Ashessss
@starryxashes.bsky.social
Hi I'm Ashes!
25 - edsky - shsky - venting - she/they, plural a lot
Manic restrictive dream girl ✌️🌙
Kinda recovering, kinda relapsing
SW: 167
CW: 145.2
LW: 135
GW: 115
BMI: 23.4
Minors and non ed dni
25 - edsky - shsky - venting - she/they, plural a lot
Manic restrictive dream girl ✌️🌙
Kinda recovering, kinda relapsing
SW: 167
CW: 145.2
LW: 135
GW: 115
BMI: 23.4
Minors and non ed dni
Pinned
November tracker! Probably getting back on it this month but who knows.
Manifesting comfort and self care in safe places, positive transformation and the intuition to guide it, gentleness towards those around me and connection to nature, and quiet but fierce self reliance and protection
Manifesting comfort and self care in safe places, positive transformation and the intuition to guide it, gentleness towards those around me and connection to nature, and quiet but fierce self reliance and protection
Yall I did so much cool shit at aerial this week but omg my body is so fucking dead 😭 it hurts to move any limb rn
November 16, 2025 at 6:19 PM
Yall I did so much cool shit at aerial this week but omg my body is so fucking dead 😭 it hurts to move any limb rn
I think of or say something funny irl and my brain goes 'ooo the pretty little mentally ill people in my phone would love this one'
November 16, 2025 at 4:38 PM
I think of or say something funny irl and my brain goes 'ooo the pretty little mentally ill people in my phone would love this one'
Hey chat how are you guys??? I feel like my brain has barely been working since it started getting cold :(
November 16, 2025 at 4:13 PM
Hey chat how are you guys??? I feel like my brain has barely been working since it started getting cold :(
The tension between my small parts and wanting to cuddle our stuffed animals constantly and being petrified of ruining them :(
November 16, 2025 at 5:16 AM
The tension between my small parts and wanting to cuddle our stuffed animals constantly and being petrified of ruining them :(
Everything's gnaaarly
November 16, 2025 at 12:49 AM
Everything's gnaaarly
Hey guys how do I stop the anxiety that my roommate is going to k!ll themselves bc half the time when they leave the house for a while or longer than I think they should be gone I kinda panic and I don't want to that feels disrespectful to them but also
November 15, 2025 at 11:44 PM
Hey guys how do I stop the anxiety that my roommate is going to k!ll themselves bc half the time when they leave the house for a while or longer than I think they should be gone I kinda panic and I don't want to that feels disrespectful to them but also
He didn't! We just hung out and did something good together. Platonic things are so great
I can't be asked to do things with ppl that aren't my close friends bc my brain always jumps to 'they want to sleep with me' as the only reasonable reason I would be asked
November 15, 2025 at 9:16 PM
He didn't! We just hung out and did something good together. Platonic things are so great
M eepy and cold well maybe not that cold but m eepy
November 15, 2025 at 3:41 AM
M eepy and cold well maybe not that cold but m eepy
Told my roommate I call our cats chat today and idk I feel like surely something in the way they see me changed 😭
November 15, 2025 at 3:17 AM
Told my roommate I call our cats chat today and idk I feel like surely something in the way they see me changed 😭
No one:
Brain: so like... what if we sh'd? Wouldn't that be fun? We should so do that
Brain: so like... what if we sh'd? Wouldn't that be fun? We should so do that
November 15, 2025 at 1:11 AM
No one:
Brain: so like... what if we sh'd? Wouldn't that be fun? We should so do that
Brain: so like... what if we sh'd? Wouldn't that be fun? We should so do that
Was going to make salmon tonight and be all fancy but it went bad :/ now my brain is like 'well now maybe we just don't because that was the plan and the plan is bad now'
November 14, 2025 at 10:43 PM
Was going to make salmon tonight and be all fancy but it went bad :/ now my brain is like 'well now maybe we just don't because that was the plan and the plan is bad now'
I can't be asked to do things with ppl that aren't my close friends bc my brain always jumps to 'they want to sleep with me' as the only reasonable reason I would be asked
November 14, 2025 at 10:19 PM
I can't be asked to do things with ppl that aren't my close friends bc my brain always jumps to 'they want to sleep with me' as the only reasonable reason I would be asked
I try really hard not to care about people who get pissy with us for talking about having an ED but I'm really really REALLY sick of seeing shit about us being pro for talking about it. Oh gods forbid! I should just be taking my mental illness silently and alone like a good girl not SPEAKING!
