This the kinda post that gets taken out of context and tries to cancel me bro

This is my humor now

Why do I want to be traumatized so badly what the fuck is actually wrong with me I’m disgusting and I romanticize ts???? Wow I should kill myself at this point but even that should be reserved for ppl who are ACTUALLY suffering!!!!

everyday i regret cutting at 14~ and wish i started when i was younger
why was i such a coward to cut

am i too old to get gr00med and s@'ed and kidnapped and all that good shit because i'm 16 and i should know better now???? i still feel like a 14 yr so hey any p3d0s hit me up please id love to get fucked senseless by you just to feel validated for my emotions!!! ^_^

i feel like i probably have sort of secondary trauma but the way i see it everyone has a bit of that so im not special and anything i say and do dont count god i wish i got groomed or some shit i just want to have a BIG reason.
i want to get kidnapped, almost die, i want SOMEONE TO FUCKING BLAME.

i wish my dad or mom or sister actually abused me like physically hit me and left scars so i feel justified feeling everything but they never did and i was loved
i feel like being a deer being petted while watching another deer get shot at
sure i didnt get shot
but
i saw it
does it still count?

its not even called a perfectionist, its called being a sensitive crybaby and a sore loser, theres a big difference

i think you can tell whenever i lose another match in forsaken
the funny thing is i get this pissed sometimes too while playing candy crush

insanity and normality is a concept made by the general public to herd humans and everything else into perfect little pens, so im going to fucking break those pens and break everything else and might as well burn the grass while we're at it

i would rather kill myself than listen to those thoughts because its fucking wrong, its in the heat of the moment where fucking everything is appealing to me. when i go back to a sane mind, i would regret it.