Luna after dark
@sparklead.bsky.social
She/He boywife. Bi genderfluid parent writer person trying things out. Settler on treaty 7 land. ACAB. BLM. Land Back. AD account so 18+ only. If you think you know me, no you don't, please.
My cat is dying, I haven’t been laid in over a month, I gave up my gaming group for a writing class because I desperately want community but my classmates are indifferent to me, I can’t do anything about my gender, I’m starting to regard myself as a failure again, & nothing is getting better
March 1, 2024 at 6:10 AM
My cat is dying, I haven’t been laid in over a month, I gave up my gaming group for a writing class because I desperately want community but my classmates are indifferent to me, I can’t do anything about my gender, I’m starting to regard myself as a failure again, & nothing is getting better
The duality of wanting to disappear so I can safely change into someone new, and hating it when I'm forgotten.
January 1, 2024 at 6:19 AM
The duality of wanting to disappear so I can safely change into someone new, and hating it when I'm forgotten.
I often feel like I have no community and no close friends, but being specifically excluded by the friends i've had sine highschool, even if I'm pretty disconnected from them these days, kinda hurts.
January 1, 2024 at 5:56 AM
I often feel like I have no community and no close friends, but being specifically excluded by the friends i've had sine highschool, even if I'm pretty disconnected from them these days, kinda hurts.
Welp, my friends were going to play games and group-watch videos and I said I'd go, but they started early and without me, so so much for that.
January 1, 2024 at 5:17 AM
Welp, my friends were going to play games and group-watch videos and I said I'd go, but they started early and without me, so so much for that.
It’s fucking raining on Dec 31. Totally normal climate apocalypse shit
January 1, 2024 at 4:09 AM
It’s fucking raining on Dec 31. Totally normal climate apocalypse shit
Mostly I complain about gender and sex stuff here but today my kids were whiny & fussy & the other adults went out for chicken wings & bowling and I stayed with the kids & got them to bed & I’m usually ok with my choices but right now I feel like reason I can’t get most of what I want is my kids
December 29, 2023 at 4:52 AM
Mostly I complain about gender and sex stuff here but today my kids were whiny & fussy & the other adults went out for chicken wings & bowling and I stayed with the kids & got them to bed & I’m usually ok with my choices but right now I feel like reason I can’t get most of what I want is my kids
Finished my eleventh novel, got back into querying, finished NaNoWriMo, did lots of therapy, figured out some direction for gender stuff, still had a lot of bad days but i think this was the first year in a while where things feel like they got better.
As we fast approach the end of 2023, what are you proud of having accomplished this year?
December 27, 2023 at 7:17 PM
Finished my eleventh novel, got back into querying, finished NaNoWriMo, did lots of therapy, figured out some direction for gender stuff, still had a lot of bad days but i think this was the first year in a while where things feel like they got better.
post a five star album and nominate 6 others to do the same (if they like):
I don’t think I know 6 people to nominate but here’s mine. The perfect album for my early 20’s in the Bush years.
I don’t think I know 6 people to nominate but here’s mine. The perfect album for my early 20’s in the Bush years.
December 23, 2023 at 6:20 AM
post a five star album and nominate 6 others to do the same (if they like):
I don’t think I know 6 people to nominate but here’s mine. The perfect album for my early 20’s in the Bush years.
I don’t think I know 6 people to nominate but here’s mine. The perfect album for my early 20’s in the Bush years.
It won’t really start to sink in until around February or so but it’s always a relief to have made it past the solstice. I’m largely solar powered and even a little cold is really uncomfortable and yet for some reason I live at a latitude with 16 hours of darkness where winter is 5 months a year.
December 23, 2023 at 6:06 AM
It won’t really start to sink in until around February or so but it’s always a relief to have made it past the solstice. I’m largely solar powered and even a little cold is really uncomfortable and yet for some reason I live at a latitude with 16 hours of darkness where winter is 5 months a year.
Picrew time!
I’ve been looking for one since my favourite went offline a while back. At least this one adequately captures the deep bags under my eyes.
I’ve been looking for one since my favourite went offline a while back. At least this one adequately captures the deep bags under my eyes.
December 23, 2023 at 5:39 AM
Picrew time!
I’ve been looking for one since my favourite went offline a while back. At least this one adequately captures the deep bags under my eyes.
I’ve been looking for one since my favourite went offline a while back. At least this one adequately captures the deep bags under my eyes.
Talking to my therapist today and even she was like “You’ve put a lot of thought into bad things that might happen if you transition.”
December 22, 2023 at 5:33 AM
Talking to my therapist today and even she was like “You’ve put a lot of thought into bad things that might happen if you transition.”
