And since journals/diaries are offline, they're free from the corrupting influence of GenAI and fascist government censorship. Physical media is the key to protecting our history for future generations.

It's a piece of me that's tangible and exists in the real world, and no matter how bad technology gets, AI can't take it away from me. It is real.

In this chaotic time we're living in, writing in it at the end of each day has been therapeutic, helping me process my trauma and recent dysphoric feelings, and this confusing world.

I wonder if I would've had a happier childhood and young adulthood if I'd been born a woman instead.

IDK if this is a phase that'll pass or if it's full-blown body/gender dysphoria. I'm already confused about other aspects of myself, and this is just exasperating the issue further.

Planet Of The Vampires, They Live, and Jacob's Ladder are the ones I recognize, all are great.

I probably shouldn't feel this way, but I do. I've been stuck floundering for years, bouncing from project to project, never able to stay focused on one for very long. I should've had something worth showing by now, but I don't. And now, the pressure's mounting.

I've been feeling this irrational existential fear for awhile now, where if I don't achieve some creative milestone by the time I'm 30 (i.e. finish a film project and submit it to a festival, finally work on an animation, make a game), then I've failed in life somehow.

The confrontation between Jax and Pomni was nerve wracking. Incredible writing.

RITA timelapse.