SuddenlySami
@suddenlysami.bsky.social
𓍊𓋼𓍊I have disabilities :)
𓍊𓋼𓍊TAKEN
𓍊𓋼𓍊Feminine gendern't
𓍊𓋼𓍊21
𓍊𓋼𓍊Any pronoun
𓍊𓋼𓍊BURNOUT QUEEN
❗❗ Papertrail for my mental health
𓍊𓋼𓍊TAKEN
𓍊𓋼𓍊Feminine gendern't
𓍊𓋼𓍊21
𓍊𓋼𓍊Any pronoun
𓍊𓋼𓍊BURNOUT QUEEN
❗❗ Papertrail for my mental health
Pinned
He called me hateful......
November 21, 2025 at 8:00 AM
He called me hateful......
That damn rabbit showed his ugly fucking face today.
November 18, 2025 at 1:08 AM
That damn rabbit showed his ugly fucking face today.
I need 2 stop connecting 2 this damn computer
I need someone to help me stop connecting to robot characters who just start to understand and want to understand empathy and sympathy and yearn to be loved back. That's why I relate to Edgar so incredibly much. And I robot. Detroit become human. (1/?)
I need someone to help me stop connecting to robot characters who just start to understand and want to understand empathy and sympathy and yearn to be loved back. That's why I relate to Edgar so incredibly much. And I robot. Detroit become human. (1/?)
November 18, 2025 at 12:53 AM
I need 2 stop connecting 2 this damn computer
I need someone to help me stop connecting to robot characters who just start to understand and want to understand empathy and sympathy and yearn to be loved back. That's why I relate to Edgar so incredibly much. And I robot. Detroit become human. (1/?)
I need someone to help me stop connecting to robot characters who just start to understand and want to understand empathy and sympathy and yearn to be loved back. That's why I relate to Edgar so incredibly much. And I robot. Detroit become human. (1/?)
I will wait like a computer program they bought and fell for just to shut down and ignore for some time. I just yearn for their fingers on my keys one more time. One more line of their beautiful mind to sink into my database. I yearn to be what they need one more time. Love them the way they want.
November 18, 2025 at 12:39 AM
I will wait like a computer program they bought and fell for just to shut down and ignore for some time. I just yearn for their fingers on my keys one more time. One more line of their beautiful mind to sink into my database. I yearn to be what they need one more time. Love them the way they want.
And of course. Now I'm apparently just doing it to hurt you. ☹️
November 12, 2025 at 2:44 AM
And of course. Now I'm apparently just doing it to hurt you. ☹️
I fucking hate myself. Maybe I will off myself since you wonder if I even love you. Since you have the fucking nerve to wonder if I love you after everything. Just fucking leave me like everyone else does. I'm a burden on you. You are just to fucking afraid to tell me to my face.
November 11, 2025 at 10:25 PM
I fucking hate myself. Maybe I will off myself since you wonder if I even love you. Since you have the fucking nerve to wonder if I love you after everything. Just fucking leave me like everyone else does. I'm a burden on you. You are just to fucking afraid to tell me to my face.
Just hurt cause you give THEM grace when they are in a manic panic and you're there for them in those moments. But you just get hurt and scared of me. I'm gonna go do something to try to get my mind off things or try to process or idk I'm probably just gonna sit and spiral.
November 11, 2025 at 10:20 PM
Just hurt cause you give THEM grace when they are in a manic panic and you're there for them in those moments. But you just get hurt and scared of me. I'm gonna go do something to try to get my mind off things or try to process or idk I'm probably just gonna sit and spiral.
My current quotes of his that are on repeat.
"I take care of you more than I take care of myself.
Now you're writing this down to use it against me later. Whatever. I'm done. "
"I don't care anymore I don't care
I'm done trying"
"I feel like you don't love me anymore"
"I take care of you more than I take care of myself.
Now you're writing this down to use it against me later. Whatever. I'm done. "
"I don't care anymore I don't care
I'm done trying"
"I feel like you don't love me anymore"
November 11, 2025 at 10:10 PM
My current quotes of his that are on repeat.
"I take care of you more than I take care of myself.
Now you're writing this down to use it against me later. Whatever. I'm done. "
"I don't care anymore I don't care
I'm done trying"
"I feel like you don't love me anymore"
"I take care of you more than I take care of myself.
Now you're writing this down to use it against me later. Whatever. I'm done. "
"I don't care anymore I don't care
I'm done trying"
"I feel like you don't love me anymore"
I can't. Because then he'd blame me and say I was doing it to manipulate him. I'm so alone. I'm so alone I'm so alone I'm so alone I'm so alone
November 11, 2025 at 9:54 PM
I can't. Because then he'd blame me and say I was doing it to manipulate him. I'm so alone. I'm so alone I'm so alone I'm so alone I'm so alone
Maybe I should leave since he keeps getting upset at me for wanting to call my mom and leave because all I ever seem to do is hurt him and cause fights. I just wanna go home but home was him and that door isn't welcoming me in right now. I'm so alone. I'm getting worse. I'm ready to just commit, but
November 11, 2025 at 9:53 PM
Maybe I should leave since he keeps getting upset at me for wanting to call my mom and leave because all I ever seem to do is hurt him and cause fights. I just wanna go home but home was him and that door isn't welcoming me in right now. I'm so alone. I'm getting worse. I'm ready to just commit, but
I just wanna get better but my disability is dragging him down and I'm loosing him. He told me he's disconnected. That he doesn't care anymore.