10 video games to get to know me:
Warcraft: Orcs and Humans
Final Fantasy VI
Quest For Glory 3: Wages of War
Chrono Trigger
StarCraft 2: Wings of Liberty
World of Warcraft: The Burning Crusade
X-Com: Enemy Unknown
Dragon Age: Origins
Warcraft: Orcs and Humans
Final Fantasy VI
Quest For Glory 3: Wages of War
Chrono Trigger
StarCraft 2: Wings of Liberty
World of Warcraft: The Burning Crusade
X-Com: Enemy Unknown
Dragon Age: Origins
10 video games to get to know me:
Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time
Final Fantasy VI
Chrono Trigger
Secret of Mana
Rogue Squadron II
Rock Band
Outer Wilds
The Dig
Mass Effect 2
Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild
Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time
Final Fantasy VI
Chrono Trigger
Secret of Mana
Rogue Squadron II
Rock Band
Outer Wilds
The Dig
Mass Effect 2
Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild
December 21, 2023 at 3:33 AM
10 video games to get to know me:
Warcraft: Orcs and Humans
Final Fantasy VI
Quest For Glory 3: Wages of War
Chrono Trigger
StarCraft 2: Wings of Liberty
World of Warcraft: The Burning Crusade
X-Com: Enemy Unknown
Dragon Age: Origins
Warcraft: Orcs and Humans
Final Fantasy VI
Quest For Glory 3: Wages of War
Chrono Trigger
StarCraft 2: Wings of Liberty
World of Warcraft: The Burning Crusade
X-Com: Enemy Unknown
Dragon Age: Origins
I feel like I’m spending a solid 50% of my time thinking about gender, with another 30% about climate and politics, 15% about hockey and another 20% about writing. That leaves just 8% left for managing my kids and my own schedule and all the other important household stuff.
December 20, 2023 at 4:29 AM
I feel like I’m spending a solid 50% of my time thinking about gender, with another 30% about climate and politics, 15% about hockey and another 20% about writing. That leaves just 8% left for managing my kids and my own schedule and all the other important household stuff.
Lady in my writing class complaining about "the woke" and suggesting the right doesn't bully folks. I'm sorry but what. Someone hasn't been queer on the internet.
December 15, 2023 at 4:18 AM
Lady in my writing class complaining about "the woke" and suggesting the right doesn't bully folks. I'm sorry but what. Someone hasn't been queer on the internet.
So I’ve been working with my therapist for like a year and a half and today was the first time I’ve talked about gender and she was like let’s work on the fears that I think are holding me back, which feels good but also it’s like oh shit this is happening.
December 14, 2023 at 3:14 AM
So I’ve been working with my therapist for like a year and a half and today was the first time I’ve talked about gender and she was like let’s work on the fears that I think are holding me back, which feels good but also it’s like oh shit this is happening.
Using an image, show me a movie you have watched more than 10 times.
I don’t actually think there’s a single movie I’ve watched that many times but I did see this one in theatres six times so that’s probably as close as any.
I don’t actually think there’s a single movie I’ve watched that many times but I did see this one in theatres six times so that’s probably as close as any.
December 14, 2023 at 2:53 AM
Using an image, show me a movie you have watched more than 10 times.
I don’t actually think there’s a single movie I’ve watched that many times but I did see this one in theatres six times so that’s probably as close as any.
I don’t actually think there’s a single movie I’ve watched that many times but I did see this one in theatres six times so that’s probably as close as any.
I used to pride myself on my humour but as I get older I get less and less able to make folks laugh. Beginning to consider I might not be funny enough to be trans.
December 13, 2023 at 3:02 AM
I used to pride myself on my humour but as I get older I get less and less able to make folks laugh. Beginning to consider I might not be funny enough to be trans.
Caught between wanting to disappear from the mind of everyone who knew me when I was younger and getting upset when it actually happens.
December 12, 2023 at 9:57 PM
Caught between wanting to disappear from the mind of everyone who knew me when I was younger and getting upset when it actually happens.
Reposted by Luna after dark
There’s an unclaimed $50 million lottery ticket where I live and I’ve never bought one in my whole life but my wife does occasionally so I’m gonna daydream about all the folks I could help with that cash.
December 11, 2023 at 8:54 PM
There’s an unclaimed $50 million lottery ticket where I live and I’ve never bought one in my whole life but my wife does occasionally so I’m gonna daydream about all the folks I could help with that cash.
Also this is apparently my venting account so I’m just gonna say that sometimes I feel overwhelmed by the number of mutual aid requests out there. I just sent a bunch of cash to a chronically ill friend so they had groceries and got them a set of $500 headphones off some points. Not enough.
December 11, 2023 at 5:21 AM
Also this is apparently my venting account so I’m just gonna say that sometimes I feel overwhelmed by the number of mutual aid requests out there. I just sent a bunch of cash to a chronically ill friend so they had groceries and got them a set of $500 headphones off some points. Not enough.
It’s after 9 pm and I’m in bed, time for my trans yearning.
December 11, 2023 at 5:18 AM
It’s after 9 pm and I’m in bed, time for my trans yearning.
A part of me really wants this vibe. I want to comprehend less of the horrors and be more cute
December 10, 2023 at 12:08 AM
A part of me really wants this vibe. I want to comprehend less of the horrors and be more cute
I'm thinking about cutting my hair. Been growing it since 2020, minus trims. By far the longest its ever been & part of me likes it because gender. But also it's really wavy & goes everywhere & I don't really like how I look with it. I used to be a decent looking guy. Now I'm 40 and I'll never...
December 5, 2023 at 7:44 PM
I'm thinking about cutting my hair. Been growing it since 2020, minus trims. By far the longest its ever been & part of me likes it because gender. But also it's really wavy & goes everywhere & I don't really like how I look with it. I used to be a decent looking guy. Now I'm 40 and I'll never...
So long 30s. Got married, had kids, quit my day job to write and be domestic. Probably can’t complain but I think the big failure is not doing more.
December 5, 2023 at 5:46 AM
So long 30s. Got married, had kids, quit my day job to write and be domestic. Probably can’t complain but I think the big failure is not doing more.