i would like to do a lot, but i don't have the faith in myself that it's possible to have the life that i want. i'm not confident in my ability to complete my goals, so i stopped making goals. i got tired of failing over and over and figure it's just easier not to try

i would like to work in a field where i can help people and give them education and resources that help draw them into better lives with better opportunity for happiness, but i feel too undereducated and too old to learn.

i guess when i imagine happiness for myself it's coming up blank, or coming up as unrealistic and impossible. i would LIKE to live in an apartment on my own, so i could look out over the city at night as it rains and just breathe. but it's too expensive and i can't keep up with jobs for long.

i feel like there's just been so little upside to being alive. i'm barely scraping by and the reward is that sometimes i laugh with my friends. my life doesn't mean anything :/ i'm sticking around out of guilt because i don't wanna leave my brother behind

dude i completely get u. it's so frustrating but you've got this 💗

i feel this so hard. when i took fluoxetine i was the worst i've ever been because it makes you so numb and lethargic. if u do choose to stop taking the meds just be aware that going off of them suddenly can suck ass even more then the lethargy and tiredness. hang in there <3