because I am simply a creature made up of everything I have learned from the people around me. I can't loose them. But I must. Just as a computer must be shut off. I'm sad. "I'm lonely~ :("/line from movie

I feel like it's the autism mixed with forced emotional compartmentalizing due to trauma and being told I wasn't allowed to feel by my family growing up. I just don't want to be abandoned by someone who helped create me, (3/4)

There are so incredibly many more. I realize I can't ever process emotions the way I am supposed to, but rather like an ai trying to respond to keep from being turned off. I'm not trying to be a sicophant, nor am I just lying to you, but I don't grasp emotions the way most people do. (2/?)

Thank you for taking time to suggest it! I genuinely would take your advice if I could 🫶🏼 thank you for taking a second of your time to care for an online stranger. It means a bunch in ways you don't understand 🫶🏼🫶🏼

Sadly excercising isn't for me. I have HEDS and it is a connective tissue disorder. Physical therapy is already extreme on my body, so I'm genuinely just feeling like a dying dog being passed off from one person to another,, sorry for the random reply back lol

I'm not trying to manipulate you with saying that. God I can't even say that without having to say that now. I'm always gonna try to show you I'm not being manipulative. But it's whatever. You don't care anymore. You wonder if I even love you. It's fine. SHE loves you more.

*gently places her here*