I just want to be loved and cared for, just by one person in my life please

And even my online friends are becoming less and less available I feel like I'm annoying them into leaving me because everyone leaves me so I want to cling to them but it always pushes people away more and it's like the more I be myself the less people like me (2)

I try to be active but wtf am I supposed to be active for when nobody else is online 💀