November 14, 2025 at 8:29 PM
I try really hard not to care about people who get pissy with us for talking about having an ED but I'm really really REALLY sick of seeing shit about us being pro for talking about it. Oh gods forbid! I should just be taking my mental illness silently and alone like a good girl not SPEAKING!
Your girl for some reason just... didn't know you could use a q tip on piercings to clean them and was just using the little sharp/hook part on nail clippers 😭 no WONDER they got so pissed off a couple nights ago
November 14, 2025 at 2:03 AM
Your girl for some reason just... didn't know you could use a q tip on piercings to clean them and was just using the little sharp/hook part on nail clippers 😭 no WONDER they got so pissed off a couple nights ago
Small brain is good brain reset and no scary thoughts :)
November 13, 2025 at 11:27 PM
Small brain is good brain reset and no scary thoughts :)
I do still wanna cut and now it's not because I'm having a meltdown I just still want to :(
November 13, 2025 at 10:02 PM
I do still wanna cut and now it's not because I'm having a meltdown I just still want to :(
Guys I'm out here not cutting, not tracking, not trying to res really at all idk who I am anymore
November 13, 2025 at 9:18 PM
Guys I'm out here not cutting, not tracking, not trying to res really at all idk who I am anymore
There's dried blood in the sink. Not much, just a spot, small enough for someone to miss. It's not mine. It's my roommate's. They hurt themselves because they think I hurt myself because they hurt me. That's such a long winded insane statement and yet
November 13, 2025 at 6:31 PM
There's dried blood in the sink. Not much, just a spot, small enough for someone to miss. It's not mine. It's my roommate's. They hurt themselves because they think I hurt myself because they hurt me. That's such a long winded insane statement and yet
I think I'm going to be hiding in my room today. I'll leave to pee or get water but other than that this is the only way I can think of to stop myself from hurting my roommate more
November 13, 2025 at 4:11 PM
I think I'm going to be hiding in my room today. I'll leave to pee or get water but other than that this is the only way I can think of to stop myself from hurting my roommate more
Good morning I'm trying to go back to sleep bc I still want to hurt myself
November 13, 2025 at 12:47 PM
Good morning I'm trying to go back to sleep bc I still want to hurt myself
Reposted by Ashessss
and dawn????
where are my mooooooties
where are my mooooooties
where the hell is dolly???
November 13, 2025 at 12:10 PM
and dawn????
where are my mooooooties
where are my mooooooties
Tomorrow could be more dangerous than today. We worked through the impulse. That's good. I still have the urge clawing at me though. If it keeps going for day 2, that's when it becomes more than an urge and I might break on that. And I have the blades now. So we'll see.
November 13, 2025 at 5:51 AM
Tomorrow could be more dangerous than today. We worked through the impulse. That's good. I still have the urge clawing at me though. If it keeps going for day 2, that's when it becomes more than an urge and I might break on that. And I have the blades now. So we'll see.
I don't know how the fuck I made it through tonight without cutting. I bought the blades. I had it on my leg. I just. Didn't. I should feel good about this. Why don't I? I feel so... weak
November 13, 2025 at 5:18 AM
I don't know how the fuck I made it through tonight without cutting. I bought the blades. I had it on my leg. I just. Didn't. I should feel good about this. Why don't I? I feel so... weak
Accidental fast day
November 13, 2025 at 1:56 AM
Accidental fast day