Xan | Dirge's Janitor
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🅑🅖➌ 🩸 𝔅𝔩𝔬𝔬𝔡𝔲𝔯𝔤𝔢 : 𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘰𝘯 𝘹 𝘰𝘤 𝘧𝘭𝘢𝘷𝘰𝘶𝘳🩸
🅕🅕➊➍ 🌵 𝕏𝕖𝕣𝕚𝕤 𝕏𝕒𝕟𝕔𝕖 : c𝗁𝖺𝗈𝗌 • o𝗆𝖾𝗀𝖺 🌵
⚧ • ND • Ace • Biracial
Living in Resistance since '94 ✊🏽
🅑🅖➌ 🩸 𝔅𝔩𝔬𝔬𝔡𝔲𝔯𝔤𝔢 : 𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘰𝘯 𝘹 𝘰𝘤 𝘧𝘭𝘢𝘷𝘰𝘶𝘳🩸
🅕🅕➊➍ 🌵 𝕏𝕖𝕣𝕚𝕤 𝕏𝕒𝕟𝕔𝕖 : c𝗁𝖺𝗈𝗌 • o𝗆𝖾𝗀𝖺 🌵
⚧ • ND • Ace • Biracial
Living in Resistance since '94 ✊🏽
#tavqotd The first thing Dirge does is check the camp's perimeter, nightmares often help keep him attuned to danger while he rests. Once he's affirmed the camp's security he'll help himself to an easy meal, it helps him signal to his body that he's safe. +
November 11, 2025 at 4:47 PM
#tavqotd The first thing Dirge does is check the camp's perimeter, nightmares often help keep him attuned to danger while he rests. Once he's affirmed the camp's security he'll help himself to an easy meal, it helps him signal to his body that he's safe. +
#tavember Dream
Void of lofty ideals, Dirge fantasized; the world under his heel living in fear of his presence, and in the way one might imagine an audience naked to settle one's nerves during a performance, so too did he dream of death.
As for when he shut his eyes +
Void of lofty ideals, Dirge fantasized; the world under his heel living in fear of his presence, and in the way one might imagine an audience naked to settle one's nerves during a performance, so too did he dream of death.
As for when he shut his eyes +
November 11, 2025 at 3:04 PM
#tavember Dream
Void of lofty ideals, Dirge fantasized; the world under his heel living in fear of his presence, and in the way one might imagine an audience naked to settle one's nerves during a performance, so too did he dream of death.
As for when he shut his eyes +
Void of lofty ideals, Dirge fantasized; the world under his heel living in fear of his presence, and in the way one might imagine an audience naked to settle one's nerves during a performance, so too did he dream of death.
As for when he shut his eyes +
#tavember Fighting Style.
Dirge is a wormy & provocative fighter. Appearing unarmed he weaves the shadow from under his opponents movements into a blades that subverts the weight of the most confident blows. He operates by ambush, staying ahead by whatever means, poison, magic, people.
Dirge is a wormy & provocative fighter. Appearing unarmed he weaves the shadow from under his opponents movements into a blades that subverts the weight of the most confident blows. He operates by ambush, staying ahead by whatever means, poison, magic, people.
November 11, 2025 at 12:11 PM
#tavember Fighting Style.
Dirge is a wormy & provocative fighter. Appearing unarmed he weaves the shadow from under his opponents movements into a blades that subverts the weight of the most confident blows. He operates by ambush, staying ahead by whatever means, poison, magic, people.
Dirge is a wormy & provocative fighter. Appearing unarmed he weaves the shadow from under his opponents movements into a blades that subverts the weight of the most confident blows. He operates by ambush, staying ahead by whatever means, poison, magic, people.
#BG3FirstsWeek I don't share a lot of writing so I thought I'd give it a go, neither are explicit I just wanted to write both.
Dirge's First Kiss. (left)
Dirge's First Time Having Sex (right)
Dirge's First Kiss. (left)
Dirge's First Time Having Sex (right)
November 10, 2025 at 11:21 PM
#BG3FirstsWeek I don't share a lot of writing so I thought I'd give it a go, neither are explicit I just wanted to write both.
Dirge's First Kiss. (left)
Dirge's First Time Having Sex (right)
Dirge's First Kiss. (left)
Dirge's First Time Having Sex (right)
#tavember Treat
Dirge has a few favourite indulgences, cannibalistic tastes aside eating a sacrificial lamb in his own name dressed to the nines always highlights a special occasion.
As for a date night, it's a bounty hunt, naturally something/one they don't have to bring back alive.
Dirge has a few favourite indulgences, cannibalistic tastes aside eating a sacrificial lamb in his own name dressed to the nines always highlights a special occasion.
As for a date night, it's a bounty hunt, naturally something/one they don't have to bring back alive.
November 9, 2025 at 10:22 PM
#tavember Treat
Dirge has a few favourite indulgences, cannibalistic tastes aside eating a sacrificial lamb in his own name dressed to the nines always highlights a special occasion.