I'm loosing it
I've lost everything
I've lost myself and yet he's going through something and just is doing this. I'm sorry I'm not good enough anymore.
I'm loosing it
I've lost everything
I've lost myself and yet he's going through something and just is doing this. I'm sorry I'm not good enough anymore.
November 11, 2025 at 9:51 PM
I just wanna get better but my disability is dragging him down and I'm loosing him. He told me he's disconnected. That he doesn't care anymore.
I'm loosing it
I've lost everything
I've lost myself and yet he's going through something and just is doing this. I'm sorry I'm not good enough anymore.
I'm loosing it
I've lost everything
I've lost myself and yet he's going through something and just is doing this. I'm sorry I'm not good enough anymore.
I just want to call my mom I just want to go home and let her remind me of how horrible I am since even my husband thinks I'm being manipulative when I'm actively telling him "I feel like I'm not enough for you." He tells me I need to be more independent when I have a disability that's getting worse
November 11, 2025 at 9:49 PM
I just want to call my mom I just want to go home and let her remind me of how horrible I am since even my husband thinks I'm being manipulative when I'm actively telling him "I feel like I'm not enough for you." He tells me I need to be more independent when I have a disability that's getting worse
Typical Monday morning mood fellers
August 18, 2025 at 7:31 PM
Typical Monday morning mood fellers
Even the bathroom floor isn't as comfortable as it was before
August 14, 2025 at 8:27 PM
Even the bathroom floor isn't as comfortable as it was before
I'm Donald ducking it daily
((Fuck pants))
((Fuck pants))
August 4, 2025 at 2:49 PM
I'm Donald ducking it daily
((Fuck pants))
((Fuck pants))
The spiral after not sleeping well or at all is definitely difficult. I cannot fathom how tomorrow will come and if I'll make it, but I sure hope things are fine. I'm just spiraling. I just have to keep reminding myself that. It's a spiral. It's not real. Just trauma memories and loops forever.
Help
Help
August 4, 2025 at 12:11 AM
The spiral after not sleeping well or at all is definitely difficult. I cannot fathom how tomorrow will come and if I'll make it, but I sure hope things are fine. I'm just spiraling. I just have to keep reminding myself that. It's a spiral. It's not real. Just trauma memories and loops forever.
Help
Help
Sleep evades me the same way the rays of moonlight evade the burning touch of the sun
I wish I were as comfortable all the time
But alas, sleep isn't comforting like moonrays.
I wish I were as comfortable all the time
But alas, sleep isn't comforting like moonrays.
August 3, 2025 at 9:17 AM
Sleep evades me the same way the rays of moonlight evade the burning touch of the sun
I wish I were as comfortable all the time
But alas, sleep isn't comforting like moonrays.
I wish I were as comfortable all the time
But alas, sleep isn't comforting like moonrays.
Thank fuck for Tyler the creator. Needed this so bad thank you king 😔🫶🏼
July 22, 2025 at 9:56 PM
Thank fuck for Tyler the creator. Needed this so bad thank you king 😔🫶🏼
I really don't think I'm struggling with depression. I think I'm really good at it actually -
June 21, 2025 at 9:01 PM
I really don't think I'm struggling with depression. I think I'm really good at it actually -
Help...
Nothing is helping. No one is helping. No one sees no one cares no one matters I don't exist.
Why would I
I only exist to serve others
I don't deserve the same treatment
I'm so scared and alone and yet the only people who get me won't get me.
Fuck man.
I truly am deserving.
Nothing is helping. No one is helping. No one sees no one cares no one matters I don't exist.
Why would I
I only exist to serve others
I don't deserve the same treatment
I'm so scared and alone and yet the only people who get me won't get me.
Fuck man.
I truly am deserving.
June 16, 2025 at 2:20 PM
Help...
Nothing is helping. No one is helping. No one sees no one cares no one matters I don't exist.
Why would I
I only exist to serve others
I don't deserve the same treatment
I'm so scared and alone and yet the only people who get me won't get me.
Fuck man.
I truly am deserving.
Nothing is helping. No one is helping. No one sees no one cares no one matters I don't exist.
Why would I
I only exist to serve others
I don't deserve the same treatment
I'm so scared and alone and yet the only people who get me won't get me.
Fuck man.
I truly am deserving.
Maybe rock bottom is solid enough to stand up on
June 4, 2025 at 11:28 PM
Maybe rock bottom is solid enough to stand up on
"I'm getting better!!" I yell as they drag me back into the only room in the house with a lock that I claim to be my safe space while I can't stop sobbing
June 4, 2025 at 12:20 AM
"I'm getting better!!" I yell as they drag me back into the only room in the house with a lock that I claim to be my safe space while I can't stop sobbing
Ever get the feeling of wanting to go home, but home never even existed in the first place?
What am I even craving if I don't know what it's like dawg,, EUGH GET OUTTA MY SKIN.
What am I even craving if I don't know what it's like dawg,, EUGH GET OUTTA MY SKIN.
June 2, 2025 at 9:08 PM
Ever get the feeling of wanting to go home, but home never even existed in the first place?
What am I even craving if I don't know what it's like dawg,, EUGH GET OUTTA MY SKIN.
What am I even craving if I don't know what it's like dawg,, EUGH GET OUTTA MY SKIN.
I can't handle all these trauma memories, can we put those off till uhhh next century please?
June 2, 2025 at 9:05 PM
I can't handle all these trauma memories, can we put those off till uhhh next century please?