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ᰔ welcome to my acct! ᰔ
╭ minors dnf﹒
﹕ed diary / vent ﹒⊹
╰ anti-hate﹒
ᰔ dnf = do not follow ᰔ
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why is it the more water i drink the less hydrated i feel
November 8, 2025 at 6:31 AM
why is it the more water i drink the less hydrated i feel
i love being a fatass alcoholic (i'm miserable and so insecure that i won't leave the house)
November 4, 2025 at 11:29 AM
i love being a fatass alcoholic (i'm miserable and so insecure that i won't leave the house)
i bought 2L of vodka and i'm hoping that gets me through until next pay. i'm trying to spend all my pay at once and properly be prepared for the fortnight, so i don't impulse spend on stupid shit and then not have any left for the essentials
November 4, 2025 at 9:23 AM
i bought 2L of vodka and i'm hoping that gets me through until next pay. i'm trying to spend all my pay at once and properly be prepared for the fortnight, so i don't impulse spend on stupid shit and then not have any left for the essentials
wish i was drunk
November 3, 2025 at 8:54 AM
wish i was drunk
the embarrassment and shame that comes w existing after you've gained weight is unmatched. especially if you were fat, lost weight and then gained it all back. it feels like everyone's secretly so disappointed that you got ugly again
November 1, 2025 at 11:55 AM
the embarrassment and shame that comes w existing after you've gained weight is unmatched. especially if you were fat, lost weight and then gained it all back. it feels like everyone's secretly so disappointed that you got ugly again
me being fat has totally destroyed my life. i'm too insecure to do anything except stay at home and get fatter
October 31, 2025 at 9:48 AM
me being fat has totally destroyed my life. i'm too insecure to do anything except stay at home and get fatter
happy halloween!! it's okay to day drink
October 31, 2025 at 5:27 AM
happy halloween!! it's okay to day drink
because the bottle shop knows i'm a regular, the guy said it's cool if i just owe them $2 so i got a 10pk !! i love them
she sent me $20 which is nice but idk what to do with it LOL. i could walk to the further bottle shop and get like... little fat lamb i guess. even the cheap ciders are $21
i just want alcohol i don't care
October 30, 2025 at 10:26 AM
because the bottle shop knows i'm a regular, the guy said it's cool if i just owe them $2 so i got a 10pk !! i love them
she sent me $20 which is nice but idk what to do with it LOL. i could walk to the further bottle shop and get like... little fat lamb i guess. even the cheap ciders are $21
i just want alcohol i don't care
October 30, 2025 at 9:03 AM
she sent me $20 which is nice but idk what to do with it LOL. i could walk to the further bottle shop and get like... little fat lamb i guess. even the cheap ciders are $21
i just want alcohol i don't care
October 30, 2025 at 8:51 AM
i just want alcohol i don't care
asking my narcissistic mother for money and praying my shame fuels her enough to boost her ego into doing it so i can buy booze
October 30, 2025 at 8:50 AM
asking my narcissistic mother for money and praying my shame fuels her enough to boost her ego into doing it so i can buy booze
the biggest cockblock to my happiness is money. i can work for short bursts of time before i get burnt out (usually bc of issues with rsd), and that burn out is so painful. i feel humiliated that i can't just be normal and push through those feelings without wanting to drive into a wall
October 29, 2025 at 5:35 AM
the biggest cockblock to my happiness is money. i can work for short bursts of time before i get burnt out (usually bc of issues with rsd), and that burn out is so painful. i feel humiliated that i can't just be normal and push through those feelings without wanting to drive into a wall
idk what happiness would be to me. feeling financially secure? having a house to call my own, decorated with my own things where i feel free to sit in the loungeroom? working a job that i find stimulating and rewarding?