As for a date night, it's a bounty hunt, naturally something/one they don't have to bring back alive.
Dirge has a few favourite indulgences, cannibalistic tastes aside eating a sacrificial lamb in his own name dressed to the nines always highlights a special occasion.
As for a date night, it's a bounty hunt, naturally something/one they don't have to bring back alive.
#tavqotd A stepping stone turned pillar. Dirge used Astarion to keep close to death, the domain of his power, though it was more of a compulsion than premeditated intent. Waiting for an inevitable betrayal, instead he was met w authenticity & compassion, leading him to question/challenge his fears.
November 9, 2025 at 8:53 PM
#tavqotd A stepping stone turned pillar. Dirge used Astarion to keep close to death, the domain of his power, though it was more of a compulsion than premeditated intent. Waiting for an inevitable betrayal, instead he was met w authenticity & compassion, leading him to question/challenge his fears.
#tavqotd
Describe your tav/durge and LI’s relationship with 4 pics!
Bloodirge is like an amalgamation of these but miraculously ends well for them.
Describe your tav/durge and LI’s relationship with 4 pics!
Bloodirge is like an amalgamation of these but miraculously ends well for them.
November 9, 2025 at 1:47 PM
#tavqotd
Describe your tav/durge and LI’s relationship with 4 pics!
Bloodirge is like an amalgamation of these but miraculously ends well for them.
Describe your tav/durge and LI’s relationship with 4 pics!
Bloodirge is like an amalgamation of these but miraculously ends well for them.
Feeling so young and correlating age with experience gives him a bias in seeing the best in people, but it's usually determined by how they benefit him.
w Astarion he's same age he was when he was turned, and in some unspoken projection it's one of many reasons he pushes Dirge to overcome Bhaal.
w Astarion he's same age he was when he was turned, and in some unspoken projection it's one of many reasons he pushes Dirge to overcome Bhaal.
November 9, 2025 at 12:06 AM
Feeling so young and correlating age with experience gives him a bias in seeing the best in people, but it's usually determined by how they benefit him.
w Astarion he's same age he was when he was turned, and in some unspoken projection it's one of many reasons he pushes Dirge to overcome Bhaal.
w Astarion he's same age he was when he was turned, and in some unspoken projection it's one of many reasons he pushes Dirge to overcome Bhaal.
#tavember Age
Dirge was 10 years older than I was when I made him, I was 29, so he's 39 during the events of BG3 and 40 by the time of the epilogue party, however because of the amnesia he feels years younger, but not in a fun way, in feeling behind his peers kind of way. +
Dirge was 10 years older than I was when I made him, I was 29, so he's 39 during the events of BG3 and 40 by the time of the epilogue party, however because of the amnesia he feels years younger, but not in a fun way, in feeling behind his peers kind of way. +
November 9, 2025 at 12:06 AM
#tavember Age
Dirge was 10 years older than I was when I made him, I was 29, so he's 39 during the events of BG3 and 40 by the time of the epilogue party, however because of the amnesia he feels years younger, but not in a fun way, in feeling behind his peers kind of way. +
Dirge was 10 years older than I was when I made him, I was 29, so he's 39 during the events of BG3 and 40 by the time of the epilogue party, however because of the amnesia he feels years younger, but not in a fun way, in feeling behind his peers kind of way. +
#TAVEMBER Dark Side. (lots of lore) 😅
Dirge's is shared between his id & superego. The id is represented by his shadow sorcery (Desire), while his superego is represented by his Bhaalian urges (Divine).
Divine manifests through fear, Desire manifests through shame. +
Dirge's is shared between his id & superego. The id is represented by his shadow sorcery (Desire), while his superego is represented by his Bhaalian urges (Divine).
Divine manifests through fear, Desire manifests through shame. +
November 8, 2025 at 10:27 PM
#TAVEMBER Dark Side. (lots of lore) 😅
Dirge's is shared between his id & superego. The id is represented by his shadow sorcery (Desire), while his superego is represented by his Bhaalian urges (Divine).
Divine manifests through fear, Desire manifests through shame. +
Dirge's is shared between his id & superego. The id is represented by his shadow sorcery (Desire), while his superego is represented by his Bhaalian urges (Divine).
Divine manifests through fear, Desire manifests through shame. +
Fashion Day (his belt fell off and got lost, I haven't found it yet, so new outfit till I do, and some extra for fun)
November 8, 2025 at 3:48 PM
Fashion Day (his belt fell off and got lost, I haven't found it yet, so new outfit till I do, and some extra for fun)
Making Dirge's promise ring the same as Xavier's from LaDz has been awfully convenient 🤭
November 8, 2025 at 2:30 PM
Making Dirge's promise ring the same as Xavier's from LaDz has been awfully convenient 🤭
Went to bed at a decent time after not sleeping at all Thursday night, just woke up, at 4am, w nausea & a headache 😑
So here's a couple more shots i took, I tried so hard troubleshooting to get Astarion's scars to show to no avail.
Ah well he's more than his scars at t'end of the day.
