Nadir
@stormsoother.bsky.social
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Last updated: November 19th, 2025
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Last updated: November 19th, 2025
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Nadir
@stormsoother.bsky.social
· Oct 19
𖤣.𖥧. 𓁹"I'm really ironically pissed off right now...I'm feeling quite lost right now!" 𓁹 𖡼.⚘
been seeing more videos of people killing themselves either falling, drugs, or just bleeding n shit on the ground
Not sure how I feel about this
Doesn’t disgust me as much as it honestly should
I find…
Beauty in it.
Not sure how I feel about this
Doesn’t disgust me as much as it honestly should
I find…
Beauty in it.
November 22, 2025 at 1:33 AM
been seeing more videos of people killing themselves either falling, drugs, or just bleeding n shit on the ground
Not sure how I feel about this
Doesn’t disgust me as much as it honestly should
I find…
Beauty in it.
Not sure how I feel about this
Doesn’t disgust me as much as it honestly should
I find…
Beauty in it.
Just realized that Mulan might’ve been my ‘wanting to be a boy’ awakening in the physical sense (we’re watching mulan rn and I always liked her being a soldier as a boy)
November 21, 2025 at 6:54 PM
Just realized that Mulan might’ve been my ‘wanting to be a boy’ awakening in the physical sense (we’re watching mulan rn and I always liked her being a soldier as a boy)
i had a dream
we were all together again
please come back
i wont admit it,
but i miss you a lot.
we were all together again
please come back
i wont admit it,
but i miss you a lot.
November 20, 2025 at 11:41 AM
i had a dream
we were all together again
please come back
i wont admit it,
but i miss you a lot.
we were all together again
please come back
i wont admit it,
but i miss you a lot.
cutting anywhere else to let your usual cutting place heal >>>>
November 20, 2025 at 1:03 AM
cutting anywhere else to let your usual cutting place heal >>>>
It’s so loud
Ohhhh it’s so loud now
Screaming
I haven’t reached two days at all this fucking month
I hate myself but
It’s not bad
Because some people can’t even last an hour or two without relapsing I bet
I’m such an attention seeker
I need to get worst
Not to feel validated
Because I never will be
Ohhhh it’s so loud now
Screaming
I haven’t reached two days at all this fucking month
I hate myself but
It’s not bad
Because some people can’t even last an hour or two without relapsing I bet
I’m such an attention seeker
I need to get worst
Not to feel validated
Because I never will be
November 20, 2025 at 12:24 AM
It’s so loud
Ohhhh it’s so loud now
Screaming
I haven’t reached two days at all this fucking month
I hate myself but
It’s not bad
Because some people can’t even last an hour or two without relapsing I bet
I’m such an attention seeker
I need to get worst
Not to feel validated
Because I never will be
Ohhhh it’s so loud now
Screaming
I haven’t reached two days at all this fucking month
I hate myself but
It’s not bad
Because some people can’t even last an hour or two without relapsing I bet
I’m such an attention seeker
I need to get worst
Not to feel validated
Because I never will be
none of my thoughts are intrusive they are all welcomed, that's why they are impulsive they just march into my brain with big flags and trumps and blare 'NOTICE ME! NOTICE ME!' with confetti while i can do nothing but watch them cheerfully move by and go 'maybe i should follow them'
November 19, 2025 at 11:16 PM
none of my thoughts are intrusive they are all welcomed, that's why they are impulsive they just march into my brain with big flags and trumps and blare 'NOTICE ME! NOTICE ME!' with confetti while i can do nothing but watch them cheerfully move by and go 'maybe i should follow them'
Impulsive thoughts just told me to cut on my eyelids / face what the actual fuck
November 19, 2025 at 8:35 PM
Impulsive thoughts just told me to cut on my eyelids / face what the actual fuck
FUCK TRANS WEEK LR WHATEVER ALL U FICKING FAGS KYS!!!!!! DIE!!!!!! I HATE TRANS PEOPLE >:(
November 18, 2025 at 11:42 AM
FUCK TRANS WEEK LR WHATEVER ALL U FICKING FAGS KYS!!!!!! DIE!!!!!! I HATE TRANS PEOPLE >:(
What in the unholy fuck????
