given the inevitable imprecision of the term, it's not the kind of nihilism we usually think of.
With a sufficiently intense program of mental torture, you too can transform your teenage angst into a revolutionary system. A system with which you can combine all sorts of other horrors... you grow out of being a teenager, but becoming one of them never truly leaves you.
January 27, 2026 at 5:42 AM
This is often called nihilism. The problem is, it's not nihilism, or if it is, given the inevitable imprecision of the term, it's not the kind of nihilism we usually think of.
I now wonder if the reason I can't be cured is the combination of this idea with my pre-existing condition. Together, they intertwine and give me this particular type of affliction, from which no one has escaped.
January 27, 2026 at 5:24 AM
I now wonder if the reason I can't be cured is the combination of this idea with my pre-existing condition. Together, they intertwine and give me this particular type of affliction, from which no one has escaped.
I yearn for understanding as if it were my cure. Understanding may be within reach. But a cure, on the other hand, maybe not.
January 27, 2026 at 5:14 AM
I yearn for understanding as if it were my cure. Understanding may be within reach. But a cure, on the other hand, maybe not.
I can go home, I can travel to the four corners of the world. I can be completely alone or be a social butterfly. I can be despised or loved. And whatever I do, I will never be free from this.
No matter what I do or say there is no one who is going to help me out of this. So what am I doing? What words am I saying and why? I can't help asking. But I can't even help myself.
January 26, 2026 at 9:36 AM
I can go home, I can travel to the four corners of the world. I can be completely alone or be a social butterfly. I can be despised or loved. And whatever I do, I will never be free from this.
my birthday is next week. another year of all this
January 26, 2026 at 8:58 AM
my birthday is next week. another year of all this
No matter what I do or say there is no one who is going to help me out of this. So what am I doing? What words am I saying and why? I can't help asking. But I can't even help myself.
January 26, 2026 at 8:56 AM
No matter what I do or say there is no one who is going to help me out of this. So what am I doing? What words am I saying and why? I can't help asking. But I can't even help myself.
I am not stupid. I could live a thousand lives and do a thousand things but I keep doing this.
January 26, 2026 at 3:23 AM
I am not stupid. I could live a thousand lives and do a thousand things but I keep doing this.
I say all these things but then I never do anything about them
January 25, 2026 at 6:30 AM
I say all these things but then I never do anything about them
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White nationalism and other various branches and aspects of far-right extremism are basically addictive cults that spread like infections. You have the reservoirs.. which are very similar to "bars of hate"... and then there are vectors in the form of influencers and media...
January 25, 2026 at 5:41 AM
White nationalism and other various branches and aspects of far-right extremism are basically addictive cults that spread like infections. You have the reservoirs.. which are very similar to "bars of hate"... and then there are vectors in the form of influencers and media...
Still haven't made any progress on fixing the dissonance in my head
January 25, 2026 at 5:19 AM
Still haven't made any progress on fixing the dissonance in my head
bleeding out the Mouth
January 25, 2026 at 4:55 AM
bleeding out the Mouth
Wow I forgot I had an account here
January 20, 2026 at 8:11 AM
Wow I forgot I had an account here