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「Reslia」
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I can’t tell one emotion from another. Is it love? Infatuation? Obsessiveness? Intrigue? Platonic?

Does it even really exist or is it all in my head?

Whatever it is, it hurts. A lot.
Feels like a truck is running into me every time I think about it.
August 28, 2025 at 1:55 PM
To any of my friends who see this, I am a chronic over thinker, so any way that you can reassure me you care, even if it’s cliche as fuck, I appreciate it so much and I love it so much.

My sister is sick of getting the ‘is this true or is it my anxiety?’ questions.
She’s had enough.
June 1, 2025 at 3:34 PM
Ugh

Just tried talking to my dad. Not about anything crazy, but I was talking while coming from the heart, trying to explain how I feel, just about something important to me that others don’t find as such.

And as I’m on the topic of importance and listening, he cuts in and changes topic…

Thanks.
May 30, 2025 at 4:12 AM
I feel wrong for wishing they would acknowledge me more.

Usually I don’t want the attention, I like listening to people.

But I give my everything when it’s one of his topics or concerns, and mine get ignored in favour for his own.

Yet I still love them for some reason…
May 29, 2025 at 9:36 AM
WILL I

BE A BUZZKILL FOREVER?
BE A BUZZKILL FOREVER?
BE A BUZZKILL FOREVER?
BE A BUZZKILL FOREVER?
BE A BUZZKILL FOREVER?
BE A BUZZKILL FOREVER?
BE A BUZZKILL FOREVER?
BE A BUZZKILL FOREVER?
BE A BUZZKILL FOREVER?
BE A BUZZKILL FOREVER?
BE A BUZZKILL FOREVER?
BE A BUZZKILL FOREVER?
February 28, 2025 at 11:30 AM
Can’t stop thinking about them.

Even at work.
I know I need to stop.

It’s so hard.
I couldn’t even lay down to sleep.

The thought of a trio is so nice too, maybe that’s why this is so hard.

I can’t stop. I know I need too, but do I even want to?
February 15, 2025 at 11:51 PM
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Happy Valentine!
February 14, 2025 at 10:07 PM
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Buds 🥰🥰
February 14, 2025 at 1:26 AM
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#arcaea
O Fortuna velut luna statu variabilis……
Distorted Fate [ETR] 🌖🌗🌘🌑
30th ETR MAX
February 14, 2025 at 8:54 AM
I like my friend

and they know

Help.
February 14, 2025 at 9:17 AM
To the lack of whoever it may concern, I lowkey would NOT be opposed to being in a romantic trio… It sounds nice, it’s double the people to give love to and care for…
February 11, 2025 at 6:27 AM
A hell resumes when I wake.
January 29, 2025 at 11:38 AM
Called my parents over today, I was crying and couldn’t stop.

I had burnt my hand in the conundrum, but that’s not why I was crying, It was already numb.

Everything went wrong over something so simple, I was crying about the idiocy of it all.

For a moment, Life was just too much to deal with.
January 25, 2025 at 6:27 AM
I need to stop depending on people.

At least, I know I do, but just can’t bring myself to actually halt.

I know I’m too clingy, but if I’m not, I’m always scared people will fall away.

I stopped seeing at as a quirk I can live with, instead as a problem I struggle to maintain.
January 24, 2025 at 12:49 PM
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Stages of trying to sleep:

I can get 8 hours
I can still get 7 hours
I can still get 6 hours
I can still get 5 hours
I can still get 4 hours
I can still get 3 hours
I can still get 2 hours
I can still get 1 hour
*falls asleep for 5 minutes*
*alarm goes off *
January 10, 2025 at 3:26 PM
Can’t sleep,

About to throw a brick at the ceiling.
January 10, 2025 at 5:23 PM
I lay in bed all day, waiting for just the sound of a notification on my phone, a friend sending a message.

I go to sleep, wake up in the afternoon, and my friends have all had conversations in my absence.

It’s selfish to be sad, I know, yet I can’t help myself.
January 9, 2025 at 9:20 AM
Laufey’s ‘Bewitched’ is hitting so much harder right now.
January 8, 2025 at 3:10 PM
I have a few shifts coming up that require me to be awake early.

My current sleep schedule will cause a problem.

I should fix it.
January 8, 2025 at 12:57 PM
I wonder why I’m so sad without my partner, now.

In the physical sense, nothing has changed.

We never saw each other because of how far apart we are.

I suppose… Things enjoy being difficult for no reason.

Yes, I find this a reccurring thought.
January 8, 2025 at 12:55 PM
I’ve been alone in the VC of a groupchat with my friends.

It’s past midnight, I’ve been here since 3pm…

It’s been 9 hours.

I’ve slept, watched videos, slept more, looked at the ceiling, made a circle of my plushies, and slept again, Waiting for a message…

I don’t know what else to do…
January 2, 2025 at 1:21 PM
Maybe I can use this as a Journal app?
December 29, 2024 at 2:16 PM
Incredibly inactive on this app.
December 29, 2024 at 2:15 PM
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Wah....
December 29, 2024 at 10:12 AM