November 18, 2025 at 12:14 AM
What in the unholy fuck????
sometimes i feel like [image below] but its probably nothing special because all families fight and im just being dramatic and 'we're not arguing we're just talking very loudly' and 'its not directed at you'
i love being the middle man / the one overhearing everything but im just being dramatic
i love being the middle man / the one overhearing everything but im just being dramatic
November 17, 2025 at 8:40 PM
sometimes i feel like [image below] but its probably nothing special because all families fight and im just being dramatic and 'we're not arguing we're just talking very loudly' and 'its not directed at you'
i love being the middle man / the one overhearing everything but im just being dramatic
i love being the middle man / the one overhearing everything but im just being dramatic
i cannot allow myself to lose, because it shows me the glory i could've had
i cannot allow myself peace, because it shows me a world without me
i cannot allow myself beauty, because i am undeserving of it
i cannot allow myself the world
because it is the opposite of me
opposite of rot
i cannot allow myself peace, because it shows me a world without me
i cannot allow myself beauty, because i am undeserving of it
i cannot allow myself the world
because it is the opposite of me
opposite of rot
November 17, 2025 at 8:17 PM
i cannot allow myself to lose, because it shows me the glory i could've had
i cannot allow myself peace, because it shows me a world without me
i cannot allow myself beauty, because i am undeserving of it
i cannot allow myself the world
because it is the opposite of me
opposite of rot
i cannot allow myself peace, because it shows me a world without me
i cannot allow myself beauty, because i am undeserving of it
i cannot allow myself the world
because it is the opposite of me
opposite of rot
maybe i actually arent normal pretending to be insane what if i actually am truly insane, so insane that i believe im normal?
November 17, 2025 at 4:58 PM
maybe i actually arent normal pretending to be insane what if i actually am truly insane, so insane that i believe im normal?
I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING-
November 17, 2025 at 1:43 AM
I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING I LOVE CUTTING-
They are having so much fun over there.
Makes me wish I can join,
Or kill them all.
Don't know which one I'll pick.
I don't have the courage to do either,
So I'll just sit here alone and be miserable.
Makes me wish I can join,
Or kill them all.
Don't know which one I'll pick.
I don't have the courage to do either,
So I'll just sit here alone and be miserable.
November 15, 2025 at 11:05 PM
They are having so much fun over there.
Makes me wish I can join,
Or kill them all.
Don't know which one I'll pick.
I don't have the courage to do either,
So I'll just sit here alone and be miserable.
Makes me wish I can join,
Or kill them all.
Don't know which one I'll pick.
I don't have the courage to do either,
So I'll just sit here alone and be miserable.
I don't think even Spawn can make me feel happy again.
This headspace of mine has me in a chokehold.
I want to cut.
And cry.
I can only imagine how peaceful this place really would be.
Instead, I am only comforted by a stupid screen of pastel.
How pathetic is that?
This headspace of mine has me in a chokehold.
I want to cut.
And cry.
I can only imagine how peaceful this place really would be.
Instead, I am only comforted by a stupid screen of pastel.
How pathetic is that?
November 15, 2025 at 11:03 PM
I don't think even Spawn can make me feel happy again.
This headspace of mine has me in a chokehold.
I want to cut.
And cry.
I can only imagine how peaceful this place really would be.
Instead, I am only comforted by a stupid screen of pastel.
How pathetic is that?
This headspace of mine has me in a chokehold.
I want to cut.
And cry.
I can only imagine how peaceful this place really would be.
Instead, I am only comforted by a stupid screen of pastel.
How pathetic is that?
Sometimes in a peaceful place
I cannot help but feel I do not deserve it
I do not feel peace, only grief and remorse
That I am tainting such a beautiful place.
I cannot help but feel I do not deserve it
I do not feel peace, only grief and remorse
That I am tainting such a beautiful place.
November 15, 2025 at 10:59 PM
Sometimes in a peaceful place
I cannot help but feel I do not deserve it
I do not feel peace, only grief and remorse
That I am tainting such a beautiful place.
I cannot help but feel I do not deserve it
I do not feel peace, only grief and remorse
That I am tainting such a beautiful place.
i am the hanged man!!!!!