So here's a couple more shots i took, I tried so hard troubleshooting to get Astarion's scars to show to no avail.
Ah well he's more than his scars at t'end of the day.
November 8, 2025 at 4:31 AM
Went to bed at a decent time after not sleeping at all Thursday night, just woke up, at 4am, w nausea & a headache 😑
So here's a couple more shots i took, I tried so hard troubleshooting to get Astarion's scars to show to no avail.
Ah well he's more than his scars at t'end of the day.
So here's a couple more shots i took, I tried so hard troubleshooting to get Astarion's scars to show to no avail.
Ah well he's more than his scars at t'end of the day.
#tavqotd Having to repeat himself, not just once over but several times, Dirge hears the words but can't always make sense of what Astarion is saying. As well as Dirge's inability to admit a feeling because he thinks otherwise is beyond brattish, especially when he can hear distress in his voice.
November 7, 2025 at 10:46 PM
#tavqotd Having to repeat himself, not just once over but several times, Dirge hears the words but can't always make sense of what Astarion is saying. As well as Dirge's inability to admit a feeling because he thinks otherwise is beyond brattish, especially when he can hear distress in his voice.
I had to share this bc I stopped breathing
November 7, 2025 at 4:50 PM
I had to share this bc I stopped breathing
Dirge tracing the edge of Astarion's collar before he hooks the ring to pull him closer.
November 7, 2025 at 4:21 PM
Dirge tracing the edge of Astarion's collar before he hooks the ring to pull him closer.
i'm taking psychic damage trying to caption how they making me feel rn
November 7, 2025 at 12:59 PM
i'm taking psychic damage trying to caption how they making me feel rn
Plus I think I wanna flesh out his lore a little more
November 7, 2025 at 7:05 AM
Plus I think I wanna flesh out his lore a little more
Quil is cool but I can't see myself committing to an Astarion-less playthrough, he did not care for a man who tried to knife him (valid), and he wouldn't go out of his way to offer help, he'd help if he was asked to or it was in his interest tho. Dropping more pics before I return to Dirge tho. 😅
November 7, 2025 at 7:05 AM
Quil is cool but I can't see myself committing to an Astarion-less playthrough, he did not care for a man who tried to knife him (valid), and he wouldn't go out of his way to offer help, he'd help if he was asked to or it was in his interest tho. Dropping more pics before I return to Dirge tho. 😅
Quil did not recruit Astarion 💀
November 7, 2025 at 3:58 AM
Quil did not recruit Astarion 💀
#tavember Self-image.
Dirge doesn't have an actualized self-image, with the divide of his consciousness that shifts in response to triggers of memories lost to amnesia, he often feels like an empty space between who he was and who he needs to be, and who he needs be often depends on others.
Dirge doesn't have an actualized self-image, with the divide of his consciousness that shifts in response to triggers of memories lost to amnesia, he often feels like an empty space between who he was and who he needs to be, and who he needs be often depends on others.
November 7, 2025 at 2:26 AM
#tavember Self-image.
Dirge doesn't have an actualized self-image, with the divide of his consciousness that shifts in response to triggers of memories lost to amnesia, he often feels like an empty space between who he was and who he needs to be, and who he needs be often depends on others.
Dirge doesn't have an actualized self-image, with the divide of his consciousness that shifts in response to triggers of memories lost to amnesia, he often feels like an empty space between who he was and who he needs to be, and who he needs be often depends on others.
got inspired to make a tiefling tav today, so I'm introducing Quil, an GOO warlock, urchin background, Asmodeus Tiefling- Quil is named after the latin phrase "in sterquiliniis invenitur" meaning "In filth it will be found" - he's patron is Ghaunadaur and his Guardian is a Drow Priestess
November 7, 2025 at 1:42 AM
got inspired to make a tiefling tav today, so I'm introducing Quil, an GOO warlock, urchin background, Asmodeus Tiefling- Quil is named after the latin phrase "in sterquiliniis invenitur" meaning "In filth it will be found" - he's patron is Ghaunadaur and his Guardian is a Drow Priestess
might be the Astarion in me, but I love it when he crosses his arms
November 6, 2025 at 7:56 PM
might be the Astarion in me, but I love it when he crosses his arms
Dirge being guided by Astarion's harness as he keeps his eyes shut; slipping his knuckles under the lines of leather, following their pathways across & around Astarion's skin. Their chains lightly clashing, completely void of tension as the two bodies desperately enmesh.
Anyway, good morning 👋🏽
Anyway, good morning 👋🏽
November 6, 2025 at 3:16 PM
Dirge being guided by Astarion's harness as he keeps his eyes shut; slipping his knuckles under the lines of leather, following their pathways across & around Astarion's skin. Their chains lightly clashing, completely void of tension as the two bodies desperately enmesh.
Anyway, good morning 👋🏽
Anyway, good morning 👋🏽
extra shot bc its hot 😌
November 6, 2025 at 5:26 AM
extra shot bc its hot 😌