October 29, 2025 at 5:22 AM
idk what happiness would be to me. feeling financially secure? having a house to call my own, decorated with my own things where i feel free to sit in the loungeroom? working a job that i find stimulating and rewarding?
i never asked to be born, and now my life is piled high with the responsibility to keep myself alive. i have to work or suffer with low income. i have to pay $290 a week to live in a tiny house with another person and pay bills and buy food. how could i not be depressed
October 29, 2025 at 4:10 AM
i never asked to be born, and now my life is piled high with the responsibility to keep myself alive. i have to work or suffer with low income. i have to pay $290 a week to live in a tiny house with another person and pay bills and buy food. how could i not be depressed
sometimes u just gotta eat 2 lebanese cucumbers with kfc aoli sauce
October 28, 2025 at 9:38 AM
sometimes u just gotta eat 2 lebanese cucumbers with kfc aoli sauce
my finances are terrible because i'm terrible with my money. i didn't service my car even when i was working and had the money to service it, and now it doesn't work. my roommate works and doesn't have a car but i use not having mine as an excuse not to because it's uncomfortable :/
October 28, 2025 at 4:30 AM
my finances are terrible because i'm terrible with my money. i didn't service my car even when i was working and had the money to service it, and now it doesn't work. my roommate works and doesn't have a car but i use not having mine as an excuse not to because it's uncomfortable :/
remember: it's only a rest day if you allow yourself to rest
October 28, 2025 at 3:49 AM
remember: it's only a rest day if you allow yourself to rest
it was your parents' responsibility to listen to and acknowledge you. it's a parents' role to make you feel safe, heard and loved. when a parent fails to do these things it changes the way our brains are wired and leads to a lot of confusion and suffering as adults
October 28, 2025 at 3:42 AM
it was your parents' responsibility to listen to and acknowledge you. it's a parents' role to make you feel safe, heard and loved. when a parent fails to do these things it changes the way our brains are wired and leads to a lot of confusion and suffering as adults
a lot of us didn't have our realities confirmed to us as kids and it shows. it's so so important to listen and hear what children are saying to you. repeat it back to them to confirm that it was heard BEFORE correcting them!!! listen to HEAR not to TEACH.
October 28, 2025 at 3:40 AM
a lot of us didn't have our realities confirmed to us as kids and it shows. it's so so important to listen and hear what children are saying to you. repeat it back to them to confirm that it was heard BEFORE correcting them!!! listen to HEAR not to TEACH.
if u see this it's a sign to keep going. keep fighting through feeling like shit. i know the world is so hard but i'm right here with you. we will get through this. you deserve to be alive 💗
October 26, 2025 at 2:27 PM
if u see this it's a sign to keep going. keep fighting through feeling like shit. i know the world is so hard but i'm right here with you. we will get through this. you deserve to be alive 💗
i can't die because i have to have my little brother's back. i'll never leave him alone to deal with the world because i know it's just too hard to do without someone by your side
October 26, 2025 at 1:32 PM
i can't die because i have to have my little brother's back. i'll never leave him alone to deal with the world because i know it's just too hard to do without someone by your side
realising that it may also be the fact that i'm drinking a lot of alcohol that my sh scars r going numb... but i also think vasline helps with hydration which helps w movement. i'll check in again w the vasline when i'm sober to double confirm my advice abt using it for scars
October 26, 2025 at 1:00 PM
realising that it may also be the fact that i'm drinking a lot of alcohol that my sh scars r going numb... but i also think vasline helps with hydration which helps w movement. i'll check in again w the vasline when i'm sober to double confirm my advice abt using it for scars
i've started putting vaseline on my sh scar bc it's been hurting so bad lately. the pain went away right away but idk if that's bc of the hydration or massaging of applying it. either way i recommend it if ur scars r hurting <3
October 26, 2025 at 12:18 PM
i've started putting vaseline on my sh scar bc it's been hurting so bad lately. the pain went away right away but idk if that's bc of the hydration or massaging of applying it. either way i recommend it if ur scars r hurting <3
i know i complain a lot, but there's a lot that i'm grateful for too. i feel safe and unintruded on in my home. i'm not worried of my food being taken, i'm not worried about my space being invaded and i'm not worried about not knowing if my roommate will be volotile or manic if i leave my room
October 26, 2025 at 6:58 AM
i know i complain a lot, but there's a lot that i'm grateful for too. i feel safe and unintruded on in my home. i'm not worried of my food being taken, i'm not worried about my space being invaded and i'm not worried about not knowing if my roommate will be volotile or manic if i leave my room
making a nostalgia playlist with the music i was listening to from primary school to high and it's so telling LMAO. little emo <3
October 26, 2025 at 4:18 AM
making a nostalgia playlist with the music i was listening to from primary school to high and it's so telling LMAO. little emo <3