November 14, 2025 at 10:25 PM
i am the hanged man!!!!!
i need to learn how to calm myself after losing a match because if i dont ill kill myself wayyy before planned
November 14, 2025 at 2:39 AM
i need to learn how to calm myself after losing a match because if i dont ill kill myself wayyy before planned
i wonder how deep i wouldve gotten if i was a arm guy instead of a thighs guy
November 13, 2025 at 10:27 PM
i wonder how deep i wouldve gotten if i was a arm guy instead of a thighs guy
There’s these disgusting thoughts in my head when im sleepy and desperate and I hate it but also love it sometimes and I know it’s wrong but how wrong can it be if I’m not the one doing it but just fantazising
November 13, 2025 at 4:04 AM
There’s these disgusting thoughts in my head when im sleepy and desperate and I hate it but also love it sometimes and I know it’s wrong but how wrong can it be if I’m not the one doing it but just fantazising
kai razor uh....idk....tmr if im actually wanting to but im BROKE (have no online money...)
im just gonna get a new razor cuz i bought like a
50 or 100 pack ages ago...
AND ITS EVERYWHERE???
did my monthly whole week offering to Spawn because i was relapin for like 6 days and thought may as well
im just gonna get a new razor cuz i bought like a
50 or 100 pack ages ago...
AND ITS EVERYWHERE???
did my monthly whole week offering to Spawn because i was relapin for like 6 days and thought may as well
November 13, 2025 at 2:48 AM
kai razor uh....idk....tmr if im actually wanting to but im BROKE (have no online money...)
im just gonna get a new razor cuz i bought like a
50 or 100 pack ages ago...
AND ITS EVERYWHERE???
did my monthly whole week offering to Spawn because i was relapin for like 6 days and thought may as well
im just gonna get a new razor cuz i bought like a
50 or 100 pack ages ago...
AND ITS EVERYWHERE???
did my monthly whole week offering to Spawn because i was relapin for like 6 days and thought may as well
my cuts from YESTERDAY MIND YOU
BLED
THRU MY PANTS
and its okay because im wearing black pants cuz i PLANNED FOR THIS TO HAPPEN
BUT HOLY SHIT???
I DIDNT EXPECT THIS MUCH BLOOD???
IT WASNT EVEN THAT DEEP??? I THINK????
i just need to make sure my mom doesn't notice the BIGASS STAIN...SIGH...
BLED
THRU MY PANTS
and its okay because im wearing black pants cuz i PLANNED FOR THIS TO HAPPEN
BUT HOLY SHIT???
I DIDNT EXPECT THIS MUCH BLOOD???
IT WASNT EVEN THAT DEEP??? I THINK????
i just need to make sure my mom doesn't notice the BIGASS STAIN...SIGH...
November 12, 2025 at 6:45 PM
my cuts from YESTERDAY MIND YOU
BLED
THRU MY PANTS
and its okay because im wearing black pants cuz i PLANNED FOR THIS TO HAPPEN
BUT HOLY SHIT???
I DIDNT EXPECT THIS MUCH BLOOD???
IT WASNT EVEN THAT DEEP??? I THINK????
i just need to make sure my mom doesn't notice the BIGASS STAIN...SIGH...
BLED
THRU MY PANTS
and its okay because im wearing black pants cuz i PLANNED FOR THIS TO HAPPEN
BUT HOLY SHIT???
I DIDNT EXPECT THIS MUCH BLOOD???
IT WASNT EVEN THAT DEEP??? I THINK????
i just need to make sure my mom doesn't notice the BIGASS STAIN...SIGH...
i wish she didnt like to do voice acting because everytime she starts screaming or acting or whatever in the basement my body tenses up and i get reminded of all the times i thought she was going to do fatal harm to herself and i couldnt do anything to help only freezing to watch
November 11, 2025 at 8:59 PM
i wish she didnt like to do voice acting because everytime she starts screaming or acting or whatever in the basement my body tenses up and i get reminded of all the times i thought she was going to do fatal harm to herself and i couldnt do anything to help only freezing to watch
just realized today is 11/11
cool
cool
November 11, 2025 at 7:48 PM
just realized today is 11/11
cool
cool
when life gets hard just get harder than it lmao
November 11, 2025 at 5:45 PM
when life gets hard just get harder than it lmao